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The Unfortunate Event of Losing My Innocence

Updated on May 23, 2014

It can happen to anyone.

Damaged


I hide inside a dark story untold,

Oppressed by the truths that I hold.

Afraid to talk, afraid to share,

Who will understand the burden that I bare?

So instead, I grab a paper and pen

And unleash the pain that I’ve been holding in.

I was just 15 years old when I lost my ability to say no.

What was once mine, was gone in a blink

And it all started with one corrupt drink.

Defenseless – couldn’t talk, couldn’t move,

While he did whatever he wanted to do.

Skin torn, clothes on the floor,

Couldn’t hold my eyes open anymore.

I was half alive but felt mostly dead,

As I laid there on that filthy man’s bed.

I don’t remember getting dressed or going home,

I don’t even know if a condom was worn.

My parents soon found out about the attack

But said it was my fault for “getting on my back.”

I was humiliated and ashamed,

Made to believe my worth was only to please a man.

I swallowed that night like a toxic pill,

Hoping to get better but I only got more ill.

From that point, my life took shape,

damaged, by the night that I was raped.


-Kathryn Sieber

© 2014 Kate M S

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      JordonUp 

      4 years ago

      This girl is absolutely amazing!!!! I can't wait to see more I am do proud if you! ;)

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      RebelsPlace58 

      4 years ago from North Carolina

      I know you are a proud woman. This poem shows that you have come to terms in a sense with yourself enough to share with others. I am proud of you for doing so, maybe just one person if not many will be touched and helped by this. Great job!

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      lynnm223 

      4 years ago from Philadelphia, PA

      It takes a lot of strength to be open about such a traumatic event. I'm very proud of you for taking a step towards healing and helping others who have had been through similar experiences to know they aren't alone.

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      Marguerite 

      4 years ago

      That was a very touching poem. I know how that feels and i wish that upon nobody. I am sorry for all of the pain it caused you :/ just know that there are people that care

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      Kate M S 

      4 years ago from Florida

      lcbenefield - Thank you for your kind words and thank you for my first comment on my first blog, EVER! There is more to come. :)

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      lcbenefield 

      4 years ago from Georgia

      I can feel the pain. I am sorry for the ugliness you have had to endure. Writing is a good way to heal. Keep at it.

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