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A Soldier's Child: When PTSD Hits Home

Updated on April 22, 2016
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When Theresa writes poetry, the inspiration comes from her or her family's true life experiences, which results in dramatic poetry.

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My Dad, the Soldier

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Me and my Dad sitting on a bench in Germany.
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While lying in her bed in the pitch of night,

She listens to wars gone by

(Knowing, she dare not cry),

Painted now before her in plain sight,

Her eyes wide and bulging, filled with terrors of the night.

Why?

Suffers, does he, with unrelenting pain.

His speech is full of such disdain.

Her dad now home safe and sound, so she thought?

No, his mind, crippled from wars long since fought

---It travels back to where it should not.

Why?

His way home he has found,

Which is, in itself, accordingly profound.

Outwardly signs of wounds, there are none?

Internally, a battle-scarred mind cannot be undone?

Why?

Coming from the front of the house,

Criticisms of someone, he does douse.

Her dad's voice is clear and commanding.

Of whom is he demanding?

Talking to himself, is he? No, no, Captain, is with him,

Reality quickly becomes very dim.

Why?

The hard clank of a glass against the table, she hears.

The sound of which increases, as do her fears.

Vehemently, he claims aloud, Captain, don't be so stupid!

Do you know what you just did?

Vivid now are the scenes of war,

Of which she has come to most abhor.

Why?

While lying in her bed in the pitch of night,

Her ears, she covers with all her might.

Still, she hears, they are all dead, he cries.

Fallen ---his every comrade dies,

On that hill, even Captain.

Why did you have to die too? He cries again and again.

The only survivor ---is my dad's dreadful sin.

Understanding.

The bondage, ever will it cease

For the soldier and his captive child?

Yes, only with Your peace,

Freedom comes for the mind gone wild.

Hope.

Take care, dear soldiers, not your child to scare

For a battle-scarred riddled mind, you must be aware,

Is what you will find, in your child, filled with much fright,

Lying in her bed in the pitch of night.

Caution.


I had written this poem from memories I had as a child after my dad had come home from war. (He fought in both the Korean and Vietnam wars, and believe me they were wars - not conflicts!) PTSD was not known of at that time, or if it was, my family never knew of such.


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Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends.

— John 15:13

In Memory of those who paid the highest price for their country


I dedicate this poem to all those who paid the highest price for their country with their lives, and to those who did come home, but who are still suffering, many visible wounds, and many who have those battle-scarred minds.


God bless you all and your families.


Thank you for your service and we will never forget!

Me and My Dad

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      revengadown 4 years ago

      War is cold horrible machine that reap only souls and leave great destruction behind.We must do something to stop it,it is a shameful mark on the humanity' s forehead.It's time to get up and say:Halt!We've carried it far enough,We need peace on earth!

      Anyway,it s good poem,It depicts a war truamatic effects on a child s psychology.Thanks for the sharing!

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Thanks revengadown. Yes, it was all very vivid in my mind of what my dad went through, as he never would speak of it otherwise, only when drinking alone after I and my siblings went to bed, did we hear of the horrors of war. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Joseph De Cross 4 years ago

      Such a sad memory from the past. My father in law was in Korea back in 1952, I think, and he won't even talk much about it. I love history and I can picture those days... Vietnam was not better, was just a decade later. Mustard gas and secret stupid warfare gases, sent home a myriad of prisioners of themselves. Hope you are doing better now!

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      Jesshubpages 4 years ago

      Hi faith, your poem is vivid and ya, interesting. Thanks for having faith in the Lord, for taking refuge in Him. Godbless you.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Thanks Jesshubpages, Yes, He is the only way to fill that empty hole. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      lord de cross - Yes, it is very sad, and as a child of course, it was very difficult to understand and comprehend, but now as an adult, just the knowledge of the suffering my dad went through alone, and not really knowing if he ever really called upon the Lord to relieve him of his distress, is hard. Thanks for asking how I am now, and that is just fine, as even back then, after a period of time, I, myself, as a child had cried out to the Lord and He knew in my heart I did not want to hear anymore of the horrors of war and from then on, He covered my ears, as I never heard the horrors again. So, Great, so Great, is His faithfulness. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Susan Ream 4 years ago from Michigan

      Faith, I see what you mean about us having similar backgrounds. How wonderful it is to be adopted into the family of God where unconditional love abounds.

      I have a friend who was in the VietNam war and is experiencing PTSD. He was the only survivor in his unit. Nightmares have been horrific for him, yet his love for the Lord and devotion to living for Him has helped him through the hardest of days. I cannot imagine living with what our brave solders lived through and in the case of Vietnam, they were not even welcomed home .. such a shame on our country's past.

      As you know God does work everything together for our Good and I'm sure you can say with me that we minister to people with much compassion because we understand what it is to suffer.

      I think I cried a whole river as a child .. up until I learned about my creator and His son Jesus who had given His live so that I could live forever. He gave me a purpose for living and I love HIM so much!

      Thank you for sharing ... if this poem stopped one adult from allowing their own pain to hurt a child ... it will have well been worth the time you took to write it.

      God Bless YOU!

      Mekenzie

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Dearest Precious One Mekenzie, thank you for your lovely comments. You are lovely. Your writing is lovely. It is a blessing to know that your friend loves the Lord. Yes, the many, many, tears we both have shed, our precious Lord has kept them all and He is One who knows about suffering. And, yes, He does work all things out for the good of those who love Him. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      4 years ago

      Sobering hub. Reminds me of Paul Hardcastle's song '19', which is all about post-traumatic stress disorder.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      - f - Thank you for reading and commenting. Yes, PTSD is such a horrible thing not only for the one suffering, but for the family too. Blessings, Faith Reaper

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      Graham Lee 4 years ago from Lancashire. England.

      Hello Faith Reaper. Thank you for this wonderful poem it is the truth, the way things really are. Your faith shines through your hubs, it is indeed refreshing to read them.

      Best wishes.

      Albion.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      old albion, thank you so much for reading and I appreciate the great comments. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Tracia Bussey 4 years ago from Southern USA

      Very moving Faith. People don't realize the after effects of war. The soldiers who live through it and come home are haunted by the horrors they lived through. God bless!

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Gottabegod, thanks so much for reading and commenting. The soldiers did not talk about the war(s) back then and just kept it all to themselves, which is not a good thing to do. It is only in Him that true peace may be found. God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Mike Pugh 4 years ago from New York City

      It started out like a real time situation where a man is posted up in a wartime situation with his comrade's having issues and as they do often at battle, then to find out it's a child's dream of sorts, or maybe even the child potentially becoming the soldier in his or her own mind. Wow!

      I'm not sure how you pulled this sort of poem off here, I mean is so technically well done, it made me believe so many differing things, then to end as you did was pretty mind blowing to say the least.

      Nice technique here Faith, your no joke when it comes to poetry, I must read more. Thumbs up and out!

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi CloudExplorer - This was pulled straight from my childhood, and I was talking about myself listening to my father in the middle of the nights, suffering from the scars of war. This is not fiction. It is the real deal. Yes, you have stated it correctly here - this is NO joke. Thank you for the comments of the technique. This is one of the very first poems I posted here on HP, but no one really knew me then, and it did not receive a lot of traffic. That is why I am thrilled about the new profile page of being able to highlight hubs that are my favorite, but just may have not gotten out there. And I think that happens a lot to new hubbers, when they are not known, and some of their best work is placed on HP initially, then gets placed so far back, and unknown to the readers. Thank you once again for your awesome comments. I was just thinking about this, as there is plenty more to write of this time in my life, and I was reminded when I placed this poem on my highlight portion of the profile. God bless you dear one. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      50 Caliber 4 years ago from Arizona

      Aye, Faith Reaper, it is from the old school, shell shock and the terminology followed until after Vietnam, somewhere, some time, they reluctantly gave it the name PTSD and offered us little help, we were on our own. I've much to say on this topic, but for another hub.

      I asked the Lord in prayer to lift my night terrors and wipe them out to give me rest from the burden of killing other men.

      I slept with my eyes open for years and would wake with them dry and hurting. They gave me the bottles of eye drops to take away the pain, they numb the eye and are like the ones that they use in an exam when they test the pressure with placing the ring against your pupil and puff it with a small blast of air. I still get bottles of them because I sleep with them open some times now 47 years after my first battle and 37 since my Honorable Discharge from the Marines. I have been through a dozen night studies with wires glued all over my head between parts in my hair that had to be washed out with acetone and I was finally put on the list for treatment. To no avail, pills for my nervous daytime, setting with my back to the wall in restaurants and the works. I still do that but for other reasons, today's society is rough and I only go to town when absolutely needed to get supplies and return home.

      I still dream and am animated in my sleep and I wake up talking but what ever it was I was saying or dreaming is instantly gone. I keep my eye drops for the pain and re-wetting drops on the table next to my recliner or Army cot. I believe the Lord answered my prayers by blocking the memory past knowing I still talk in my sleep but no longer scream and jerk around like a dog woofs and kicks it's feet like it is running in it's sleep.

      http://MakeTheConnection.net

      The link above is the door to many stories and VA links for the new soldiers and maybe they'll let us old dogs play, I haven't had time to check it out completely.

      Awesome poem, voted up

      Peace and Blessings,

      dust

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi 50, I am so humbled by your visit here! I just arrived home dear one, so I am now just able to comment back to your astoundingly profound comments. I have an hour commute to and from home daily. I will always comment, just have to bear with me. I am blessed by your visit here today, as this is one of the very first poems I had published on Hub Pages, but being new to HP, it did not get much attention. Thank you so much for sharing your powerful testimony of God's love for you and His wiping away those horrific memories dear one. Praise Him! To God be the Glory! I am so glad the eye drops help with the pain. I know all too well, as I have written here in this poem, the real deal of what goes on in wars. As a child, I did not understand my dad and what all he endured and that he was actually suffering from such "shell shock." Yes, we never heard of PTSD back in the day growing up, and then I'm afraid my dad coped with alcohol, and it was not always pleasant. Wow, Marines, you are one tough guy there 50, to say the least! Thank you for sharing the link, and I will be honored to visit it dearest one. Yes, although one may come back from war without any outside scars, the mind is riddled with scars. I heard those stories being relived by my father night after night, and finally I asked to Lord to cover my ears, and He did, as I could no longer bear to hear such horrors in the night. God Bless you. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Gail Sobotkin 4 years ago from South Carolina

      What a poignant, heartfelt poem about the effects of emotional war wounds on both the veteran and his child.

      My husband fought in the Vietnam war and suffered from PTSD though as with your own circumstances, there was no name for it at first. It was years before we realized what the nightmares, startle reflexes, anxiety, etc. were about. Now, there are many veterans returning from Afghanistan and Iraq who suffer from it. There are more treatments, but it still has a great emotional effect on families.

      Am voting this up, useful, awesome and interesting.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Gail - So wonderful to see you here visiting. I do so much appreciate from the bottom of my heart your loving and understanding comments here as to the horrors of war on, not only the soldier, but his child as well. If there was any treatment back then, our family was never informed of it, plus we never really understood what PTSD is, as we had never heard that term before. Thank you so much for the vote up. I am thankful for the new profile page just so that one can highlight hubs published when I first joined HP, as it takes a little to be known, and it never received much traffic. I pray your husband is doing well now. God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Bill Holland 4 years ago from Olympia, WA

      As promised, I am finally here! A crazy day of writing non-stop, but now I have a few minutes to devote to this powerful poem....and it is powerful.

      We have spoken at some length about this issue; it shatters my heart when I think of the pain these brave men and women carry around with them the rest of their lives. Sometimes I think the lucky ones are the ones who died, and isn't that a horrible thought?

      I will always be a soldier's son and proud of it.

      Thank you for shedding light on this issue; you did it eloquently and with passion.

      love from Olympia,

      bill

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      billybuc,

      I know you are a man of your word and keep promises!!! And about your thought, well . . . considering their tortured minds for a lifetime, may not be such a terrible thought. However, it is sad that is how life is, and we are to honor their memories for all that they have been through.

      I know you are proud to be a soldier's son and I, a daughter. It wasn't until I was about 30 years old that the LORD revealed to me about any unforgiveness in my heart concerning my dad, as I just did not understand as a child, the terrible disease of addiction. After He revealed all this to me and I forgave my dad, all of a sudden I felt such great sorrow for him, as I realized it was he who had suffered his whole life with no relief.

      Thank you for being a promise keeper dear one. You are a blessing here on HP to me. I appreciate the thought-provoking comments you have made here to add to the subject of this hub.

      I believe this was the second hub I published here on HP when I joined in April, and the first being "Unseen By Choice," which is a poem about homelessness - a true account of what He revealed to me after He opened my eyes to these human beings on the street. So, needless to say, these two poems were some of my first hubs, and probably my best, but they did not get much traffic. So, the new profile page does give one that option to highlight certain hubs that may have not gotten much traffic.

      God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

      I know you are about two hours ahead of me, so you better get into bed. It is 11:26 p.m. here.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Let us all honor Dusty, 50 Caliber, as he has gone on to be with the Lord. I loved Dusty so much, as he would always speak of the Lord in comments and in his beautiful hubs, as he had a very personal and intimate relationship with the Lord. Dusty's comment above really touched my heart greatly.

      In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Maria Jordan 4 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

      Faith,

      Thank you for bringing this to our attention in your beautiful and touching comment on Fred's tribute to Dusty.

      Your work is poignant and haunting. Dusty's comment shows his sensitivity, compassion and how he carried the scars of war as deep as it gets.

      Voted UP & ABI... my thoughts and prayers are strong for you and your Momma. Love, Maria

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Maria,

      I was just so moved by Dusty's comment here, to the point of tears, as he truly did carry those scars so very deep, but then he was so very concerned for the others, and now even the young ones coming home with those battle scars.

      Thank you for you lovely and kind words here.

      I will remember Dusty always.

      You will never know just how much your thoughts and prayers mean to me during this time for my mother, as I just read your lovely gratitude hub, and it has me crying as well, for its sheer beauty and your lovely mother too.

      In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      James A Watkins 4 years ago from Chicago

      Your poem is very moving and a fitting tribute to your beloved father. I thank you for his service to our country. This is a sad story. Survivor guilt is hard to deal with. I appreciate you for sharing this with us. You are a fine poet.

      James :)

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hello James,

      Thank you for your kind words here dear one. I do so appreciate you stopping by to read and leave lovely comments. Such words coming from you, especially, really mean a lot to me.

      God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Jackie Lynnley 4 years ago from The Beautiful South

      Faith, glad I came by this. My dad was in war too and even wounded and I know he suffered surely from the things my mom told me he witnessed, but there was no sign unless it was that he was such a strict and distant dad. Thankfully that changed a few years before his death. Won't it be so wonderful to be done with war?

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      Linda Rogers 4 years ago from Minnesota

      Dear Faith-this poem is heart-wrenching-A war is never over for our courageous warriors-bless you for sharing your families story of war and its after effects. Our father was in WW2 and he struggled as well :(

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Jackie,

      Thank you for telling me about your dad as well. Yes, dear one, it will be so wonderful to be done with war indeed!

      Thank you for such kind words here.

      God bless you. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Linda,

      I appreciate your very kind words here. I thank your father for his service in WW2, and I am so sorry he struggled too.

      God bless you and your family. In His Love Always, Faith Reaper

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      alocsin 4 years ago from Orange County, CA

      This is a great way to turn your dad's suffering into something worthwhile and makes me think. Voting this Up and Beautiful.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Dearest alocsin,

      I am so very sorry for missing your comment here dear!!! Please forgive me for the very late response to such a wonderful comment.

      God bless you and thank you for the votes.

      In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Vinaya Ghimire 4 years ago from Nepal

      Faith, we never had soldiers in the family. However, we also witnessed ten years of armed conflict. We saw fathers go to war, return with missing body parts, or come wrapped in flags.

      War memories are so cruel.

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Vinaya,

      That is a blessing for your family. Yes, war memories are so very cruel. The soldiers come back with tormented minds, and then without realizing it their child may also suffer from the period of flashbacks or PTSD attacks. I know it painted a vivid scene of war in my mind as a young child that I will never forget.

      Thanks for visiting here and for the thoughtful comments.

      Hugs, Faith Reaper

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Oh Faith Reaper, this is beautifully tragic. I can't imagine what it must be like for an innocent child to go through this and I know you are not alone in your story. You must have struggled with sorrow for yourself and for your daddy. What a heavy heart you must've had at times, as a child, but perhaps that is one of the things that has contributed to the enlarged and beautiful, caring heart you have today. Your father is certainly a hero and my heart goes out to him and those who understand his suffering. My heart goes out to the families as well because at times it must feel as if the war comes home with the soldier.

      This is so very touching Faith Reaper!

      Up, beautiful, awesome and sharing.

      Bless you... you are a gift! Hugs and much love to a strong and beautiful daughter, grown woman. Cat

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi sweet Cat,

      Thank you so much for your loving comments, which add greatly to the subject of this hub for all those families whose loved one returned, yet they are tormented from the horrors of war, as well as for those who paid the highest price and whose lives were lost, for fighting for their beloved country, and its freedoms.

      My dad is not alive today, but had died a good while back. I do believe that the Lord God has used me going through such an experience for some reason. I am so full of compassion for our veterans, all veterans and their families; those who made it home and those who did not.

      As you stated so beautifully, if it were not for them and their great sacrifices, we would not be free to do the things we do each day!

      I would love to link your amazing and touching poem here. It would be an honor and a blessing to do so.

      I appreciate the vote up and share.

      I am blessed to have finally met you, a beautiful person with a heart full of love for all, and a talented gifted writer, no doubt too!

      God bless. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Joanna Chandler 3 years ago from On planet Earth

      Hi Faithreaper pleasant good morning to you and yours.

      Its sad to see what war could do can make us turn hateful, and we kill humans just like ourselves. Wars are horrible I wish we never had them so many innocent people lose their lives so many wonderful sceneries are destroyed.

      The people who survive it have scars until they die. Nice photo of you and your dad. Your dad fought for America?

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Jo (LadyFiddler),

      Thank you for your comments. Yes, war is horrible no doubt. Yes, my dad fought for America in two wars.

      It is sad that, although some do come back, their minds are battle-scarred!

      God bless you. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Faith Reaper,

      I had already felt terrible when I found notification of this comment so deep in my email and how long I had taken to respond, but after reading your remarks, I feel even worse, but in a ‘look at the beautiful comments I’ve missed out on’ kind of way :-) You are such a breath of fresh air and what a giving heart you have. I feel silly having taken so long to track you down and you were right under my nose all along. But if the words I live by are true; everything happens for a reason, then maybe this is the time I need you most and can appreciate you the greatest! While you are so full of compassion for all our servicemen and women, past, present and future and their families, you are full of compassion for all and that is admirable and inspiring!

      If you’re still interested, you are more than welcome to link my hub and it would be an honor and a privilege.

      Thank you so much, your words have touched me in such a wonderful way and I’ve returned to them in my mind. I think you are absolutely beautiful and your love and compassion for others is certainly special. Thank you for appreciating me, though I can be a little rough around the edges at times :-)

      Many Blessings to you!

      Cat

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi precious heart Cat,

      No need for any terrible feelings, as you have written such a touching and heartfelt hub, I am sure you were trying to keep up with all the wonderful and well-deserved comments!!!

      Thank you so much for your kind words here. I am so humbled and not deserving of such.

      Oh, I would love to link your amazing hub and it would be an honor, not only to me, but to all who read your lovely tribute to all who served. Thanks so much.

      You are very much appreciated and beautiful, and we are all a little rough around the edges at times, so no worries or judgments from me ever :)

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Faith Reaper,

      You are too generous with me, gosh you certainly know how to make a person feel good. I'll tell you something that would ordinarily be a little embarrassing, but since you are so kind, I can't resist. Yesterday, I was speaking with my new dear friend, shanmarie (I know she won't mind the mention) and I received a notification that you had responded to my hub. I said 'Oh my goodness, shan, FAITH REAPER just commented on one of my hubs!' She responded 'Oh, she's a sweetheart' and then said 'No, you don't understand, I'm scared'. She inquired 'Scared? Ever what for?' I replied 'I've seen her everywhere and she is so kind and gentle and I am intimidated by her' she responded 'Oh, she's not one to judge, you'll be fine' I think my fingers were trembling as I opened that hub up, but I was so pleasantly surprised by how sweet you were, even to me? Then everything after that was simply beautiful and I admire you so much; I am truly grateful you came my way as I shudder to think I would've missed out on such a wonderful person because of my silly fears. You're probably realizing now how much of a goofball I am, but I just had to share and I hope you think it's cuter than you do weird :D

      For the record, you are more than deserving and I'm sure that all who know you would agree. That humbleness and modesty is only a touch of all that make you so special.

      Thanks again and hugs and love to you! Cat

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Oh, Dearest Cat,

      You have blessed me greatly this day by sharing that with me . . . shanmarie has a most kind heart.

      You are truly cuter than cute!!! :) Oh precious heart, I have nothing but such great admiration for you, as a beautiful and courageous woman, who has a heart full of love, which is so evident to all. I have not one bit of doubt!!!

      We are all just humans trying to get through this life best we can, and we are to carry each others' burdens out of love, that agape love, which is pure divine love.

      I am blessed to know such a beautiful soul such as yourself here via HP!

      Hugs and love to you and shanmarie, Faith Reaper

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Faith Reaper,

      Living in the time and place we do, with so much uncertainty and negativity surrounding us, it is too easy to be guarded and question yourself in the eyes of other people. It is such a blessing to meet someone like you who makes me and probably many others, feel that we are good people, even if we do not all fit into the same mold. I know that I will somehow be a better person just in knowing you. I geniunely appreciate your ability to love so broadly and without judgment. You may have many purposes in this life, while here, but I know, without a doubt you are serving them gloriously.

      Hugs and love and many blessings to you, Cat

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      Patricia Scott 3 years ago from sunny Florida

      Faith

      My Father fought and thankfully came home from three wars. And it strengthened his conviction that this country was worth fighting for. If he was haunted by any demons that clung to him, he never shared them with this baby of the family...and I am blessed for that.

      I do have friends that came back from Vietnam broken and shattered. One of my very best friends, Jimmy, had been a Medic and he was totally torn apart by his years in that horrid War.

      Thank you for sharing this as we memorialize those who serve and served this precious country.

      Angels are on the way to you, dear sweet Faith. ps

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Dearest Cat,

      Oh, wow, that is the sweetest comment ever, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart that you would say such.

      I have found the HP community as a whole to be very loving, encouraging and filled with very talented writers, so it has been a lovely experience, especially when meeting lovely persons such as yourself.

      Hugs, Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Dearest PS,

      I am thankful for your dad and your friends' service to our country. I pray your friend, Jimmy, can somehow find peace and solace one day.

      Thank you for sharing and for your kind words here.

      Hugs, love and Angels are on your way to you too dearest PS, Faith Reaper

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Thank you, Faith Reaper! I must admit, I just happened upon this place and I couldn't have predicted how wonderful it would be. I have never seen such a loving, supportive and nurturing online community as this and I simply love it here!

      I hope you are enjoying your Memorial Day!

      Hugs, Cat

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Cat,

      I know just exactly what you mean! I was so surprised by the genuine encouragement, support and love in the HP community here. I have met friends for life here, as they helped me through a difficult time when my sweet mother was so very ill and went on to be with the Lord just this past Christmas.

      I am enjoying this day off, and I pray you are having a lovely day too.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      sweethearts2 3 years ago from Northwest Indiana

      I am sharing this on my fb page. Issues that need to be addressed from yesteryear and today.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hello sweethearts,

      So nice to meet you, and I love your profile hub name! Wow, thank you so very much for sharing. Yes, these issues are so important as relates to not only the veteran but their families who suffer right along with them.

      God bless, Faith Reaper

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      wabash annie 3 years ago from Colorado Front Range

      I had six older brother so cannot discuss this topic of wars without raving and ranting so I will only say thank you for writing.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Wabash annie,

      I understand, believe me!

      Hugs, Faith Reaper

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      ahorseback 3 years ago

      Faith , I must have been there with you perhaps in another room , another father , another war . They paid so dearly a price ,and so does the child who listens . Who hears the noises of the nightmares , perhaps we should have been there at war too . For we paid as well didn't we ......Ed

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hello again, Ed (ahorseback),

      Yes, we sure did no doubt about that fact! I am sorry you had to hear those horrors of war too.

      Thank you for understanding this poem, but I am sorry it is due to having experienced such too.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      theGuardian 3 years ago

      I could have been your dad. My daughter is 42 ow and lived thru the same things as you. I worry about her daily.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hello theGuardian,

      So nice to meet you. I am so sorry for your suffering after fighting in the wars for our country. Thank you so much for your service. Yes, some do not come back at all, and some come back with visible scars, and then some come back with those battle-scarred minds. I pray your daughter is well this day. Once I turned 30 years old, and old enough to understand what my dad had gone through and there was no one to help him back then, as they really did not talk about it then, and he cope with alcohol.

      I have nothing but compassion and forgiveness in my heart, as I now have understanding.

      God bless you for sharing this with me.

      I will pray for your daughter, as it is not only the soldier who comes back with the scars, but then his family may have them later as well.

      Hugs and blessings, Faith Reaper

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      moonlake 3 years ago from America

      A military child I didn't hear what you heard but I do understand. Voted up and Beautiful.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Hello moonlake,

      Thank you so much for reading and understanding.

      I appreciate the votes up

      Blessings, Faith Reaper

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      Gail Sobotkin 3 years ago from South Carolina

      My Dear Faith Reaper,

      I was drawn back here again today, from your recent (and also heartfelt and awesome) hub about the history of Taps.

      This poem is sooooooo powerful that tears streamed down my face as I read it. So often, the adults in a family don't realize just how much their young children are absorbing, without understanding, their parent's pain.

      This is a touching reminder that the children of the vets suffering from PTSD need to be remembered by their parents and also by the greater community and by faith organizations.

      Voted up across the board except for funny and shared.

      Hugs & Love,

      Gail

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Dear Gail,

      You are so kind and I am glad this true account here in poetic form moved you. I do remember those nights, experiencing war right along with my dad. He did not realize such though, for when he was having those PTSD attacks, it was as if he was back right there reliving the horror of war.

      My three siblings and I are all fine and doing well in this life. Our sweet mother was so very strong and understanding.

      My dad was always such a great encourager to me and helped me so much. If it were not for my dad and his great patience in helping me with Literature in school, I would not have graduated with honors. My brother is a Ph.D. So, during those times when the PTSD was not taking over, those are the times I focus on now, and remember who my dad was without such a disorder. I am so glad that today, the veterans and anyone who is suffering from PTSD can get the help they need. Back then, it just was not talked about, and my family did not even know that there was a name for it. The vets back then were pretty much left to their own to fight their demons.

      God bless you sweet lady. Thank you for contributing and working so hard on the wonderful project of Mysterious & Miraculous!

      You're the best!

      I appreciate the votes up and share.

      Hugs and love to you and yours,

      Faith Reaper

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      Gail Sobotkin 3 years ago from South Carolina

      Dear Faith Reaper,

      It's wonderful that in spite of living through your childhood not understanding anything about PTSD or that your dad even had it, you now have such a compassionate and wise understanding of what it is.

      And I truly believe the way to healing is through gaining understanding and then focusing, like you are, on the positive, still healthy parts of your dad's personality.

      God Bless you for all the writings you've been doing to increase understanding.

      Hugs & Love,

      Gail

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      Liz Elias 3 years ago from Oakley, CA

      Wow. Just wow. What a powerful, poignant piece. War is indeed, hell, and a hell from which it is the living who do not escape.

      You painted a very eloquent and sad portrait of the damage done to person and family as a result of governmental disagreements.

      Voted up, awesome, beautiful, shared and pinned.

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      Mary Craig 3 years ago from New York

      Oh lovely lady. I voted all but funny as I could feel your love and fear in this beautiful poem. How tragic it is for our men to come home with such unbearable burdens. This is a beautiful way to remind everyone that war is never really over, it lives on in the hearts and minds of the soldiers who survive it, day after day.

      God bless you and your family, today and every day.

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Dear Gail,

      Thank you for your understanding. You are so wise and compassionate.

      I am blessed by your visit here again this day. I am glad this is going around a bit more here of late, for it is one of the very first poems I published on HubPages and so, with me not being known at the time, it did not get many views. I hope all understand that PTSD not only is so harmful to the one who has it but to that one's family as well. I am so thankful that our soldiers are able to talk about it and get the help the need. That is so hopeful and my heart rejoices knowing there are organizations out there like K9s for Wounded Warriors that are helping!

      God bless you dear Gail. Blessings to you and yours,

      Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Dear DzyMsLizzy,

      I am so glad for your visit here this day! Thank you so much for your generous comments and, yes, war is hell. Those who make it home with no visible outside scars, does not mean their minds are not battle-scarred indeed!

      I appreciate the votes up and share.

      Hugs and love to you and yours,

      Faith Reaper

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Dear Mary (till),

      You are so kind and full of understanding, sweet lady. This poem was one of the very first poems I published here on HubPages, and so I am glad it is getting around a bit more to bring awareness that although our dear soldiers may come home, does not mean their minds are not battle-scarred and then their families are right there along with them suffering too. It is a sad scenario all around, but I am so hopeful for nowadays, people at least talk about it and our dear soldiers can get the help they need. Back then, it seemed the veterans were left to deal with their demons on their own, well, it seemed for my family, and as Dusty explained so well in his loving and understanding comment too. God rest his soul.

      Thank you for blessing me this day with your visit. You are one whose heart is full of compassion and understanding as well.

      God bless you and yours,

      Faith Reaper

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      ahorseback 3 years ago

      I just read this one more time and the memories of my own reawakened , aren't we really blessed to have learned by being there with them , In truth ,the appreciations we show are actually in our blood ,in our own developing growth ! What a proud dad and daughter in that picture . You are blessed to love the patriot and he to have had you to help him heal . You're as much the hero as he is Faith !.....+++++Ed

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Dear Ed,

      So blessed by your visit here this day again! Thank you so much for leaving such insightful comments. I know just how much you understand, from having your own experiences, so very similar indeed!

      Hugs and love to YOU ... another hero,

      Faith Reaper

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      Peg Cole 2 years ago from Dallas, Texas

      Faith, What an amazing poem - it really told such a story of life behind the scenes of what, on the surface and to outsiders, may appear routine. I'm so sorry to hear of the difficulties you faced as a child and the uncertainty of living with a parent who suffers with PTSD must have been terribly frightening. Your Dad is a very handsome man - and that picture of you in his arms was wonderfully expressive.

      My Dad was in the Navy for over twenty years. One stretch of duty took him overseas on an ammunition carrier for 18 months. It was a lonely time for us as kids and really tough on my Mom.

      Here's some Hugs coming back to you.

      Kind regards, Peg

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      The Examiner-1 2 years ago

      I am sorry that you (and your father) had to go through that Faith. My father was also in the war but I was either too young or not born to remember. It is a good way that you wrote out your memories, it is too bad that they were not good.

      Kevin

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Peg, It certainly was not easy hearing my dad suffering night after night and not really understanding why but after having relived the horrors of war with him, I can certainly understand those scars he carried with him each day in his mind. After the years had gone by, he seemed much better but still had some hard days. My sweet mother was such a strong women and got us through those hard times. God provided and was near, even through the dark times. My three siblings and I have a lot of cherished memories too. I am thankful for your dad's service and pray he came back whole. (((HUGS)))

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Kevin, thank you for reading and your thoughtful comments. This poem is my way of bringing awareness to those who may have come back from war without any visible battle scars on the outside but it sure does not mean their minds are not battle-scarred. It is terrible that the soldiers had to return and seemed to have been left to their own to deal with such without much help back then. I am thankful that today at least it is talked about in the open and there are wonderful organizations like K - 9s for Wounded Warriors. When my dad was not having a PTSD episode, He was a good dad. Bless you

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      Suzette Walker suzettetaos 2 years ago from Taos, NM

      How sad for your father and how sad that you heard this too and was affected by it. War affects us all in some way or manner. This is a beautiful tribute to your father. You are so understanding of his plight. This must have been difficult on your whole family. Thank you for sharing this with us so we might know what PTSD really is.

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      Shyron E Shenko 2 years ago

      Faith, thank you for sharing your private memories, It is sad. thank you for your dad's service. My dad came home from WWII and never spoke of the war, but he was changed and soon after he came home he and mom were divorced. I will post this on fb as so many of my family and friends are Military and ex-Military.

      Voted up, UAI and shared

      Blessings to you and your family

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Hi suzette,

      Yes, a lot of veterans back in the day came home with battle-scarred minds, and the sad part is they did not really talk about it and tried to cope with it by themselves. So, glad that is not the case today, as it is more out in the open and people actually know what it is called and there are wonderful treatments available.

      War affects an entire family, not just the soldier and many more than we will ever know. When I was young I did not understand, but later, once I understood, I felt so much compassion for all those who suffer with PTSD and worse and for the families too, especially those who have lost loved ones due to war.

      Bless you and thank you for reading.

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Shyron,

      Thank you for reading and sharing on FB. I am thankful for your dad's service too. I am sorry about your mom and dad and your family having to go through a divorce. I appreciate your understanding.

      Thank you for voting up and more and sharing.

      Blessings to you and your family too.

      (((Hugs)))

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      Michelle Scoggins 2 years ago from Fresno, CA

      Faith Reaper great poem. War and military service certainly has its costs. Being a veteran myself PTSD cannot be ignored. I think that it is great to explore the pain and terror that the families experience too.

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Hello mdscoggins, so nice to meet you and thank you for your service! I appreciate you reading here. Yes, PTSD cannot be ignored and I am thankful that it is being addressed this day for all the vets suffering, as it was not so back when my dad was suffering. Well, we did not know about it as so many vets back then did not like to talk about the horrors they faced in battle. Families do suffer right along with those family members who are experiencing PTSD.

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      Along with the wind 2 years ago from colorado

      Thank you for this hub.

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Hello kljones86,

      I appreciate you reading. Bless you.

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      ocfireflies 2 years ago from North Carolina

      Faith,

      First of all, the picture of you and your dad is BEAUTIFUL!

      Your poem captures the horrors of returning with PTSD when folks did not even understand it existed. I can only imagine how scary it would be for a small child not being able to understand what was going on. This hub is important and definitely must be shared. Thank you for bringing awareness to a condition all too many must live with.

      Blessings,

      Kim

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      Faith Reaper 2 years ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Kim. I apologize for missing your sincere and kind comments here from four months ago! Don't know how I missed it? Yes, back then the soldiers did not talk about their experiences and were left to try to cope on their own. I am glad today they underd tans about PTSD and can get help, plus there are many programs and groups who help the soldiers suchv as Wounded Warriors. Bless you

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      Patricia Scott 2 years ago from sunny Florida

      O Dear Faith

      How poignantly you have spoken for the young children and the soldiers who return from war, but not really Their bodies return but part of them is still trapped in the hell from whence they came . (My Daddy was in many wars and it must have changed him. He had already served in the last war he would serve in just before my birth so I never knew of his pain and sorrow.)

      I could feel the pain and feel the loss as I read this..loss of what might have been had war not ravaged his life and all who loved him.

      I had a best friend from high school who went to VietNam. I got to see him about 10 years after he returned home; he had been a medic. We went out to dinner one evening while I was visiting and then we drove to an old spot where we kids used to gather. He began to talk and then cried, sobbing, gut wrenching tears as he told of what he endured and what others endured He had been a medic. And it changed him forever.

      He was broken and at that time he really was not getting much care from the medical community

      I think of him often ; we lost touch so I do not know how his life has been since then.

      Recognizing those who serve our country cannot be done too many times.

      voted up++++ shared and pinned to Awesome HubPages

      Know, my friend, that Angels and blessings are on the way to you this morning ps

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      Jay C OBrien 23 months ago from Houston, TX USA

      My stepfather, Jim fought in Korea and had the same symtoms you describe. He was violent to my mother, beating nd shooting at her until she finally divorced him. I have lerned it is better for we common folks not to become enmeshed in war. Some people get rich or powerful wit war, but that ain't us.

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      Shyron E Shenko 23 months ago

      Faith, I came back to re-read this and share it again.

      It always amazes me that our service men and women are honored when in battle and shunned when they come home.

      Voted up, UABI and shared.

      The Angels from Patricia are bringing Blessings and Hugs from me. Shyron

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      Faith Reaper 23 months ago from southern USA

      Oh, my sweet friend, PS,

      How did I ever miss your beautiful comment so filled with much wisdom and heart ...here from six weeks ago! Please forgive me. I truly do not understand how that happened.

      I am so sorry about your Dad too. War changes people no doubt about it. I cannot even imagine what it must have been like to be in their shoes. A medic would certainly have a tough job no doubt and I am sure the images are burned into his battle-scarred mind. So sad.

      I am thankful that the soldiers now at least know about PTSD and there are so many who help them with the PTSD. Back in the day, soldier were just left on their own and they did not talk about it, well, at least not with family ... maybe their buddies? Not sure.

      Thank you for sharing about you friend. I know how much your heart is filled with compassion, so I know it hurt you terribly to see him suffering so.

      I appreciate the vote up and more, pin and share. However, most of all, I appreciate YOU, for just being who you are, sweet lady.

      God bless you and your precious family always. Angels heading your way.

      (((Hugs)))

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      Faith Reaper 23 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Jay,

      Thank you for reading. I am sorry about your former step dad and his suffering with PTSD and it in-turn harming your mother and you.

      Peace

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      Faith Reaper 23 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Shyron,

      Thank you for returning here. Yes, I know back then it happened that way, but I do hope those who are returning now are getting the help they need. At least now, they are open to talking about PTSD, but then, we did not even know what PTSD was and no one wanted to talk about their suffering so terribly and not knowing how to cope.

      Thank you so much for the vote up and more. I know PS is such a wonderful, compassionate woman, and I can't believe I missed her amazing comment from six weeks ago!

      Bless you too and I am feeling your hugs and thank you for the blessings too.

      God bless you and yours always

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      Missy Smith 19 months ago from Florida

      I am quite speechless Faith. I think this poem is so well told, the emotions I felt; I felt the hurt of the man, the frightened little child. It's such a sad story. I feel for you and your family for having to go through the devastation war can leave behind way after it's over. Bravo! This was Epic Poetry! :) I wish they wouldn't have taken our vote ups away!! :(

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      Faith Reaper 19 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Missy,

      Wow, I didn't see an email that you found this one! I just checked under my account for comments, and there it was ... Being you are such a phenomenal poet, your most generous comments mean so much to me. Yes, it is a sad thing to see and hear loved ones suffering, especially back then when they really were left to their own as no one really talked about PTSD and I'm not sure they even knew that's what it was, and so they found their own coping measures, which really did not help but to make it worse.

      Thank you for letting me know you thought the poem is well told. I tried my best to tap into what I was feeling and experiencing as a small child, and glad a bit of that came through. I appreciate the bravo and I don't think I ever received an Epic Poetry, so thank you for that!

      I miss the vote up and more buttons too as I was always mindful to vote up and across appropriately. However, I am glad we can still share.

      I received a blessing from your visit this day.

      Hugs

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      Missy Smith 19 months ago from Florida

      Listen, I want you to know that I feel you are way more talented than me. You are, and I hope you believe that!

      Hugs back to you! :)

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      Faith Reaper 19 months ago from southern USA

      Aw, you are too kind. No, you are a true poet as I write mostly non-fiction expressing things that happened in my real life the best I can ...

      Thank you again. Peace and blessings

      I wonder why I am not getting any email notifications. Guess, it's time to retype my email address again.

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      Audrey Selig 17 months ago from Oklahoma City, Oklahoma

      Hi Faith - PTS is a horrible disease. It destroys families and makes children cry from flashbacks. I know a few people with this issue - some good , some bad, some horrible. Everything is a shock to some. It must have been traumatic to you, and thanks for writing the about the memories. Many folks have these memories, and it must help to write about them. Sharing, Blessings, Audrey Your faith is amazing.

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      Jay C OBrien 17 months ago from Houston, TX USA

      The U.S. Department of Veterans Affairs estimates that PTSD afflicts: Almost 31 percent of Vietnam veterans; As many as 10 percent of Gulf War (Desert Storm) veterans and 11 percent of veterans of the war in Afghanistan.

      PTSD is a function of severity of violence and duration of exposure. It is best not to put yourself in a combat situation.

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Audrey,

      Yes, it is especially hard for the soldiers to live with the terrors of war and their families to hear of their suffering. I am thankful now to know that today it is okay to talk about it and there is help available. I just wanted to bring awareness, so thank you for sharing.

      Peace and blessings

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Hello Jay C OBrien,

      Nice to meet you. Yes, the statistics are sad indeed and those who are engaged in any war of any kind, certainly do suffer in many traumatic ways, including PTSD no doubt.

      Peace and blessings

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      Word 17 months ago from Chicago

      Hi Faith, I can relate to your wonderful poem. My Dad fought in the Korean War, my eldest brother fought in Vietnam. Fortunately the both came home uninjured. I thank God that they were saved even though their minds may have been war torn. Very nice and touching poem.

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Al,

      Thank you for sharing of your dear Dad and brother. Praise God for them both. I can't imagine after returning home safe from war (so-to-speak) and then having to relive all the horrors of war for the rest of days in their tortured minds.

      I appreciate you stopping by to read and leaving such kind comments as relate to my poem here.

      God bless you real good

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      Jackie Lynnley 17 months ago from The Beautiful South

      Came back to read this again and share. How long will it take for our veterans to be looked after and dealt with their psychological needs which they must about all have or have had. Still nothing is being done at the VA and no one is saying a word about it! Still they are committing suicide; multiples daily and who cares? I so wish we could get America back that cares about their military; although I doubt seriously if that will happen. I think that if one person would take a real stand for America they may could just win the presidential election and I don't mean promises but do something now! Do any of them even try?

      I notice your dad as mine looked like those old time movie stars!

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Jackie,

      Thank you for returning here and you are my 100th commenter on this hub! I do hope and pray that one day there is much more concern for our returning Veterans, as so many are homeless and suffering big time. There are now wonderful organizations such as Wounded Warriors, which do a great job in helping Veterans and their families. I do hope the next president will truly care about those in our military service.

      Yes, my dad was so handsome back in the day. My brother looks just like him.

      God bless you for loving our veterans.

      (((Hugs)))

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      Jay C OBrien 17 months ago from Houston, TX USA

      Let us teach our children to walk away from a fight rather than run to a fight.

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Hello Jay C,

      Yes, that's exactly what our sweet and precious Lord and Savior Jesus Christ says!

      Amen.

      However, it is a whole different ballgame when those who choose to serve their country and then are suffering for fighting for freedom.

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      Jay C OBrien 17 months ago from Houston, TX USA

      Different ballgame?

      Place God over country and do not fight at all.

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      Audrey Howitt 17 months ago from California

      Such a moving piece of writing---but I too think that much of the time, the fighting we engage in is not necessary--we fight over oil these days--next it will be over water

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Thanks again, Jay, for sharing your insight.

      God is truly the answer and He can change the hearts of men and the evil therein no doubt.

      I was referring to when young men sign up to join the US Military, they know that it is more likely than not they will see war, sadly.

      Peace and blessings

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Audrey,

      Thank you so much for your most generous comment to my poem, and coming from our Poet of the Year ...You, that means so much.

      Yes, that is so true about the unnecessary fighting. So many lives lost and tortured, sadly.

      Peace and blessings

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      Jackie 17 months ago

      Yes, I give to many VA organizations. My dad, and two brothers were veterans. Well, one still is living, he was a lifer but got to retire about 5 years early; he and his wife (Air Force), with full benefits. I guess that is when they started cutting the military and paid big money to get lifers to retire. Sure stupid but I guess it was good for the many who retired.

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Jackie,

      I know you are one to support our military and I pray we still have one in the upcoming future! I pray we take care of our soldiers. I remember back in the day when my dad joined the military, they promised to take care of them. So glad now there are organizations like Wounded Warriors and such to help the veterans. Being my dad was 100% disabled after he retired, my mom was taken care of after he died ...as far as benefits, etc.

      Hugs, sweet friend

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      CrisSp 17 months ago from Sky Is The Limit Adventure

      Boy George said in his song: "war is stupid...and love means nothing in some strange quarters." ~ More often we fight for nothing and hence, that's stupid!

      What a moving piece specially to remember your dad. Great photos and boy, he's one good looking, brave soldier! I honestly don't remember reading this before and although it's an old hub, it's still worth reading.

      I hope all is well with you Faith. Love from the sky~

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      Jay C OBrien 17 months ago from Houston, TX USA

      We are all individuals with free will. We each get to choose what organization(s) we join. Think ahead, avoid fighting and violence. Teach our children to walk away from a fight rather than running to a fight. Get smart, there is always another way.

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      stella vadakin 17 months ago from 3460NW 50 St Bell, Fl32619

      Your poem is a wonderful tribute to your dad. I now see where you got your big heart. PTSD is a terrible thing for the victim and the family. I believe the suffering is what makes us grow to the person God wants us to be. Thanks and God Bless.

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Chris,

      Thank you for sharing that quote. I am glad you found my poem moving. Seems poetry is always best when written from something we have experienced. Yes, he was certainly handsome then. I am thankful soldiers have a lot of resources to help with PTSD now and it is talked about more than back in the day.

      This is one of the very first poems I wrote after joining HP. I am glad you found it worth reading.

      I am fine and thank you for asking, dear Love from the sky - I know I have been missing in action here in my publishing. I do have so much in the works, but just not enough time to finish them up it seems.

      My job in the City has been so demanding here of late.

      Thank you for stopping by my side of HP Town.

      Peace and love to you and yours always

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Hello again, Jay,

      Thank you for sharing your thoughts.

      Yes, it is free will to join the military service. I am so grateful for all those who are serving and who have served as our freedom is precious and must never be taken for granted.

      Peace to you

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Stella (ladyguitarpicker),

      Thank you so much for your kind words. Yes, PTSD is horrible. I am thankful today there are amazing organizations like Wounded Warriors.

      I do believe that as well ...that what we endure in this life, no matter what, can be turned around somehow to do good or at least show kindness to those who are hurting.

      God bless you, dear lady

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      Ann Carr 17 months ago from SW England

      Wonderful words and photos here, Theresa. I love the repetition of 'why?' It is so apt. 'Lest we forget' was the slogan after WW1, yet they all forgot when WWII started, didn't they? How terrible any war is.

      My father was in the war but was invalided out, thank God, with a bad back when a load of bricks fell on him. He recovered but always had back pain. I know of the sorrow as my mother told of two 19 year old cousins who never came back from WWII. I could feel her pain.

      You never know why someone takes up drink or any other reaction to life in general; it's amazing how some men managed to stay sane at all. There but for the grace of God, I think.

      I'm amazed I hadn't already read this and it is timely now as we come up to Armistice Day on 11th November. All the poppies are starting to be worn again. At least now we all know about PTSD now and can help those who need it.

      I hope you're keeping well, Theresa. I think about you often which is why I came across to see which hub of yours I could read today! I regard you as a good friend and so keep you in my heart.

      Ann

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      Matthew Harvey 17 months ago from lake havasu city

      I am truly touch by this piece i love it it is strong and true what people need to know

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Ann,

      Thank you so much for your wonderful insight here. I'm happy you found this one. It is one of the first hubs I published after joining HubPages.

      So true, that some men do come back from battle and are able to cope just fine, but then far too many cannot cope and sometimes their choice of how to cope in reality makes things worse, sadly.

      I remember your fine hub about Armistice Day and the poppies.

      I am well, dear friend. I just have a lot going on here with my work in serving the public good in attempting to keep public officials and public employees ethical ...then at the moment, those who use their public office for personal gain, having to see to it they are prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law. Although I play a very small role in all of that, I feel good to serve in my role. Corruption is running rampant and it seems the bad guys are winning at times, but we will keep fighting that good fight of faith.

      God bless you and yours always, dear friend.

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Hello Matthew,

      So nice to meet you and welcome to HubPages. Thank you for reading and I appreciate you sharing that my poem touched you.

      Peace and blessings to you

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      Ann Carr 17 months ago from SW England

      I'm glad to hear you're well, Theresa. Your work sounds demanding but fascinating and obviously worthwhile. Good job there are people such as you keeping hold of the reins!

      Hugs and peace to you.

      Ann

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      Faith Reaper 17 months ago from southern USA

      Thank you again, dear Ann.

      Your words are most kind.

      Hugs

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      Matthew Harvey 17 months ago from lake havasu city

      Mrs Faith i was wondering if you'd read my soldiers poem and tell me what you think its call Cause I am a Soldier

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      Faith Reaper 14 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Matthew,

      I’m so sorry I missed your comment from a couple of months ago! Thank you for taking the time to read. I will be over to your side of HP Town shortly to read.

      Peace and blessings

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      Frank Atanacio 11 months ago from Shelton

      oh.. the third one in on featured page.. I was scrolling oh..oh..oh..oh What a cold reality...- Post-traumatic Stress Disorder... sends chills down my spine and it can happen in other traumatic life experiences.. such as rape.. assault, disasters.... this hub quiets my steps.. wow.. Faith.. just wow.. no silly cracks, no banter.. just still.. Frank

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      Faith Reaper 11 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Frank,

      Yes, thought you might find this true account of PTSD interesting with your recent PTSD flash fiction. You're right PTSD can certainly happen during any type of traumatic event as you have pointed out here. This is one of the first poems I published when I joined HubPages four years ago.

      Thank you for your comment.

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      Frank Atanacio 11 months ago from Shelton

      thank you for sharing it with me and God Bless you...

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      Faith Reaper 11 months ago from southern USA

      Thank you for your comment as to the horrors of PTSD, Frank.

      God bless you, too.

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      FlourishAnyway 10 months ago from USA

      With this poem, you bring needed awareness to military PTSD and the reverberating impact that it can have on families. Just last night, my family was talking about the horrors of war and how people cope -- some more effectively than others. (My daughter is taking an AP History class and in class, some of the students referenced relatives who had fought in wars and never talked about their experiences once they came home. They tried to push their experiences way down so as to hopefully not feel.) My grandfather was one of them, having served in Vietnam; he was career army and just didn't talk about his experiences. Like others, however, he tried to self-medicate with alcohol which obviously had effects on the family. Your photo of you and your dad together is beautiful.

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      Faith Reaper 10 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Flourish,

      Thank you for digging this one up. It was one of the first poems/hubs I published four years ago after joining HubPages.

      PTSD certainly has great impact on the families of those who suffer from such trauma. It is sad and scary for a small child to hear her daddy suffering, and to not understand. Yes, back in the day, they were pretty much on their own and I can't imagine how one would cope feeling as though they could not speak about what they went through.

      I'm thankful, today, there is much awareness about PTSD and it is understood and there is help out there for all those who suffer.

      That photo was taken during a happy time.

      Peace and blessings

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      Shyron E Shenko 10 months ago

      Dear Faith/Theresa, it seems that you were a child who could deal with a father with PTSD, and I just realized from your reply to Flourish Anyway, that my Grandfather must have had PTSD but that was unknown at that time.

      Many Blessings and Hugs to you my friend.

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      Faith Reaper 10 months ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Shyron,

      Well, not sure if I did deal with it well, but I believe God sent an angel to cover my ears so that I didn't have to hear all of it each night. I do remember my heart being sad for my dad and me not knowing what I could do about it.

      Yes, most likely your Grandfather did have PTSD, which they did not know about such back in the day, sadly, and were left to attempt to cope on their own, and their choices to do so, unfortunately, were not the best and added to the harm.

      Hugs and blessings to you too, sweet lady

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      Marlene Bertrand 5 months ago from Northern California, USA

      I come from a military background. My dad was in the service and he served in the Korean War and the Vietnam War. My three brothers were in the military and they served in wars as well. I married a man who served in the Vietnam War and so I can truly identify with your poem. War is real. PTSD is real. It is sad that soldiers are sent to fight in wars only to return to suffer with the effects of war.

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      Faith Reaper 5 months ago from southern USA

      Thank you for reading and sharing here, Marlene. I thank your dad, three brothers and the man you married for their service. It is sad to see loved ones suffering from the effects of war, especially as a child when you don't understand what's going on. I'm glad today, there are those who are helping with those returning home today with PTSD and it is okay to talk about it these days.

      God bless

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      Patricia Scott 6 weeks ago from sunny Florida

      It is so hard to see family and friends suffer from the horrors they encounter in war. My Daddy fought in WWI and WWII...and those experiences became a part of who he was. I was spared his anguish in a big way as that was before I was born. But at times I felt a bit of sadness from him that I dont even think he understood.

      I held in my arms a classmate who returned from Vietnam...scarred and damaged...a young man who was like a brother to me....he was a medic during the war...O what he witnessed....you have so poignantly shared this with us and I thank you Angels are on the way to you this morning ps

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      Faith Reaper 6 weeks ago from southern USA

      Hi Dear Patricia,

      There's no telling what your daddy saw and experienced. Back in the day they did not talk about what they went through and had to internalize their pain. Some did not know how to deal with it and took to drinking to cope but that did not help of course.

      Oh, thank you for sharing about your young medic friend. You are such a loving friend to be there or him. I can't even begin to imagine what he saw. I hope he was able to have some joy in is life.

      Thank you for a sweet visit . Angels heading your way to watch over you and your precious family.

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