A Day I Will Remember
I Hold My Porcelain Trophy Close
Where did all my competition go ?
I finished ahead of all of them
I had some tough challangers but I always won
Night after night I would become victorous
There is no one that can beat me
I can say that with great pride
Other friends heard me boast
Some even say I talked rag time
Each time I accepted the challange
One by one they fell just like pins in bowling
I saw them fall sometimes right away
Other times hours later
I feel the sensation
The rush I get goes through my whole body
How can it be anything but good?
Maybe I feel a little light headed at times
But that is normal right ?
But nothing I can't handle
I have been playing this game since I was ten
No one but no one is going to mess with me ever again
People first looked at me with excitement
They were my peers who I quickly out shined
No matter how hard they tried they couldn't keep up
I began to practice every chance I got
I would wake up early
I would go to bed real late
I sometimes never slept
The t.v I left on for days
No sense and shutting it off when I just have to turn it on again
I am smarter than the average bear like Yogi bear would say.
But each time I knew my outcome
To be the biggest badass who anyone could ever meet
I felt the sense of accomplishment
That only a certain few knew
Colleges across the country practice diligently to be me
I let them try but I know who I am
What I am capable of
This once a leisure sport
Became such an obsession
That there was not a day that went by
I would not try
I couldn't seem to get it out of my mind
I watched as other people struggled in life with their problems
Not me my problems seemed to diminish each time I raised the bar
My chosen profession was dropped
Since I didn't need it any more
What get up way too early and leave later and later from a job
In hopes to make it big someday
Working hard and always burning the midnight oil
Can't you see ?
I am practicing to become a legend
Everyone will know my name
As I look up and wonder
How long have I been playing this game
Now I once could quickly give you the answer
But the answer alludes me now
For what reason I am not sure
But I now I know I am in no posittition to take a bow
I hold down my head and watch the room spin in circles
That brings back memories
Of forty years ago
When I first started
I was only a young lad who didn't know much
I was a follower but was determined to become a great leader someday
I knew I could do it
Then others would eat my dust
Each week I would buy my supplies
At first I couldn't buy it and I paid someone else well
To bring me a little something
Hidden in a small paper bag
That could only lead to one thing
I was stubburn then and I am more stubburn now than ever
I have all the answers
You can't talk to me because I won't listen
I hold my trophy against my face
A cool feeling to give me the slightest relief
I feel like I have been here for hours
I don't feel any better
I keep telling myself this will pass
Everyone has to get on with their day
Its Monday and most people work
I partied so much over the weekend I can not even move
My eyes are tired but I can not sleep
My nose starts to bleed and I am not sure why ?
Once again I should call for help
But I don't even have the energy to try
I can't tell you what day it is
My memory gets all jumbled and words aren't clear and I don't know what I say
I don't know what time it is either ?
I sometimes forget what I did yesterday or even a few hours ago
Blackouts they call them
I use to think they were funny
Not remembering anything at any moment
I felt as if I had entered into a different world
One that is new to me
Sounds that sounded so familiar
Now became distant and soft
I hear a humming noise
Could it be one of those darned bees that use to aggrivate me in the middle of the summer
When I would pass out on the front lawn
They thought I was their friend
I never knew why they would sting me over and over again
I later knew why
They tried to knock some sense into me
It didn't work
I never did quite understand it
It was like one of lifes mysteries you never do solve
U. F. O.s, Easter Islands or the big green monster
I mean the Loche Ness
Like those puzzles that give you a headache like I have now
I am thirsty but I remember drinking just hours ago
I feel weak
I really do wish I had something to eat
I don't have any friends left
Since they were all sore loosers and quit playing with me
That is just fine with me who needs them anyway
I will be fine without them
I have done it for years now that I suddenly remember
I reach forward to pull myself up
I have no strength
I am like a famous triathalon runner
Now totally exhausted and out of breath
I am having trouble swollowing
i have been coughing and choking unexpectedly
I was gagging but things are better now
I feel a little cold and wish I had my favorite blanket with me
This smelly hooded jacket will have to do
I took it off days ago and must of left it curled in a ball here
How lucky was I to find it
I am getting even to tired to talk
I want to go to sleep now and put the past behind me
The future I do not see
I don't think there is one
The biggest hoax that had everyone buffaloed since the begining of time
I was to smart for that
Where God would come to those in times of great need
As the story goes like an old wives tale
They see bright white lights and walk through a tunnel to heaven
Yes those pearly gates that open
Unless you have been bad and then the Devil will get you
In his firey grasp
I don't know how people could be so gullable to believe that crap
Like cigarettes are good for you
Those cancer sticks everyone smokes
I feel my butt is burning and I don't know why
I first thought it was just pins and needles
That my legs get from time to time
Then I thought it was those damn cold sweats again
That give me the chills then I burn up like I have a fever
Enough about me
What do you believe ?
I am almost too tired to talk
My pains in my body don't bother me a n y m o r e !
I still wish I could have something cold to drink
Yes a Pepsi or Coke would be nice
Those were the days when I could sneak a little something in it
Nobody ever knew
I felt kind of silly but later it gave me great confidence
I had everyone tricked like the great Houdini
Yes he also was tricked and died a sudden unexpected fate
Life is something
To contemplate and try to figure out
Now that's a big 25 cent word
Now I don't talk to much because people say I sllurr to much
They often say I don't make sense
I will have them know when I was younger I use to write
Pretty darn good stories and everyone I knew even strangers all seemed to agree
If I keep writing I can write my own ticket to life
I use to think what it would be like to have all that money and I could buy anything I ever wanted
Then I would laugh when I got kicked out of college and had the shakes just holding a pen
When the littlest things seemed impossible
I gave up on my dream
I had pages and pages of writtings I use to save
I remember once I threw up on them
What an awful mess I think when I moved they got lost
Was I kicked out oh well it doesn't really matter
They were some of my best works
A publisher said bring them to me
I just forgot where to go and who was she?
Now I am going to take a nap finally
That was my life in a nutshell
I don't know if I going to Heaven or Hell
But one thing is for certain
I am done with drinking
So if I could write you a message
I would leave it in one of my empty bottles for you to find
No one can live your life but you
You make choices every day so what does this decison matter with so many others you have to make
It is too too LATE !
When you loose your wife and kids and everything else you have including your life
That is why I am here talking to you