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A voice in my head: Echoes of madness

Updated on December 10, 2011

A stormy heart and an indecisive mind will get you no where

And if u toy with them both you will be bound by despair

And I shrugged those words and watched them from afar

As they fed on each other like scavengers picking on each other’s scars

And now both of them lay to rest, by my own hand

Laid broken and scarred covered with desperate sand

Confusion, describes the matters of the heart

Unable to make a decision right from the start

Embracing the calamity I share my heart

Only to have them in exchange of mine tear theirs apart

Should have I known, should I have made up my mind

Or by the token of love that they offered was I blind?

Have I been so selfish to claim them both and their devotion?

Or did I simply toy with their unending emotion?

Guilt creeps into the soul, eating it from the inside

And the agony descends upon the soul, unable to hide

Like the anchor of the ship sinking

The treachery, scavenges on the soul, pecking

I am drowning with guilt,

Guilt that feeds on my heart

I AM NOT

NOT guilty

~~~~ [evil character resurfaces!]

You are naïve, my soul ached to see them burn

And now in their death they had to learn

That there is no devotion, and the only sacrifice

Was that their blood had to be shed for my hunger to suffice

By the end of the day they were past their expiry date

For they were so weak and vulnerable in their loving state

Disgusting and mushy they were till the very end

And by their suffering my boredom I was able to fend

Embrace their pain, savor their cries

Flavor your life with various lies

Let them break and taunt them as they shatter

Their pain is your drug, the worse the better

Toy or be toyed, I will have every promise broken

And by the end of the day rip out their hearts as token

Walk over their bodies with no word spoken

No rest until the beast in you has awoken

Men are emotional victims which my soul yearns to pry on

For man was born, with emotions and to pain prone

Hurt the ones you love, scar them as a sign of devotion

Yes this is the world of madness, a world of oblivion

Hurt them let them crumble in distress from the pain

Let them beg for death, let them burn under the rain

This is the real face of humanity so don’t preach kindness

In this void for a heart, nothing cures but the darkness

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    • Cris A profile image

      Cris A 

      6 years ago from Manila, Philippines

      Sent you an email, thru HP. If you can't find it in your inbox. Try the spam mails - i found yours in mine! Haha

    • Cris A profile image

      Cris A 

      6 years ago from Manila, Philippines

      Oh wait...it's there! In the spam box! Haha

    • Cris A profile image

      Cris A 

      6 years ago from Manila, Philippines

      Yes it;s me and I've just published a new old hub. I plan to go full blast next year (well, hopefully). Nice to hear you're liking school so far...I hope it continues.

      PS Just checked my email, none from you yet. :D

    • Uriel profile imageAUTHOR

      Uriel 

      6 years ago from Lebanon

      Cris? YOu are alive? MAN i haven't seen/heard/or read anything from you in a while! Thanks that was the nicest Christmas gift :) [knowing that you are still with us ]

      My uni is going great, im a junior and i LIKE it:P

      will do, check out your inbox in a second :P

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      Cris A 

      6 years ago from Manila, Philippines

      You are as good as I remember my friend! And those images!

      Anyway I hope everything is fine with school! Haha Merry Christmas to you and yours :D

      PS Shoot me an email thru here and I'll look you up on FB - if you're there.

    • Uriel profile imageAUTHOR

      Uriel 

      6 years ago from Lebanon

      Freya!! well you can try classical conditioning with him. Everytime he climbs on the roof hit him gently on the head yet show him that you are angry, but repeating the behavior he will understand the consequence of his action. It is the theory of classical conditioning by Ivan Pavlov. He conditioned the dogs to salivate when he rang a bell :D It works with Tiny. Everytime he does something bad like growling at the younger cats or bullying them around i slap [gently!] him on the head to make the point. He stopped doing that and i don't even need to show him that i am angry with his attitude, i only look at him and he behaves himself :D

      Hope you are doing oki :D btw i almost fainted when i saw Kenzo's picture on facebook :D:D It was EPIC

    • Freya Cesare profile image

      Freya Cesare 

      6 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

      Yes, that's Kenzo. The cutest sweetest but stupidest cat I ever know. Yesterday he climbed to the roof. Reached on the middle which is flat surface then happily climbed down to the slope and turned to the right, took 1 step and then frozen with fear when realized that something not allowed him to easily walk straight. Gravity pulled him to fall from the roof everytime he took another step . Then he simply cried with his Sweet chinchilla voice. I had to climbed there to get him. That was a second time already. I'm sure he will try again soon. Stupid cat.

      Yes dear, it's been so long. I hope everything good there with you. I should be very busy but can't stop to think about browsing a little bit. ^^

    • Uriel profile imageAUTHOR

      Uriel 

      6 years ago from Lebanon

      Girl!!! so long ~~~~ i haven't heard much from you, nor have i written in a long time :D [yeh my psychology class is affecting me way beyond the normal range :P split personality :P ] so how have you been ? and is kenzo the cat with caramel/ whitish color whose pic was posted of fb ? can you hug him for me please??? and how have you been ?

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      Freya Cesare 

      6 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

      multiple personality disorder?

      It's all fine until resurrection line and I was shrieked like stupid horse! You got me there indeed. Oh well!

      Kenzo said : "Hi! "

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