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Updated on August 2, 2017

Assalammu alaykum, Wr. Br

Dear Uriel.

Since I don’t know how to write the pain as beautiful as you. I can only try to show you my own pain and how I woken up from it. What I was long time ago, maybe far too gloomy than you. But I think the silly part of me had help me to stay as full of hope as I can be. You see, sometimes there is a benefit become a little dumb! ;D What your mind might understood clearly as problems will only become an echoes of too much worries in my mind. "Gooooo away, you a bugger!" My heart probably said to the understanding when it recognized problem. Denial? Haaa! What else? But it will never called as defense mechanism if it is not useful as defense, right? hahaha!

Dear readers,

You can read the first part in here...


Please enjoy! ^^


Then, from her dust

I finally was woken up

Crawled from her remain

Turned into different person

Even I still have all responsibility inside family

I was lack of right

Lack of my relative acceptance

Alone ...

An orphan of material world


A daughter of own determination


For whom I really am


This is the price I had to pay to become me

People asked; "why bother?"

For us to be born and die as single person

Then have to take responsibility for our acts by our own

Besides, in fact, we never really alone

God always will

Become our trusted companion

Yeah, it’s true

I understood that too

Still, I wished

I could have someone to cry with me

I didn’t want to always alone

When others singing some family song

I really wanted to belong

Of love and affection

Sweet loving and warm

Kind embracing acceptance

Smile inside and out

Joyful of being with someone

But Alone,

Seem the only choice for me

“Your standard is too high.” They said

Well, determination is not always easy

For what and who I am today

I have to fight for better life for me

Because of that, then

I let myself alone

Loneliness is

Just an expecting company

I could do that simply because

I knew God will never let me stay

Forever inside the pain of it

And die for what I believe

But where she is? Ah, there she is. Aww! She decided to go to sleep without me. :(
But where she is? Ah, there she is. Aww! She decided to go to sleep without me. :(

To be Continued.... hehehe...

But soon it will be over

By the way, my Baby Kitten say, "Hi!"



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  • Freya Cesare profile imageAUTHOR

    Freya Cesare 

    8 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

    True, a puzzling life indeed. God bless you too, King Micky. Thank you.

  • Micky Dee profile image

    Micky Dee 

    8 years ago

    It's like- we cannot "get lost in love, or another". Ours is to love God and walk alone? Life is such a puzzle. God bless you Freya.

  • Freya Cesare profile imageAUTHOR

    Freya Cesare 

    8 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

    For those who knew what they want it seem goal always too high. For those who only casually following the wave of other thoughts or opinions about what one should want, everything could be easy, sometimes will seems so perfect, but there will be a point where limit had surpassed and life become dreadfully boring. Easy come, easy go, as simple as that.

    Yes, we will never alone again, but dear, we are not two. We are many. I have multiple personality! didn't you know? LOL. Just kidding! Hahaha

  • Uriel profile image


    8 years ago from Lebanon

    btw my cats are on facebook in case u want to drop by :D

  • Uriel profile image


    8 years ago from Lebanon

    Freya, your words are compelling and simple touching. Yet, you will never be alone again, our hearts beat together, stronger than before, and for once know that your heart, [if it has to soar] won't soar alone. i do remember people telling me [i set my goals to high] and i thought i was alone in that. yet after reading your poem i think you and i are never alone :) i got you and you got me :D so we are two, no more alone :D

    Love the poem as usual and for once, i say and i mean it "THANK YOU so much "

  • Freya Cesare profile imageAUTHOR

    Freya Cesare 

    8 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

    I have you to share it with me, Mentalist Acer, don't I? LOL

    Ah, you always so intuitive and wise, in your own way. Can you let me see what is that inside your head? Even only one Hypno session it might be very interesting. Hehehehe.

    Thank you, Sir.

  • Mentalist acer profile image

    Mentalist acer 

    8 years ago from A Voice in your Mind!

    One can make out the sound of gifted blessings when alone,but what is the use if no ones there to share.;)


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