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A New Sense of Awareness
People start over every day. Each morning brings a fresh outlook on the lives in which we lead. Each day we are given the choice to look forward with pleasure, or feel the overwhelming need to find the idiosyncrasies of negative forces to bring us down. The choice is ours as to what we do with our precious time and energy, and the results of our own choices make up the world in which we live.
To try and focus on the future, we must see it in a way that is pleasant. If the only road is unsettled, it's nearly impossible to see beyond the next five minutes, let alone try and feel comfort in the coming days, months and years. When a person is faced with the idea of starting over, it can be frightening, and in many ways, you may find yourself trying to continue to live in your past versus pressing forword regardless of the life you've lived, be it pleasant or indifferent. The reality of major change can hit you between the eyes, in the center of the heart, and in the midst of the soul. However, after every ending, there comes a new beginning. Some of us don't like change, some of us thrive on it. Change can be both good and bad. Much like anything else in life, it's all in the way you look at it. You can choose to dwell on past mistakes; the "what ifs'" and the "yeah buts", yet all you are able to get out of it is frustration.
The mistakes we make are life lessons we can carry with us to the end of the road. At times the road is rough, and other times it's a freeway of smooth sailing. Wouldn't it be wonderful to be on easy street at any given moment where there is no speed limit and the confusion doesn't exist? Wouldn't life be easier if we didn't have to start over or reinvent the wheel at the most inopportune time? Fact is, sometimes when we least expect it, major change is on our doorstep. Sometimes we don't even have the idea of change in our minds, yet a close friend or family member leaves the world we live in, which simply makes life difficult to bear. Other times we may run into a person from our past that somehow has a way of changing the path in which we travel; even if the path we travel has been one of pleasure and content. In any situation we are forced to make life changing decisions that are not always easy for us to do.
Changing the way we focus on our future can make us or break us. Again, it's all in the way we look at it. Recently, I've been faced with the challenge to make some major life changing decisions. I had been living in a world of comfort and content. Financially, I hadn't a care in the world. Without much notice, I found myself in a situation where everything was about to drastically change. My satisfying little world I was living in wasn't as lovely as I had assumed. I found myself wanting to find faults in my current situation to try and make way for a more fulfilling adventure.
Now I've come face to face with the reality of taking a chance on listening to my heart. I've been forced to take a completely new path in life all alone. Truth be told, I'm not overly comfortable with the consequences it's placed on my lap. When the realization hit me, I was like a scared child in the dark, afraid of my shadow. I was anticipating a future of misfortune and dead ends. I suddenly had immense fear inside me, telling me I hadn't a chance in hell to make it on my own. My fears grew tenfold each day in anticipation of trying to make it on my own in a world that was somehow multitudes less forgiving than it had ever seemed to be in the past.
Unfortunately, our decisions are the very script of our own life mystery/adventure drama. One would care, from time to time, to make necessary changes in the script to adapt to a happier ending of life ever after. Needless to say, in a real life situation there is no way to turn back time. On the other hand, there's no true way to predict the future. The decisions we made in the past are a part of our past, and the only thing we are generally able to do with them is learn from them. The decisions we have yet to make, are the ones that count. If we choose wisely, we will be able to look at the future with an abundance of hope. Starting over is challenging, it's also an adventure to behold. If you look for despair, you'll be sure find it. In turn, if you look toward the future with a new sense of awareness, you're bound to be in for the ride of a lifetime.
I'm a firm believer in the old cliche', "In every cloud, there is a silver lining." There are times when the very thought of crawling out of bed to try to live through another day is more than I'm willing to do. Lately, the overwhelming unknowns of my future are tearing up my mind with uncertainty. The fears of going forward in a new direction are frightening. I can concentrate on the negative forces inside my psyche, or I can try to see the light in a way I've not yet been able to see it. If I continue to be optimistic, my chances of a brighter future just may come to fruition. When it's all said and done, the only way I can find the silver lining is to get up, get dressed, go look for it, and when I find it I'd best embrace it with much enthusiasm. The sun will continue to shine, and so too, will the beam before me which illuminates my path. Here's to new beginnings.
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