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An Improvised Mother

Updated on April 23, 2015
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Anan is an online blogger and private consultant since 2009 in the areas of relationships and interfaith spirituality.

I am afraid, unsure

a baby grows in me

so beautiful and pure.

What kind of mom will I be?


I don't know any songs.

no lullabies, no rhymes

never knew of hugs

no "I love You's" at times.


I am afraid, unsure

a baby grows in me

so beautiful and pure.

What kind of mom am I?


What if I am broken?

What if there is evil in me?

What if I do to you,

what she did to me?


Don't worry my love

I am learning to give

those things I never had

to break the chain with me.


I love you already,

my breath, my life.

My child, my baby

I'm here until I die.


Ananceleste©2014


Mother's day song- Mother to Child

© 2014 Anan Celeste

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      Anan Celeste 

      4 years ago from California

      I missed you annart! Is true, everyone is different, yet should be the same unconditional love.

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      Ann Carr 

      4 years ago from SW England

      So beautiful. So sad that some mothers can't cope or have it in them to abuse their children. This one is different. The mother's instinct is strong, thankfully. Very poignant to a mother and grandmother.

      Good to read something of yours again.

      Ann

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      Anan Celeste 

      4 years ago from California

      Thanks Anita! Is true the chain must be broken. That is what I did and hope I was last in the line. Blessings and light.

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      Anita Saran 

      4 years ago from Bangalore, India

      What a beautiful poem. Yes there are mothers that are abusive - difficult to fathom, but history need not repeat itself.

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      Anan Celeste 

      4 years ago from California

      Thank you Harishprasad!

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      Anan Celeste 

      4 years ago from California

      Wow! Sometimes I write things that I think no one can relate to. Is all true, I was terrified. What if, what if I was not strong enough. After 2 generations of absent,abusive parents, What if I was damaged too? It wasn't until my kids were teens that my daughter told me,- " Mom, you are in the clear. You are not your mother! Now is the time to give yourself some credit.Geez... By all accounts, you gave so much love and protection to us that I cant understand where you learned it. I cant wait to see you as a grandma. No one will able to stand you!. Rest, relax we are ok." Thank you Audrdrey.

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      Anan Celeste 

      4 years ago from California

      Thank you so much Blossom. Happy mother's day my dear.

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      Harish Mamgain 

      4 years ago from New Delhi , India

      A Fantastic picture of the extreme love expressed by a loving mother toward her expected baby ! Anan, you have brought forth a real gem. Voted up.

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      Audrey Hunt 

      4 years ago from Idyllwild Ca.

      Tears fill my eyes as my heart and soul relates to each word you have written. It's a miracle! YOU are a miracle. You will never know what you have done for me through writing your remarkable poem. Hugs ~ Audrey

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      Bronwen Scott-Branagan 

      4 years ago from Victoria, Australia

      A truly beautiful poem. Happy Mothers' Day every day!

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      Anan Celeste 

      4 years ago from California

      Hi guys! travmaj,btrbell and Mrs. Gypsy Rose ;

      Thank you so much ladies!

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      4 years ago from Riga, Latvia

      Lovely just lovely.

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      Randi Benlulu 

      4 years ago from Mesa, AZ

      Beautiful! Just beautiful! Thank you! Up+

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      travmaj 

      4 years ago from australia

      A stunning piece, evocative and complex, much to ponder here.

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      Anan Celeste 

      4 years ago from California

      Thank you Lord of the Cross!

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      Anan Celeste 

      4 years ago from California

      Happy mother's day Debbie! Huge hugs and blessings my friend.

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      Joseph De Cross 

      4 years ago from New York

      Brilliant!

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 

      4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      MY SWEET FRIEND Anan.. how beautiful happy Mothers day to you.. hugs girlfriend

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