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An Open Letter: Dearest Mama

Updated on May 20, 2014
Dear Mama and Papa, your love have brought you together, and together you have welcomed and introduced me to you, my parents and to the world.
Dear Mama and Papa, your love have brought you together, and together you have welcomed and introduced me to you, my parents and to the world. | Source
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Little hat, little short dress, little white shoes with buckles,  Thank you for this picture that bring me the chuckles. The dress is way too high, my underwear peeping through, My face you said is like an apple but never mind because you love me tooYou helped me buckle my shoe, One, two, three on my right shoe; Then four, five, six for the left side too, Thank you mama, I love you! My brothers and I, we dressed alike, In t-shirts with red, white and blue stripes. In our blue jeans, the stripes were paired, I don't remember if we ever cared.  But not just stripes, there were checks too, I liked my playful looks for I love you! Goody barrettes were my favourites, On my head they adorned my hair.
Little hat, little short dress, little white shoes with buckles,  Thank you for this picture that bring me the chuckles. The dress is way too high, my underwear peeping through, My face you said is like an apple but never mind because you love me too
Little hat, little short dress, little white shoes with buckles, Thank you for this picture that bring me the chuckles. The dress is way too high, my underwear peeping through, My face you said is like an apple but never mind because you love me too | Source
You helped me buckle my shoe, One, two, three on my right shoe; Then four, five, six for the left side too, Thank you mama, I love you!
You helped me buckle my shoe, One, two, three on my right shoe; Then four, five, six for the left side too, Thank you mama, I love you! | Source
My brothers and I, we dressed alike, In t-shirts with red, white and blue stripes. In our blue jeans, the stripes were paired, I don't remember if we ever cared.  But not just stripes, there were checks too, I liked my playful looks for I love you!
My brothers and I, we dressed alike, In t-shirts with red, white and blue stripes. In our blue jeans, the stripes were paired, I don't remember if we ever cared. But not just stripes, there were checks too, I liked my playful looks for I love you! | Source
Goody barrettes were my favourites, On my head they adorned my hair.
Goody barrettes were my favourites, On my head they adorned my hair. | Source

Being far away from home especially on Mother's Day, I miss my ma the most.

This hub is an open letter for my ma but to be shared to the world to let her know that I miss her so much and loving her from the other side of the globe!


Dearest Mama,

In a room full of hot lamps, your conscious cries weakly echoed through the walls. The painful strikes were hard to bear racing with time, your strength was strong in hopes for a beautiful girl. Your sweat rolled down your forehead and met with your tears as you force in labour a new life you brought to this world. I was the new life that gasped for the first breath of air, the tiny cry from a fragile girl that made you and papa smile.

You had the most horrifying scare in your life, you had told me. You were at the City Hall carrying me in your arms when someone alerted you that papa had been stabbed at work. You were struck with fear and dazed. You passed the baby that was in your arms to a total stranger and dashed through the heavy doors. Both our guardian angels were watching and led me to Grandma who was then an employee at the City Hall. She learnt about the commotion and recognized that the baby cradled by the stranger was me. God is Great; He spared papa a second life! And I was back in your arms!

You were with me all the time, holding my hand. I had big round eyes and a round little face and you’ve told me that I looked like an apple. Haha, that was really funny! My dresses were very short during my time that my panties were hanging, but you picked them in pastel colours for me. My aunt in New York sent pretty colourful good ole Goody barrettes and you love to neatly braid my soft hair with them. My favourite shoe ever was a white pair with several buckles. I love those shoes until now, mama. I am glad you have a picture of me in those shoes. As I was growing up, I remember how you dressed me and my brothers into wearing similar striped t-shirts and blue jeans, even with our red and blue rubber shoes! Did I ever look like a little tomboy! My tiny sis donned pigtails was the only one wearing tiny dresses since she is the youngest and blue jeans wouldn’t be cute on her. My plastic barrettes were soon passed on to her too.

Memories...

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You took me and my brother out to greet the morning sun, You fed us well and bathed us after all the fun.Ma and Pa in their college years.Every time I see this picture, Papa, I think I got a crush on you.Mama, you cared not only me but you cared for three more... My brothers Mark and Myles and sister Missy, And plus me, there were four! You taught me to save and brothers and sister too, You provided us each with piggy banks or so. We saved, we did and we were happy. When to the bank we laid our money,  I cried for I miss my beloved ceramic piggy.
You took me and my brother out to greet the morning sun, You fed us well and bathed us after all the fun.
You took me and my brother out to greet the morning sun, You fed us well and bathed us after all the fun. | Source
Ma and Pa in their college years.
Ma and Pa in their college years. | Source
Every time I see this picture, Papa, I think I got a crush on you.
Every time I see this picture, Papa, I think I got a crush on you. | Source
Mama, you cared not only me but you cared for three more... My brothers Mark and Myles and sister Missy, And plus me, there were four!
Mama, you cared not only me but you cared for three more... My brothers Mark and Myles and sister Missy, And plus me, there were four! | Source
You taught me to save and brothers and sister too, You provided us each with piggy banks or so. We saved, we did and we were happy. When to the bank we laid our money,  I cried for I miss my beloved ceramic piggy.
You taught me to save and brothers and sister too, You provided us each with piggy banks or so. We saved, we did and we were happy. When to the bank we laid our money, I cried for I miss my beloved ceramic piggy. | Source

"I L♥ve You"

On Sundays after church, I had tagged along to the city market with you. One hot day out at the Carbon Market in my dark denim jumpers and white knee socks, I cried for not being able to find you while you were bargaining for vegetables from one vendor to the next. I have my fear of chickens and I was at the same time avoiding to seeing them underneath the huge upside down baskets where their heads were poking through the holes. I think the desperate chickens were staring at me, yew! Strangers gathered around me and asked if I was lost. “No.” I replied worriedly. “My mama is lost.” I quickly added. A kind woman asked me if I knew my way home. “Yes.” I confidently acknowledged. I think I was grade V that time then. She looked into her purse and gave me some change for the jeepney fare. I was still sobbing and thanked her. I moved back to the spot where you and I last stood and gazed left and right for you. Then, out of nowhere or I guess just there, you stood up! You were down to the vendors’ baskets on the ground to select from the farm fresh produce. That was why I did not see you. For the right time and spot, I was just standing behind you. I thought I lost you. You laughed because you thought that I was being silly; and I laughed still in tears. You gave me a tight hug and we proceeded for home. The kind woman was gone, so I got to keep the change in my pocket!

You had taught me right and wrong. The dos and don’ts. To be polite and to be humble. To be thrifty and to learn how to save. You provided us each with ceramic piggy banks, painted with flowers on them. They were the best piggy banks ever and I had the biggest one! I learned to tend a store when you put me on guard to watch it while you take your rest for a nap, until one day, our neighbour came to you and told you that I was giving him free stuff from your store when he comes to buy. You had advised me that they are not “free” items. I was too shy to charge my male friends and I do not know why. Sorry. I knew it was silly and stupid at the same time, perhaps I only thought of it after you were not pleased of me watching your store.

I enjoyed the little pastime each time you asked me to pull out your white hair since I was collecting small earnings from you. You would fall asleep from its comfort; and to me, it was an easy task to get paid. What was that before? Five centavos per strand of hair? I was richer come every weekend and I saved my earnings into my piggy bank.

Presents for the neighbourhood children

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Mama and Papa taking out hand-me-down treasures to be given away.Right after breakfast on a Christmas morning, mama opens the gate and the neighbourhood children and little ones with their mothers arrive to receive their gifts.Little Monika and her cousin Monique giving out candy treats as well.The yearly tradition of my ma's gift-giving on Christmas day continues with Little Meggie as Little Santa. Her cousins Monika and Monique are now in Canada.Neighbourhood kids along with their mothers waiting for "Little Santa" to hand out the gifts some wrapped in Christmas wrapping and some ready in plastic bags.
Mama and Papa taking out hand-me-down treasures to be given away.
Mama and Papa taking out hand-me-down treasures to be given away. | Source
Right after breakfast on a Christmas morning, mama opens the gate and the neighbourhood children and little ones with their mothers arrive to receive their gifts.
Right after breakfast on a Christmas morning, mama opens the gate and the neighbourhood children and little ones with their mothers arrive to receive their gifts. | Source
Little Monika and her cousin Monique giving out candy treats as well.
Little Monika and her cousin Monique giving out candy treats as well. | Source
The yearly tradition of my ma's gift-giving on Christmas day continues with Little Meggie as Little Santa. Her cousins Monika and Monique are now in Canada.
The yearly tradition of my ma's gift-giving on Christmas day continues with Little Meggie as Little Santa. Her cousins Monika and Monique are now in Canada. | Source
Neighbourhood kids along with their mothers waiting for "Little Santa" to hand out the gifts some wrapped in Christmas wrapping and some ready in plastic bags.
Neighbourhood kids along with their mothers waiting for "Little Santa" to hand out the gifts some wrapped in Christmas wrapping and some ready in plastic bags. | Source

The Christmas Spirit of Giving

"I L♥ve You, Mama."

Two months early and before everyone in the city gets frantic and rushing for Christmas shopping, you do your preparation ahead in your own convenient days. It brings you joy as you eagerly and excitedly open the door-to-door boxes I send to you. Inside the boxes, you select the hand-me-down items carefully and wrap them with the holiday wrappers you have shopped early on. The gathering of happy children and their mothers await for the gift distribution. I am proud for what you do filling many little hearts with joy each year.


Your mail: Letters, pictures, news, drawings, clippings of jokes

Ma, I have kept all your letters that came my way, Even the greeting you wrote on a cigarette wrap for my birthday.
Ma, I have kept all your letters that came my way, Even the greeting you wrote on a cigarette wrap for my birthday. | Source
You have sent your granddaughters letters and drawings, I've put them out again and handed them to the girls, Their faces lighted up for how I have safely kept your letters became so surprising!
You have sent your granddaughters letters and drawings, I've put them out again and handed them to the girls, Their faces lighted up for how I have safely kept your letters became so surprising! | Source
Ma, you never tired writing me,  It excites me when I have a mail from you. You send me news, photos and jokes funny as can be, Because you miss and love me and I love you too!
Ma, you never tired writing me, It excites me when I have a mail from you. You send me news, photos and jokes funny as can be, Because you miss and love me and I love you too! | Source

"I L♥ve You

once more."

My blooming years were never left unattended by you. You had watered me with love and wisdom and calmed me not to be frightened to face my suitors. You had been open and eager to listen to my stories, excited in every way as you taught me to be honest and not hide secrets from you. I had willingly shared my love letters with you to learn from you what you think of them. You and papa had guided me through and had treated them all with kindness.

Mama, you have never tired of writing me letters and mailing them to Canada. Your letters are long and humble. Your penmanship I proudly admire. They are still written on lined yellow papers inside the red, white and blue airmail envelopes. Year after year, you knew that the stamps were getting more expensive but it does not hinder you from sending me letters. Enclosed are still cut-outs of funny jokes and quotations from your local newspapers. You have me updated with the politics back home and headlines from your newspaper clippings. I have very well kept your letters and mail for years since 1993!

Mama, I want you to know that distance does not keep us at all apart. We are bound as one in our hearts. We share the same road as you have always pointed your directions toward me in the past and the present. You shared lovingly and taught cautiously what I should expect of motherhood when my time comes. Indeed, you got me prepared and I was not fearful at all for the path that I had chosen starting my own family. You handed me a tiny red velvet pouch with a yellow pull-string you had placed in my right palm to clasp when I was in the labour room. You were there all the time for me, seeing you through the glass windows. You reminded me to pray to the Sto. Nino that was inside the pouch to ease me and give me a smooth labour and a healthy baby. Sto. Nino heard my prayers and came my first daughter, your first grandchild. She was the most beautiful form from God’s miracle of human life. It was also the greatest feeling to see you and papa become grandparents. Up to now, you care for both of my girls and me as we see and talk to each other via long distance, the present road that connects us to the same directions. Your letters are still coming.

A mother I am too.

I thank you mama and papa in molding me, I was then ready to face my own future. I bore two beautiful girls, Monika and Marie. With all my heart and as a mother, I will give them all the nurture.
I thank you mama and papa in molding me, I was then ready to face my own future. I bore two beautiful girls, Monika and Marie. With all my heart and as a mother, I will give them all the nurture. | Source
"A mother's heart always has room for a little kindness, a little more understanding, a little more love."
"A mother's heart always has room for a little kindness, a little more understanding, a little more love." | Source

"I L♥ve You always."

You brought me into this world and stood by me though there were many times that I had made you cry. We had our own misunderstandings as I was growing up following my stubborn ways. I had hurt you so many times and I was wrong to do that to you. The tears, misunderstandings and stubbornness were the contributing factors of my growing up and because of these, I am ready to understand and take the same attitudes from my own growing children. But you had always been patient with me and ever forgiving. We both developed a heart-of-stone, but we managed to crush this into pieces, then, we became best of friends again.

Mama, you are very dear to me.

I love you. Happy Mother’s Day!


Love, Tess




"A mother's heart always has room for a little kindness, a little more understanding and a little more love."


≈ ♥ ≈ © coffeegginmyrice "An Open Letter: Dearest Mama" 13.May.2012

"Ma, remember when you were cooking in the kitchen, I was there to help you and had the radio turned on. It was a sad day for you that day when the news of Elvis Presley's sudden death was over the news. You cried. I was thirteen and looked at you surprised. You tried to look away and hide your tears but I laughed and teased you. Then, you started telling me the rest of your favourite stars like James Dean, Gene Kelly and Marlon Brando. Glad you didn't burn the food!" ♥


Ma, this is for you...

This is so Beautiful!

Children's Song for Mother's Day

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 5 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Tobusiness, thank you to find you here this time. I admire your sharing of thoughts straight from your heart. "Too late is never late; for the one loved, there is no need for words.", tobussiness. Mothers "always" know even in the absence of telling them how they are loved.

      I have to work on my "open letter for papa" to match this, gotta be soon for Father's Day. Please come back to read it.

      Love you! Have a solid beautiful day!

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      Jo Alexis-Hagues 5 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

      There are so many things I wanted to say to my mum, but never did and it is now too late. I like to think that she knew how we all felt about her but I wish I had told her.

      This is so beautiful, so full of love what ever the future may bring, your mother knows she was loved and appreciated. A wonderful tribute, so glad I finally made it here.

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      Girish puri 5 years ago from NCR , INDIA

      Such a touchy and intense write up, oh gosh, great one, keep writing

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      Angelme566 5 years ago

      An outstanding tribute to your mommy , no wonder you are a great mom by yourself because nothing was spared by your mom were all the bravery in facing life and a mountainous unconditional love.. Mothers are our unsung heroes right ?

      I am so move while reading this piece.

      Perfect ! Voted all except funny

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 5 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Good day, Faith Reaper! Thank you so much that you found this beautiful. I miss my ma for we are separated by the wide ocean; and I miss the days and time that both of us should be doing things together. Love to you! Cheers!

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      Faith Reaper 5 years ago from southern USA

      What a beautiful, beautiful letter to your Mama. You are both blessed. Thank you for sharing your beautiful story of love. In His Love, Faith Reaper

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      sammimills 5 years ago from California, USA

      Hi coffeegginmyrice! I agree, our parents are the BEST! Father's day is coming soon. I'll wait for your hub on Father's day. I am also a papa's girl like you. hehe. Take care always! :)

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 5 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Hello there sammimills! And the fathers are the best too. Can't really compare. I guess I'm going to pair this "open letter" with another one for my pa this coming Father's Day or else he would think that it isn't fair to him. I am more of a papa's girl, you know...hahaha! I am so happy that you've found this hub, sammimills! Thank you so much! Love ya!

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 5 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Hi Donna! I was waiting for you here, hahaha! Really! How was Mother's Day with you? Oh my gosh, we have so similar "disappearing" experience! Yes, it was a pretty scary experience but I know how to get home, I just wanted my mama back, hehe! Thanks so much for dropping by. Take care now and have a nice day!

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      sammimills 5 years ago from California, USA

      Heartwarming lens! :D. Mothers are the best. beautiful letter you got there. You are so sweet. Thank you for sharing. Keep it up!

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      Donaisabella 5 years ago from Fort Myers

      Hey Tess, beautiful letter. I hope your mom gets to see it. I had a getting lost experience just like yours, and it was also in a crowded place. Then my mom and aunt appeared out of nowhere when people were beginning to get concerned for me and I had tears in my eyes; it was scary. Thanks, great job.

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 5 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Thank you Debbie! My mother is in the Philippines still and never been to Canada where I am, and I miss being around her. I have asked my sister back home to show it to her and hoping that mama will find a perfect time to read my letter to her that has been shared for the world to see (*smile*). Have a wonderful day, Debbie!

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 5 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Hi ishwaryaa22, it's nice for you to stumble on this hub. Thank you so much for your kind thoughts. Thank you for sharing it too.

      Love always,

      Tess~

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 5 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      This is simply beautiful.. Our Mothers are so special and your letter to you mom made me cry and I remember my childhood with my mom.so wonderful to me she is the best mom in the world. Bless you for writing such a beautiful letter to your mom

      Debbie

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      Ishwaryaa Dhandapani 5 years ago from Chennai, India

      An excellent tribute to your beautiful mother! I am deeply moved by this befitting tribute to your mother. You are truly blessed to have a wonderful, caring and loving mother. Your photos are so nice! You are a gifted wordsmith - you inherited this gift from your mother, right?! ( you mentioned you admired her pensmanship) Happy Mother's day to you! Take care.

      Thanks for sharing. Beautiful & Awesome. Voted up & Socially Shared.

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 5 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Hi Cris! If only I am right beside my ma and read it to her, but I am here and she is there. :)

      A heartfelt greeting from my girls would be enough to make me happy! May your wishes come true!

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 5 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Thank you teaches12345! My parents are still back home and it is hard when missing both of them strikes at certain moments, the longing really makes me cry. It wasn't luck that brought me back to my mama's arms after passing me to a stranger, it was the Lord and Mother Mary. He was watching and He watched over my pa too.

      Your mother will never leave your side for she is your bestfriend and for always. Smile!

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      CrisSp 5 years ago from Sky Is The Limit Adventure

      Salute! What a wonderful hub to remember and openly verbalize your love to your mom and your devotion to your family. Your mom (and your family) must be very proud of you. My recent hub speaks as well on a Mother-Daughter relationship. Please drop by when you get a chance. Have a fabulous Mother's Day! Love~

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      Dianna Mendez 5 years ago

      This has me wiping tears from my eyes. What a beautiful tribute to your mom, she is very blessed with a wonderful daughter. Wow, I would have been scared to death hearing about the stabbing and then having to leav my child with a stranger.

      My mom passed on about twenty years ago, she was my best friend and I do still miss her. This has me remembering how wonderful she was. Thanks for posting this sweet tribute.

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 5 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Hello Chai! Thank you for your thoughts! Indeed, mama is a strong woman and could easily get grumpy for the things that she disagrees. I have not seen her cry for small things, she is not that too sensitive, but papa is. I admire mama even until now on how she lends money from her store sales to the neighbours who borrow from her. Hopefully, they will remember their duties. I am always touched of her gift-giving to make the poor children in the neighbourhood happy during Christmastime. I guess Chai, I forgot to add these on my hub. Memory is now kicking back again.

      Happy Mother's Day to you, Chai! Here's hoping Mark and Kurt will give you the best surprise! Enjoy!

      Love always, Tess

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      Marites Mabugat-Simbajon 5 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Dear Missy! I'm glad of HubPages or I will never be able to put my thoughts like this. I am glad too that I am able to share my feelings for mama on Mother's Day especially on the events during my childhood before my memory would forget all of it like how she doesn't remember now who her favourite stars were. I hope she still remembers that she cried for Elvis...in the kitchen! :)

      Happy Mother's Day to you too, my little sis, Missy! Reminiscing, I miss "us" bonding as sisters. Our sibling "age" gap kept us doing our own thing and being around with each of our own friends. I'm the eldest and you're the youngest and I think I have only looked after you for a short time especially when we went to the same school. You had yaya taking care of you too. What do you remember, ha? LOL! My memory of us is vague. I will never forget you tiny little sis when papa would send you with me on my dates as chaperone even to church! Those peanuts and an ice cream cone worked well, don't you agree? We can only dream in celebrating Mother's Day together since we are separated by a vast ocean.

      Keep well and be a good mother to my little smart and adventurous nieces Meg and Mya and thank you for looking after mama and papa for me. I love you too!

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      Chai 5 years ago

      How sweet!!! I agree with you Day Tess. Mama Lina has been so strong in a time that has demanded the best of her and as well as looking after herself, she sent letters, jokes, newspaper clippings & photos to Mark (to us)too, she has found time to look after everyone especially the neighbours "pa utang sa tindahan" and everything else in your/our family and all our family friend's lives.

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      missy 5 years ago

      Tears almost dropped, I got goosebumps...nobody could say it better but you. Thank you so much...I enjoyed it. Wish I could hug you right now...Love you sis!