I hope you all will like my this part as well as you like the first part of this story. So here it goes.....
'Those Crucial day's of my Life' stage 1--> We both got married normally. Everything was fine, He was nice to me. But There was something fishy. Then one day while checking his cell I found some strange messages. At first I thought it would be his past life, and everybody has one. So I let it go and never questioned him about that girl. But that wasn't just a past for him which I realized later on. Bit by Bit I came to know everything about that girl. He started showing signs of being strained. I wasn't able to decide what was right for me and what wasn't. I was undecided.
He wanted to marry his girlfriend but his Mom never gave approval and forced him to marry me. His girlfriend didn't belong from our cast and this was the main reason for her disapproval. After getting forced constantly he agreed to marry me. And we got married. He was never interested in me. He never Loved me. But don't know How, When and Why, I started Loving him. I think nobody can answer. I Loved him Without the condition that he has to Love me back. But I have had a Hope that one day he will realize my Unconditional Love for him. This was very difficult and Crucial days of my life when I knew everything but have to keep quiet because I had two reasons to live with Him. First was my Parents, I would never ever hurt them and I can't see them worried for me or anything else, And the 2nd, I was in Love with him. I had been kept quiet for 5 years without questioning anybody. I hadn't even asked him why he has done this to me. Just because I never wanted him to feel guilty in front of me. Why would he be guilty, Love is not a guilt at all. Isn't it?
Then one afternoon we argued. And I left his house and came to my parents place.
'Those Crucial day's of my Life' stage 2--> I hadn't said a word to my parents about our argument. I thought it would end there only. But I was wrong, it's gone bigger & bigger as the days passed. One day my parents came to know everything which was hidden by Me & My In-Laws. They got so angry and frustrated at the same time because they couldn't understand on whom they should have blamed, My in-laws, My Husband or Me. Things gone worsen. My husband stopped receiving my calls and didn't respond to my messages. I kept looking at the door that one day he will come to me. But it never happened and my parents decided that we both should get a Divorce. I cried from inside, never let them know my pain. I wanted to tell them 'Please let me wait for him, He will definitely come and take me with him. Let me wait' but I kept quiet. I was so sure about him, Despite knowing the fact that he won't come but I didn't lose hope on him. One day my parents understood my pain and just for the sake of it they tried first and last time by calling my In-laws but in vain, They told them clearly that 'Our son didn't want your daughter back and he was looking for an excuse for so many day's. He had already decided for getting divorced with her'. I never believed my ears when I hear this from my parents. I wanted to cry, but couldn't. I had accepted him with my whole heart, Just didn't want him to be guilty in front of me that is why I never told him that I knew everything about his affair. I must have told him that 'I Love him' at least then he hadn't made his decision for leaving me forever. So here again I wasn't able to decide, What was right for me and what wasn't. Leaving you was not as easy for me as everybody asks me to do and living with you would be also hard. Those were the day's when I was undecided, Just listening to everybody but at the end of the day final decision would be mine. My decision would affect not only on me but on my parents also. At that time, I wished I could have changed my present day which got me & my parents in trouble and pain. I had never wanted to happen anything like this.
My day's was becoming dark & night becomes even darker. I didn't want to talk to anybody from outside. So at that time darkness was better rather than being in the light. At least you don't need to face the crucial world, You don't need to see anything and nobody can see you also, whether you are crying or depressed. Darkness never lets you see what is happening, what had happened, and what will happen. For some time only you feel that whatever had happened to you was just a bad nightmare and nothing more than that. Day by Day you start Loving the darkness. After coming here I realized one thing that you become a lonely soul if you got separated with the one you Love the most. Everything changed for me, Sun was rising and going down on its own time. All season's coming and going only I was frozen with his memories. In the Winter day's I was on thin ice, Kind of a precarious situation. Summer came and I had melted like imperceptible, Monsoon came and I got wet in the rain of grief but still waited for him to come. I had nothing to explain to my parents. They weren't listening to me and I became feeble. What I should have explained them when they knew that my Husband doesn't want me in his Life anymore, Then what is the use going there and living with Him when he doesn't respect your Feelings, Your Love and your Emotions. He only cares about his self, His Feelings. I was Taciturn and Wordless after hearing all this Bitter Truth. And finally after thinking for so many day's I fall in with my parent's decision of leaving him forever. We were separated for 9 months and Finally in the month of September we got Divorced.
Her One-sided Love Ended here. She lost all her Hope. Did she ever Love again? If you have your opinion then feel free to discuss and give some more light on this Topic. It will be my Pleasure to hear your response.
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After reading my Hub, Can you decide on whom you should blame exactly for getting a Divorce?