Begging for our love
What would you do if you see the signs and the appalling red flags? You tried your best, you know the love of your life is out there for you. Ultimately your fate was already set for a date. What is going to happen to you then?
We will just let ourselves go? What is really love for, anywways when it can actually take your dreams and your whole life. So many untold stories and so... hum, many broken hearts that we wonder if... if experiences were set on purpose for us to grow and be able to actually let go painfully. This is a story that can be true or fiction. Let's see...
Please listen to this song as you read...thanks!
BEGGING FOR OUR LOVE
"I love you so..!"
Knocking your door and I
see you for the first time
Seven months for this final moment
to see you completely as you are
you tell me to come in and I myself
shy enough, just comply
Parents of yours shake my hand and
leave us alone in this cold night
want to walk outside so we can talk
your jeans and pink blouse contrast
with those Carmine lips
that are there for me to eventually kiss
holding hands for the first time
awkwardly walking and almost getting ran over
so much to say and so much to discover
she knows, I'm just this new kind of lover
I make my move and take a rose hidden in my raincoat
"for you as always promised you Anne Marie"
she open her eyes and hugs me so hard that I drop my keys
we made it to a park
where we seat and start our talk
nervous enough... I kiss her forehead
and slowly a second kiss on her cheeks
ending as a champion down her lips
her heart beats next to me like i never felt before
was this meant to be... this great my friend?
the day and night ended before long
said goodbye and left her by her door
3 days later came to see her and she was gone
no way, what have I done so wrong?
She and parents came in town for a week and that was a hotel room
No signs of her, just the maid changing sheets and droppin her broom
she was gone for good without saying good bye
was so close to the address of this thing called love
that now sadly left me shattered ans with no hope
felt empty and with my heart broken cursed at times the one you know
Left town, left school and left a complete life behind
took me 12 years to find her again
I knew she was somewhere and... needed to find out why?
why she left me with this pain and wondering always...
was anything wrong with my mind?
this time she was a single mom of two kids
her husband of 12 years left her too, same way as she did
She was sorry and told ... broke down the truth
her soon to be ex, was richer and I was just a simple dude
she thought she did her best by marrying him first
parents didn't approve of me, so they just left
that day, 13 years before, all changed in my life
but now I was set free after she explained all to me
this crude true that actually set my mind and my inner needs
was this easy to forget and forgive
what do you think I was suppose to do
13 years to mend my heart out of tears
always afraid to get hurt again, full of unthinkable fears...
Heart didn't throbbed as hard as before...
what a waste and she knew it all along
The minute she walked out of my life
that's when I decided to be a different kind of guy
Mentally was saying to her in my dreams, please stay!
but the days went by and I did really change...and was never the same
Sadly she had problems and I did save her from falling deeper
but this was not a happy ending or just a teaser
we stayed friends and always a call away
we knew our love died the minute she walked out the door
that door that was slammed against my love
and never stopped from hurting all along...
maybe time will decide and all will be fine
until then we read these lines
and she really cried and asked me to forgive
I did forgive, but remember this:
Hardly enough, was not ready to forget...!