I looked within to find myself But I didn’t like what I saw There were only pictures of me Nailed to a lonely black wall I had to walk away I didn’t like the sound The nails of my ego screeched As they were being dragged down I had to look outside Maybe to another land To find other people To reach for another hand But instead I looked near Into the eyes of my friends I found the world within The love that they send
You wiped their tears when they wondered where Daddy was You gave a home to a dog that lived in a cage You took care of a man who doesn’t remember you were there You gave to Jesus on the corner and helped soothe his rage
I found the answer And tore down the walls The pictures were laid to rest I no longer heard their calls But though it has been revealed The walls draw nearer The pictures cry out And my ego looks for a mirror For original sin lives In the heart of a prideful man And though I see your goodness I remember who I am I wonder what I am about When I walk the same path Why do I choose black walls And beg for God’s wrath?
He showed me a painting of human perfection But a blank canvas was all I could see He said, “My image is of human emotion And it is blank because you lack empathy”
I knew why my walls were black For they absorbed every color To love yourself as I did Was to reflect nothing to another Everything I experience Is weighed against its effect on me I walk around the rubble Failing to see your feet underneath I have valued my time here Within an ant colony somehow I matter My importance has taken on a life of its own And yet I have never felt smaller I’m trying to make you happy But I don’t know you like I should I have no idea where to start Except where black walls once stood