Lookin back at the time I spent with you,
I've a 1000 questions in my mind I wish I had asked you.
And a million things I wish I had told you.
I clearly remember the first time We had been out together.
Your hands warming up mine In that cold chilly weather.
Your breath sending chills down my spine;
The air all around was singing in a new rhythm, a new rhyme.
The way you had held my face in your hands,
And had looked into my eyes.
You had made me feel so alive,
Like the way I had never felt in my entire life.
The care with which you had held me in your arms,
Had set my heart pounding fast.
The emotions I saw on your face,
Were like an ocean so vast.
We were so close, so alone
Except for the blowing breeze.
I wanted to stay in your arms forever,
And wanted the whole wide world to cease.
We were so silent, so quiet
Except for the rustling leaves.
I wanted us to remain so forever
And wanted the time to freeze!
Everything had seemed so beautiful & right.
I could see the moon in broad daylight.
Those few moments we shared were so divine,
I could feel your heart beating with mine.
Those few moments became,
The most unforgettable moments of my life.
In those few moments---
You had given me my paradise.
I was afraid it might turn out to be a a dream
And was trying to keep my fears at bay.
You had sensed my fears and had promised-
That You would never go away...
At that moment I had surrendered my entire life to you.
Without thinking, without realising it was all a lie.
A lie that strangled all the emotions within me to death
A lie that destroyed my whole life.
In a single second the picture
Of my heavenly bliss was shattered.
You were the only thing in my life
That had actually mattered.
You wanted to leave & were ready to move on,
And I could do nothing to stop you.
You would betray me to this extent-
I really had no clue.
You said sorry & asked me to forgive you,
Without having the least idea of how badly i was hurt by you.
Untill the moment you left i hadnt realised,
How deeply I was in love with you.
Long time has passed since then & yet,,
Here I am recollecting every single detail about that day.
My world revolved around you,
It still revolves around your name.
Untill now I just knew I loved you
But at this very moment I am sure--
I am insanely, insatiably in love with you
And can do anything to hear you say you love me too.
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