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Blue, blue eyes

Updated on March 2, 2012

The day we met.

You arrived. A week passed and still I had not met you. In and out, a flurry of activity surrounded you as you began to learn of your new duties and those with whom you would work. I knew of your existance, but I was trapped in a bubble of my own work. I rarely escaped my office, and so I barely noticed you.

One week gone, and my boss dragged you into my office to officially meet me. The image of your face ~ your blue, blue eyes ~ will be forever carved in the tablets of my remembrance. You leaned over my desk to shake my hand and greet me. There you were. I had no idea who you were.

How could I have imagined the significance of that moment? Standing before me was a man who would change my life in ways which at that time were unimagineable to me. I had no idea who you would become to me. I am certain that you had no idea who I would become to you.

This was the day that my greatest pain was born. It is the most personal pain of my life. The loss of my mother, even my divorce does not live in the realm of the pain of you my love. It has a life of its own, and has woven its existence into my very cells. My love for you gives me life, and then this pain feeds off of that life. How many hearts in this world thrive and suffer in this way? I am surely not alone.

© 2012 Bella Nina


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    • Bella Nina profile imageAUTHOR

      Bella Nina 

      4 years ago from USA

      Thank you so much Rolly! I appreciate your reading my work, and your wonderful comments!!

    • Rolly A Chabot profile image

      Rolly A Chabot 

      4 years ago from Alberta Canada

      Hi Bella Nina... this is a great place to start, at the beginning... well written and like most above have spoken I am hooked as well....

      Hugs from Canada

    • Bella Nina profile imageAUTHOR

      Bella Nina 

      6 years ago from USA

      Well Sparrow, it is a small, small world. And the joys an sorrows of love touch us all, do they not? I think we humans are so much more alike than we acknowledge to ourselves, and in each of our personal stories, we can connect to others. Thank you for your comment, and for following me. I am now following you as well.

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      6 years ago

      Oh my gosh I have a feeling you are getting ready to tell my life...

    • Bella Nina profile imageAUTHOR

      Bella Nina 

      7 years ago from USA

      Thank you Scott. I'm glad that I'm here.

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      Scott Biddulph 

      7 years ago from Gainesville Georgia

      Hooked me as well, I enjoyed the read, welcome to the Hubpages, Scott

    • Bella Nina profile imageAUTHOR

      Bella Nina 

      7 years ago from USA

      Thank you Pollyannalana. I appreciate that. There is more to come. I have decided to pour my heart out, but not empty it out. It is incredibly liberating. Thank you for the welcome!!

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      7 years ago from US

      True or false I have got to say you have me hooked! Voted up. Welcome to hubs!



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