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Bond of blood

Updated on March 11, 2016

Hard to say Goodbye

I DON'T THINK YOU UNDERSTAND THE FEELING THAT I GET INSIDE
WHEN I SEE YOUR NAME ON THE COLUMN THAT CALLS YOU MY MOM
IT'S LIKE YOU'RE STILL BY MY SIDE
I LAUGH AND THEN I SMILE
IT TAKES A WHILE BEFORE I SINK
IT'S LIKE A PART OF YOU IS STILL NEAR ME
SUNK IN TO THE INK
I WRITE YOU ON A SHEET LET MY PEN FLOAT LIKE A RIVER
I CATCH MY THOUGHTS IN PASSING LET IT DRY OF ON THE PAPER
MEMORIES ARE FADING SINCE WE NO LONGER COMMUNICATE
THE SILENT TREATMENTS TORTUROUS
WAS I THE ONE WHO WAS RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS
SORRY FOR THE TIMES I CRIED FOR ALL THE TOYS
YOU LEFT THE HOUSE WITHOUT A WORD
I KNOW THE SHIT HAS KEPT YOU UP
I WOKE UP NEXT TO DAD WHO SAID EVERYTHING WOULD BE FINE
AND THAT'S ABOUT THE TIME I TOOK TO HEAR ADNAN ON THE CALL WHO SAID I WAS A SLIME
MY OWN ELDER BROTHER TURNED AGAINST ME
I HAD MILLION QUESTIONS PINCHING INSIDE OF MY SKULL
INSIDE INSTINCTS INSISTED I INVITE YOU FOR A TALK
REMEMBER RAISING QUESTIONS AS TO WHY DONT SPEND TIME WITH US
YOUR REPLY INCLUDED SAYING IT'LL BE OVER SOON.
AND THAT’S WHEN WE TOOK OUR SEPARATE PATHS,
NO CLUE IF WE WOULD EVER SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN
THE PAIN OF LOSING A MOM,
YES ITS WORSE OF THEM ALL, I HAVE LEARNT.
I ACKNOWLEDGE, I GOT SOME KNOWLEGE ON MY WAY
AND IF IT TAUGHT ME SOMETHING IT'S THAT ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN
ANY DAY CAN BE THE FIRST
ANY DAY CAN BE THE LAST
ANY DAY CAN BE THE BEST
AND ANY DAY CAN MAKE YOU HURT
I'VE BEEN PUTTING IN THE HOURS BEST BE WITH IT IN THE END
BECAUSE I'M HANGING LOOSE BUT SITTING TIGHT
REALIZE THAT I DID IT MIGHT HAVE SPENT A FEW YEARS IN SILENCE
JUST TO MAKE IT OVER NIGHT
IT'S BEEN 13 YEARS NOW AND THINGS ARE LOOKING BETTER SINCE
I HAD THE TIME I TOOK THE TIME TO WRITE A LETTER AND EVEN THO I CAN'T STICK A POSTAGE STAMP AND SEND IT

I HOPE I WRITE THIS HIGH ENOUGH FOR THE WORLD TO HEAR IT
YOU SEE WHAT I'VE BEEN TRYIN' TO DO IS TO MAKE YOU PROUD
JUST SORRY YOU COULDN’T WITNESS MY FIRST GOLDEN CERTIFICATE OR THE DAY I STOOD UP TO MY BULLIES
I'M STICKING BY THE WORDS KNOWING DAMN WELL WHAT I PROMISED YOU
YOU TOLD ME I COULD AND I TOLD YOU I WOULD MAKE IT THROUGH
YOU SAID PUT IN THE HOURS AND THE EFFORT AIN'T FOR NOTHING AND NOW ALL OF A SUDDEN I'M IN A WAR WITH THIS CRUEL WORLD!
NO DOUBT I'M FEELING NERVOUS LIKE I'M STARING MYSELF,
IN THE CORNER ALL ALONE

I GOT NIKES ON MY FEET BUT IT'S TOO LATE FOR ME TO RUN
AND IF I WERE TO RUN MY FATE IS ALL THAT I AM RUNNING FROM
MY FIGHT IS WITH MYSELF I SWING FOR CHANCES AS THEY COME

Hard to say goodbye to all the reminiscence

I need to get rid of the nonsense

i focus on my Conscience.

to let the nostalgia fade away..

to let the nostalgia fade away..

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      Sheeba Fatima 

      2 years ago

      Loved it =')

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      Nishad Encore 

      2 years ago

      Woooow nice :')

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      Maria 

      2 years ago

      i love it! :) Impeccable writing :')

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