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CAN I PLEASE HAVE MY HEART BACK? - I Need To Breathe

Updated on November 11, 2011

WHERE IS IT?

WHERE IS MY HEART?!!! TELL ME!!! Where the hell is it?!!! You see it was with me this morning and then I watched my son leave my car and walk to the front of his school on his own. I asked him if he will be ok? Since I had walked him every day now for years and he said "Don't worry mom, I'm fine." He smiled at me as he walked away and I welled up a bit because I know this is all part of it. He is growing up. He is in the last year at his elementary school and he is very popular with his friends and I am very proud of him. "I love you" I thought and then I drove away. I felt my heart ache like when I was a child.

Well my heart came back in full "flutter mode" of course but I never know when it will leave me again!! Sometimes it feels like it no longer belongs to me and wants to escape! I find myself feeling amazing things and then all of a sudden it disappears again! HEY you, this is not funny anymore!!!!!....GIVE IT BACK NOW!!!! So love seems to take it on a permanent vacation where it controls everything little thing I do. I feel like I am a "love program" and my heart is calling the shots. Please Master Heart, can you give a girl a break?!!! Even with love there is pain especially when lovers are separated for minutes, hours, days and God forbid WEEKS!!!!......So please kind sir, give it back just for a little while so I can catch my breathe before it dances FOREVER!!!!

OK HEART, let's have a talk shall we? So you seem to think that you are your own person now and I'm just part of the "big picture" when it comes to LOVE? Well?!!!!! Hmmmmm?!!!!! OH....NOW YOU ARE QUIET! I feel the flutter and it hurts sometimes...YES....LOVE hurts but it is also very LOVELY.

Would you like to dance?!!

Lately my heart has been on it's own and frankly I don't give a damn! I mean if it wants to flutter and dance every single hour of the day...so be it! I guess I just need to pick a new theme song for this new LOVE MUSICAL! Maybe I will pick "Lets Dance" by David Bowie!!! Seems to fit the mood tonight! VOILA! DONE! THERE!!!!! Are you happy NOW?!!!!

LET'S CELEBRATE LOVE

So let us talk about "the love" and how fortunate we are to be LOVED throughout our lives. In our childhood, to the teen years, to marriage and to those twilight years where we get to think about so many awesome memories......To LOVE is a gift and we must embrace it nomatter what! We must share in the joy every time we feel our hearts dance!!! And even if LOVE hurts sometimes, I would never want it any other way. Cause if it HURTS in a good way of course, then we know that it is LOVE!!

AMEN!!!!!!



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    • dialogue profile image

      dialogue 

      5 years ago

      Great hub, the poem was well written.

    • GPAGE profile imageAUTHOR

      GPAGE 

      5 years ago from California

      Eiddwen! Thank you so much for stopping by and leaving your lovely comment! Best, G

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      Eiddwen 

      5 years ago from Wales

      A wonderful poem and I vote up and share as well as looking forward to so many more by you.

      Eddy.

    • GPAGE profile imageAUTHOR

      GPAGE 

      5 years ago from California

      Akarime31...So glad you liked my hub! Thank you for stopping by and leaving such a kind comment! Best, GPAGE

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      Akarime31 

      5 years ago from Las Vegas, NV

      GPAGe, I love the part where you say "Sometime it feels like it no longer belongs to me and it wants to escape!" It made me stop to appreciate that phrase before I continued to take in your awesome hub!

    • GPAGE profile imageAUTHOR

      GPAGE 

      6 years ago from California

      Cool Michael! Missed this comment I guess.....Have a nice day! G

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      Michael Ray King 

      6 years ago from Palm Coast, Florida

      Hi G! Done and done! I sent friend requests to your 2 FB profiles and even on your Myspace. Have a great day!

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      GPAGE 

      6 years ago from California

      Michael! Thank you so much for your wonderful comment! How are you? I hope you are enjoying your holiday with your loved one's. I get what you are saying....my little girl is "9" and she is just starting to really get that "I'm not a baby anymore mommy attitude!!" ha ha ...Anyway, we shall cherish these times while we still have them....Always enjoy seeing you here. I have been busy producing television so less time here, but I always think of you and other special one's on hubpages often.....They are on my facebook now...Feel free to send a request if you would like too...I have "2" profiles so send to both...one of them is more private. All the best, G

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      Michael Ray King 

      6 years ago from Palm Coast, Florida

      Hi G! I need to get out more on the commenting side of life and you are my first thought. I relate all too well. I'm watching my five-year-old daughter turn 6 or 16? at Disney last week. That heart discombobulation unsettled me. Her fear getting on the "Tower of Terror" followed by a cascade of "let's do it agains" had me going. Still does. Thank you for coming through with a great Hub that describes where my heart dances at this moment. You make commenting so enjoyable!!! :)

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      GPAGE 

      6 years ago from California

      Hey Alastar! Glad to see you here kind sir! ....Thank you for your kind words. I know..I get it....but hard to see the changes sometimes....He is a very fine young man and this mom is proud! Thanx for stopping by...Hope all is well with the peachoid! ha G

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      Alastar Packer 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      When you get your heart back after it being Under Pressure n all rest easy Ms. G. All the Young Dudes must grow up but will always hold a very special place for mom. They're really all Golden Years through the Changes.:)

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      GPAGE 

      6 years ago from California

      No worries Ausseye! All sides (silly and serious) are welcome here! I just got a bit confused by your comment? But now I get it!!! Thanks for coming back and letting me know....SO, onwards and upwards..Have been having a sort of "writer's block" lately. Trying to get inspired! Well, thank you for being here! G

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      Ausseye 

      6 years ago

      Hey G!! The poetry was the love of a mother for a child. The she/he thing was me being a bit silly, so need to hang my head in shame. Not meant to incite anger but thems my silly side which has its detractions. Hope da life here after is still a noble beast. So sorry for the angst it was but an aberration of my dark silly side.

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      GPAGE 

      6 years ago from California

      Hey Aussie! Not sure where you are coming from? But glad you are here! This is not a poem? Are you on the right hub? Anyway, this was actually written about an emotion I was feeling all in one day. About my son growing up and the love I feel for someone else in my life right now. No femme fatal here!!! I actually got this idea from a quote I heard once where a mother said that when her young son walked away he took her heart with him. Just playing with the idea that when I LOVE someone they pull my heart out of my chest!!!!! ha ha Well, I guess you picked up something else or maybe read another hub.....Have a lovely day!!!!! G

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      Ausseye 

      6 years ago

      Gee I need to have a heart-to-heart about your gender, gentle but MAN do you need to reform your Women Rights, cause it paints us males in a bad, bad black light. Your poem rang the bell but gender issues came between the lines, love the poem hate the gender crime rhyme. Love is a very beautiful experience and you tug the heartstrings so be the owner of a great message and leave the femme fatal in the ditch where it was always meant to be. Love your personal account of children’s power over us, if only they knew !!!

      May da love be with you always and your poetry continue

      Ausseye

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      GPAGE 

      6 years ago from California

      Thank you so much Pamela....SO TRUE.....LOVE for a child lasts forever.....

      Always nice to see you here..

      Best, G

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      Pamela Oglesby 

      6 years ago from Sunny Florida

      I very much enjoyed this hub. It was so cleverly written. Yes, love hurts. Love for a child lasts forever.

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      GPAGE 

      6 years ago from California

      Thanx Viryabo!!! I really appreciate it. So happy to see you here my friend. The holidays are coming!!! Can you believe it!!!? Another year already!!!....more life experiences to write about!!! Anyway, take care!......G

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      viryabo 

      6 years ago

      This is a beautiful piece G with some spice of wittiness. You write so wonderfully that i get lost and immersed in your writings, at times unaware of my surroundings.

      GodBless, my friend.

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