Complain And Make It Happen

No matter how many times I say

Think positive

Try another way

You go back to all your bad habits

You start cursing then it leads to complaining

Your voice raises and you start believing your old lies

Yes lies

It always happens to me

I can never catch a break

Just once

Everyone else can do it

But no not me

I hate it

I really hate this

This is where I would usually try to say

Stop !

Nicely but with a firm voice

I can see it will do no good

So I let you rant and rave

I think to myself

I am not part of this or ever will be part of negative thinking

It serves no purpose

Except to make everyone feel awful

So I bite my tongue

I let you continue as long as you want

I listen and let you blow off steam

Now when your done

Can I talk

Fifteen minutes of my life has gone by

My wife still goes on and on

She is not done

Why would she be ?

That would make to much sense

It has to be going on a half hour now

I hope she is exausted

I know I am just listening

I would try to list everything she said

She said way too much and talked way too fast

Well the whole point in question

Was she had to let me know she was not happy

Me being her loving husband

Had to shut up and listen

She got her point across

Very clear

I signed up for this

Not exactly

But it's o.k.

I realize that life doesn't always go my way either

When I try to blow off a little steam

She then remembers everything I ever said to her verbatim

So I know part of her brain is listening even now

I wait for silence

It is still too soon

This could be a long, long slow process

I am not going nowhere

All I have is time

This gives me a chance to tell you what this is all about

It all started when we have to meet someone for a business luncheon

We left early and got directions from the internet

We also have a g.p,s. on our phone

The directions on the internet were foolish

Then our phone wouldn't pick up

Just looking for service

So as it may

We have two options and both our not good ones

At this moment

When we get in the area

I don't dare suggest we ask someone or call the restaurant

That would be smart

People have done it for years

All of a sudden we have become dumber

I like to look at it a different way

I like to think we have become numb

Numb to all other choices or options

Well this became such a heated subject

I couldn't and wouldn't dare touch it

I can feel not just the heat

But actual flames

I don't like getting burned

So I will resume this in a few days

I am going to cool off by going out and shovel in the snow

What I do want to let you know

Is we got there on time

With three other obstacles in our way

We met two very nice and charming people

This is what really matters

To be continued.....