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Crying to God

Updated on October 3, 2012

I need you, Lord.

I do not know what to do.

I need your wisdom and compassion

For you know the trials I have been going through.

I need your strength.

I have none of my own to use.

I need your comfort.

I am so confused.

My heart desires to follow you.

This world hurts.

I am sad and weary.

Make me strong again.

The hind has no deliberation to the steps to take,

Climbing the mountains with ease.

Show me what path I need to walk.

Help me to trust your direction, please.

I know it is always darkest before the dawn.

Oh my dear God, it has been dark in my life for so long.

Am I doing any good in this relationship?

Will he ever see you for who you really are?

Give me the words to say.

Show me the moves to make.

Let me display unconditional love here

Like you have shown me year after year.

You are my joy, my life.

But, here in this place, I feel like I am going insane.

I keep believing he will emerge from this storm

Tired of living the lie.

I am trusting you, Jesus,

With my husband, to save his dear life.

Open his heart.

Bring him to his knees.

I am begging you.

I feel like my life has been taken over by his disease.

I am powerless and weak.

I cannot convince him.

Move on him.

Replace his consuming, destroying desire

With a passion for you, his soul snatched from damnation's fire.

For so long, I have struggled with

What to do.

I give him to you.

Heal him. Cure him.

Or kill him.

Lord, do what you will

In what seems like the final hour.

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    • lcbenefield profile imageAUTHOR

      lcbenefield 

      5 years ago from Georgia

      Shofarcall, thanks for reading and the kind words. Addictions do destroy but God is greater. Thanks for the follow. Returning the favor.

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      shofarcall 

      5 years ago

      Icb,

      Some time has gone by since you wrote this and pray that the Lord has seen fit to deal with your husband in a way that only He will be able to.

      Such pain. Addictions destroy all in their way. My heart goes out to you and what you have been dealing with. I pray for Gods Blessing on all your lives. Wonderful prayer to our Lord from your heart. voted up and awesome. also following

    • lcbenefield profile imageAUTHOR

      lcbenefield 

      6 years ago from Georgia

      thelyricwriter, thanks so much for reading and commenting. In the mists of turmoil, we can still praise and serve our Lord. It is the trials that shape us to be more like Him.

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      Richard Ricky Hale 

      6 years ago from West Virginia

      You know, I have said similar prayers such as this. I thank God that even in all the turmoil, I have been blessed. Great poem. Wow, spot on.

    • lcbenefield profile imageAUTHOR

      lcbenefield 

      6 years ago from Georgia

      Thanks, jenubouka, for reading. I appreciate your comments.

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      jenubouka 

      6 years ago

      Such strong emotion and incredible power with your words, a very beautiful poetic prayer!

    • lcbenefield profile imageAUTHOR

      lcbenefield 

      6 years ago from Georgia

      Thanks, b. I appreciate your comments. I made a promise that day when we were married. I intend to honor that promise. I am not giving up. God is my strength and delight.

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      b. Malin 

      6 years ago

      What a Heartfelt Poem Icbenefield...Lots of Pain, but I think you are a Strong Soul, and you will find the answers that you seek...Hopefully as a couple, if it is meant to be...But stand strong Sister, I have Faith in you!

    • lcbenefield profile imageAUTHOR

      lcbenefield 

      6 years ago from Georgia

      Dusty, thanks for stopping by and commenting. Your visits are always appreciated and encouraging.

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      50 Caliber 

      6 years ago from Arizona

      Ice, an interesting write that gave me much thought as to what do we do for one who can save but themselves in times we see them serving only themselves. Thanks for the thoughts, dusty

    • lcbenefield profile imageAUTHOR

      lcbenefield 

      6 years ago from Georgia

      Abradford55, thanks for reading and commenting. I appreciate the encouragement.

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      Adam Bradford 

      6 years ago from Howell,MI

      thats was really intense, loved it apart from the pain and hardship that youve had to endure, stay strong though.

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