Crying to God
I need you, Lord.
I do not know what to do.
I need your wisdom and compassion
For you know the trials I have been going through.
I need your strength.
I have none of my own to use.
I need your comfort.
I am so confused.
My heart desires to follow you.
This world hurts.
I am sad and weary.
Make me strong again.
The hind has no deliberation to the steps to take,
Climbing the mountains with ease.
Show me what path I need to walk.
Help me to trust your direction, please.
I know it is always darkest before the dawn.
Oh my dear God, it has been dark in my life for so long.
Am I doing any good in this relationship?
Will he ever see you for who you really are?
Give me the words to say.
Show me the moves to make.
Let me display unconditional love here
Like you have shown me year after year.
You are my joy, my life.
But, here in this place, I feel like I am going insane.
I keep believing he will emerge from this storm
Tired of living the lie.
I am trusting you, Jesus,
With my husband, to save his dear life.
Open his heart.
Bring him to his knees.
I am begging you.
I feel like my life has been taken over by his disease.
I am powerless and weak.
I cannot convince him.
Move on him.
Replace his consuming, destroying desire
With a passion for you, his soul snatched from damnation's fire.
For so long, I have struggled with
What to do.
I give him to you.
Heal him. Cure him.
Or kill him.
Lord, do what you will
In what seems like the final hour.