DEAR GOD - A Virtual Reflection
I did not know what to write today, so I let my fingers flow. I wondered what I'm feeling deep down when I find myself worrying. Worried for people that I do not even know and also for quite a few that I do. When I was a child, I loved everything in all shapes and forms and even an old piece of green glass was like the biggest treasure. I used to write all of my feelings in poems and scribbled them down on so many pieces of paper. I used to handwrite love poems to the young boys that I loved and sent them little gifts in the mail, not just virtual ones. These memories seem so far away now since I spend most of my time writing in the virtual space. I can not even remember the last time that I received a handwritten letter.
I was wondering God, is everything going to be ok? From what I see now, it just seems to be changing quickly. The world is a different place now and my heart knows that there is less space for love if you are living in a virtual space unless ofcourse your love is there in the virtual world too. Real love. Love that penetrates you in every way. Love that brings on simple memories and early romance in your youth. I remember the excitement of spending so many hours making a collage for my boyfriend. Showing him our future and making it look beautiful. I know the feeling now really well even while I am reflecting about it all.
I still love getting flowers. It makes me feel beautiful deep inside. Are flowers going to become drawings or only images eventually? Are they going to be sealed in a glass box? What I am trying to say is although I love this virtual world and I adore so many of my friends who I have known in the past and some that I met on-line, it seems harder and harder to eventually get and see them all. Like so much time is spent relating to them in an instant way, that I have just been ok with that even though I miss many of them dearly. My memories are still very strong and I cherish them. Ofcourse I am always so thankful to reach others out of state. It seems like they are right here with me. infact, I would never have been in touch if we did not connect on social sites.
I guess the main point is that there is a part of me that is quite old fashioned and I have embraced this new virtual world. I do anything I can to show the love that I feel in my heart. I hope that my children will one day feel what I felt as a young girl in love. Will everything be so instant and will they ever make a collage or write a poem on paper? will their "love of their life" ever get their attention without any sort of electronic distraction?
I do believe that true love conquers all. In everything we do no matter how you find it. If we are true then we shall all prevail. But I do hope that the world will not just become images on the web. That people will still pick up an old book or play a CD and try to make the time to really see eachother in person even if they are far away. I guess this is part of my age now as I move into midlife. I am not in the newer generation and I have children that someday will be embarking on a virtual world and real world too all at the same time.
I guess the reason I am writing this is to remind people of the simple things. To bring the memory of your childhood to light before those memories eventually disappear. To remember the deepest feelings inside your heart and never dismiss them. This is why I write here and on the web. Mostly so I can look for them one day. This is what has changed the world, but I am willing to put my love here in my words. I guess this is the best way to reach you. That means everything to me.