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Updated on August 23, 2010

Plastered with bumper stickers and slogans

I'm afraid to think of what you would have made of me.

Or what you were trying to make...

I will never know.


Grateful to be left as a simple monster now.

Shuffling and listing from old pains,

I still connect, talking peacefully without the blood.

slashed wounds.


And of you?

Just memories of memories,

something pressing on a nerve deep in my gut.

But I can't spill the fluid out.


I'm afraid of certain words

and can't be charming anymore.


I could never surrender to you

but did surrender to myself.


Out where the buses don't run,

I fell on the ice.

Sitting in the cold,

waiting for my lungs to inflate.

I felt a tide of air,

an ocean wave moving inside of my chest.

And was born anew.


I walk more slowly now.



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    • Dark Heart profile imageAUTHOR

      Dark Heart 

      8 years ago

      Thanks brandonfan.Looking forward to your new writing.

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      8 years ago from Mid West

      That was in one word...amazing! I loved it Dark Heart. To not let ourselves change. To do what we know is the right thing , yet there's Indecision... something that we all carry around in abundance!

    • Dark Heart profile imageAUTHOR

      Dark Heart 

      8 years ago

      Thanks Jalene.I'm glad you were moved by the piece.

    • Jalene Rose profile image

      Jalene Rose 

      8 years ago from ~the center~

      Very thought provoking.You paint a picture of a moment in time.I can't express very well my admiration for the above piece,so I will simply say thank-you.


      Jalene Rose

    • Dark Heart profile imageAUTHOR

      Dark Heart 

      8 years ago

      Minnetonka,thank you for your kindness.I hope you flourish in the more hopeful place you are at.

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      Linda Rogers 

      8 years ago from Minnesota

      Hi Dark Heart. I am a new follower and this poem is beautifully sad and hopeful. I like going on journey's in a poem and thank you for that. I like poets that let me work through the journey of the story line. I felt like I went from a lot of pain and struggles to a more hopeful place. A place that has me a changed person from what I have endured. UP an Awesome.

    • Dark Heart profile imageAUTHOR

      Dark Heart 

      8 years ago

      Thanks JJ.Any time you enjoy my work I feel good.

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      8 years ago

      As always my friend, your words speak volumes. I loved it!

    • Dark Heart profile imageAUTHOR

      Dark Heart 

      8 years ago

      Thanks Jess.You are so deep."Who is better than You?"

      I don't get the question.A lot of people are better

      than me in many ways.I do have my small talents though.

      Randy-Thank you so much.So you are waiting to be born anew? It may have already happened. Let me know,OK?

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      Randy Behavior 

      8 years ago from Near the Ocean

      I slipped on life, haven't gotten to the "anew" part yet. That will be lovely when it comes.


    • Jess Killmenow profile image

      Jess Killmenow 

      8 years ago from Nowheresville, Eastern United States

      There are those, aren't there,

      Who will leave a mark, unwitting

      Or willing, as it were

      For there own reasons to leave you thus

      Wounded with a memory to forever keep.

      Who is better than you?

    • Dark Heart profile imageAUTHOR

      Dark Heart 

      8 years ago

      Blaise,in the real world I can be charming if only I could remember how.LOL.

      Do you think that rooftop of yours would help?

      Corso man,any timetable for becoming fully corso?

      If you slip on ice,you do walk slower for awhile.

      Would sure love to watch it on instant replay.

      Thanks for your kind words.

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      8 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      This really is excellent. The last line is so full of energy.

    • blaise25 profile image

      Fehl Dungo 

      8 years ago from close to you...

      I'm afraid of certain words

      and can't be charming anymore

      --Striking as always. Interesting ending :)

    • Dark Heart profile imageAUTHOR

      Dark Heart 

      8 years ago

      Thanks,wise woman.Hope you're doing well.

    • Darlene Sabella profile image

      Darlene Sabella 

      8 years ago from Hello, my name is Toast and Jam, I live in the forest with my dog named Sam ...

      Bravo, excellent I so enjoyed, you are now a wise soul and leaving the games behind...who cares anymore, it was a cosmic joke. I also slipped on the ice, but who cares. Rate up my friend...


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