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Emotionally Dead

Updated on June 15, 2013
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Tijani Achamlal is an English Teacher in Nador, Morocco.He studied English Literature in Mohamed 1 Univ .

On the display, she is sweet as a cherry pie
Honest as a mirror
Innocent as a dove
Fresh as the early morning
Keen as mustard
Light as a feather
Faithful as the sun
Loyal as prarie scout
Meek as a lamb
Noiseless as the falling dew
Peaceful as a virgin lake
Underneath,
she is still tangled up in blue
drowning so far in a quicksand
no soul can pierce the depths
lend a hand to snatch
and bring back to life
Time comes and time goes
heavy,
quickly
upon her
but surely,
deep inside she knows
that time doesn't only take its tolls
but a moment of its own to pause to reap
what has been sown.


She has been sitting ages on the same spot,
where her heart left scattered into pieces.
like an ice cube,
desperately
trying ever since to pick up and put back together the broken shards
Her fingertips bled with each prickly piece she picked.
Her face lit up with a kind of radiant pain,
wrung,pale,tight like a shoe
The lump in her throat felt
as big as a watch
She couldn't forget
the day when she gave him
her heart which was as fragile as if made of glass
He held it for a moment,
turned it on its sides
then dropped it
to the floor
deliberetly
to tinkle
it didn't break
and it didn't sound good
he pursed his lips in contempt
and took a hammer to it, then an anvil, then gave a powerful strike
before a final kick to the largest remaining piece towards the concret wall

She cried many tears till her eyes dried
begging on both knees for the approval,
pleading in vain,
wishing if only her heart remained in its vault.
she lived,
escaped the heart monitor flat line
by a miracle.
Many draw strength and inspiration from her
not knowing that she is crippled inside,
emotionally dead!!

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      dreamseeker2,

      Many women are under the delusion that if,they do what a man wants, he will love them more or respect her more. WHEN the TRUTH of the matter is the EXACT opposite, he will respect them less. A woman with strong boundaries is loved and respected far more than a woman without. I have seen this fact played out time and time again. There is no doubt about this fact to me.

      Have wonderful day there!

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      dreamseeker2 4 years ago

      Very powerful piece of poetry! Sad, but quite true of so many who put their hope in one who will never appreciate or love them just for who they are. Why do we allow those who hurt us, to manipulate and abuse us in an attempt to make themselves think they are what life is all about, depriving others of their own, bringing them to a hollow empty shell of emotion? Voted it up and awesome, for the thoughts and words chosen to depict it all.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      CMCastro,

      Thanks for the insight.Yes,we were there too.Personally ,Inside...I feel alone and been left out, full of sadness and loneliness, a feeling that slowly consuming my life and killing my soul...The only way to cover the pain and helps to survive is for me to keep on smiling, find ways to cheer up myself and loves to laugh out loud...this makes me who I am...Restricting me from doing this feels like living in the dessert all alone and killing me quickly.this is not an act but a magic trick to deceive and relieve my pain .

      much hugs and love,

      James

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Valleypoet ,

      You could be smiling on the outside and dying inside but no one will ever know...Thanks!

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      wayne,

      Thanks so much for your wonderful insight.Much appreciated.Have a wonderful weekend!

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      Christina M. Castro 4 years ago from Baltimore,MD USA

      James-wolve, this portrait of words just really rips at the seams, you describe beautiful on the outside yet confusion on the inside. A face may appear with no lines and unbroken, yet she has a faultline in her heart reaching within her soul. Perhaps anyone of us had felt like this at any time. Your poetry is excellent. Thank you for sharing.

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      For my part, I prefer my heart to be broken.It is so lovely, dawn-kaleidoscopic within the crack than to take a knife and stab a woman s heart and tear it into halves.Not all people will take it as a beautiful if their heart get torn into pieces.Maybe I am born with the ability to see and taste beauty in everything bad or good!Weird ,isnt it ?

      James

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      Valleypoet 4 years ago

      On the outside everything appears normal, but inside she is torn...it is something we all do, to a certain extent, at some point in our lives...you have created a vivid impression of the broken heart here James, well written:-))

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      dghbrh,

      Thanks for taking time out and comment.I am still there ,but almost to be set free,just around I can feel the cracks of the dawn and the first song of birds!

      James

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      blondey,

      Thanks for your insight.We can smile and pretend to everyone that we're happy... but deep inside is a strong feeling of sadness living within.

      James

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      Wayne Barrett 4 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Wow, what an artistry of words. Magnificent poem my friend!

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      Daniel James Hinton 4 years ago from Orlando, Florida

      Never been the guy to go around breaking hearts. This type of thing might actually be why.. Very nice

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      deergha 4 years ago from ...... a place beyond now and beyond here !!!

      Very captivating .....its tragic but many a time reality....i have been there and thanks for sharing this....share and votes ++++++++++++++=

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      Rosemary Amrhein 4 years ago from Boston, MA

      Amazingly moving,

      Extremely well written and descriptive with words divinely entwined showing vivid pictures of the scenes of who she looked to be and what happened to her heart.

      Pinning...

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      Martin Kloess 4 years ago from San Francisco

      Excellent portrayal. Since 1999 to 3010 i officiated at 24 funerals. There is an interesting side effect. What does this have to do with your poem...

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      Cleaner3,

      Thanks so much for taking time out to read this scribble lol as I said before I like to leave everything open and unbridged.We should respect the mental capacity of the readers.It is humiliating to set an introduction,explaining the poem.It is exactly what pushes James Henry to criticize the way Hawthorn treat the readers in Scarlet Letter ;he explains everything in the introduction:Human nature,motives,..like readers are stupid ,flat and unable to see beyond their noses.

      Moreover,I think most readers make three false assumptions when addressing an unfamiliar poem. The first is assuming that they should understand what they encounter on the first reading, and if they don t, that something is wrong with them or with the poem. The second is assuming that the poem is a kind of code, that each detail corresponds to one, and only one, thing, and unless they can crack this code, they’ve missed the point. The third is assuming that the poem can mean anything readers want it to mean.

      William Carlos Williams wrote a verse addressed to his wife in the poem "January Morning,":

      All this—

      was for you, old woman.

      I wanted to write a poem

      that you would understand.

      For what good is it to me

      if you can’t understand it?

      But you got to try hard—

      Williams admits in these lines that poetry is often difficult. He also suggests that a poet depends on the effort of a reader; somehow, a reader must "complete" what the poet has begun.

      This act of completion begins when you enter the imaginative play of a poem, bringing to it your experience and point of view.

      This is how hubbers should treat readers.They dont have to explain things.Everything should be left open for interpretation.

      James

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      Tijani Achamlal 4 years ago from Morocco

      suzettenaple,

      Thanks so much for your insight.I really appreciate that.

      Have a wonderful day there!

      many blessings to you!

      James

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      Faith Reaper 4 years ago from southern USA

      Interesting and sad, and really sad when one knows of one such as this who is in deep pain and suffering, but still manages to inspire and help others, when they do not see her pain.

      You seem to have written here with great insight into someone very close to you, and it must pain you to see someone suffering such as this no doubt. I do know of one such person too. Breaks my heart.

      On lunch break at the moment, so I thought I would comment here.

      Hugs and love, Faith Reaper

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      cleaner3 4 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      great poem ...james .. vivid imagery and use of letting the reader go where they want.!

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      Suzette Walker 4 years ago from Taos, NM

      How sad but you write lovely images in this poem. Beautiy written but oh so sad.