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Depression’s Dance

Updated on May 25, 2011
Thank you Chris Blakeley on Flickr for the use of your photo. (http://www.flickr.com/photos/csb13/)
Thank you Chris Blakeley on Flickr for the use of your photo. (http://www.flickr.com/photos/csb13/)


you wait

with the patience of the dead

in between smiles to slip

hollow eyes behind a window pane

blankly staring you anticipate

pain’s window

the briefest ache of heart

or ebb of hopefulness

even in a mind’s brief stillness

you find your cues, your keys

a soul once locked securely in happiness

falls open, becomes a ballroom

to your dark dance

painting despair as you glide

splattering your poison as you twirl

droning, groaning to depression’s waltz

like some twisted ballerina

you sink slowly to the floor

yards of acrid crinoline surround you

spun of tears

your skirts spread and grow

until a veil of black covers all

and I am left rocking solo

to the beat of silence

imprisoned behind apathetic glazing

slumped, hollow eyes staring through

the pain


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    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      My alter ego would agree the cure does lie within, but me, I find a glass of wine under a full moon naked in the rain helps too.

    • Ryan McGill profile image

      Ryan McGill 

      6 years ago from Omaha, NE

      A grand visualization of the hurt too many of us have experienced. The cure lies within; the release in subliminity. Cheers.

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      6 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thank you Johnny.

    • Jspot profile image

      lost love 

      6 years ago from Flames of water and love

      I love the way the sorrow within becomes the very beauty in your soul. Lovely thoughts becoming feelings of sadness and love. Up and very beautiful.

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      7 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks for coming by for a read Scarface. Nice to meet you.

      Thank you Bella, but I'm sorry to hear that. I don't wish this dance on anyone.

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      Erica Sanchez 

      7 years ago from California

      Randy,

      You said this beautifully with the words you chose. I danced this dance yesterday. Thanks for sharing!

      bella

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      Scarface1300 

      7 years ago

      Wonderfully written piece about a not very wonderfull problem rated Up and awesome.Ill be Back

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      7 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks Claudia. I'm glad you appreciate this one.

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      Claudia Schönfeld 

      7 years ago

      you capture the so difficult to grasp nature of depression really well randy...a soul..falls open, becomes a ballroom to the dark dance..the twisted ballerina...great line

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      7 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks for popping by Majadex.

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      Maja Dezulovic 

      7 years ago from Johannesburg, South Africa

      Beautifully written poem about a terrible state to be in.

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      7 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Yes from experience, but I always rebound. I'm stubborn that way :) Thank you for the compliment ahorseback.

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      ahorseback 

      7 years ago

      I have often wondered how best to describe depression, I believe from experience .....you did it! Awesome.

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      7 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Ahhh lucky you, them come looking for me sometimes. Thanks Cardisa.

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      Carolee Samuda 

      7 years ago from Jamaica

      I have been there, I certainly remember the dark times, but never to return to them.

      Well said!

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      7 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Yeah I'm definitely a lexiphile! I'm sure depression is different for different people; this is it for me though.

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      Doug Turner Jr. 

      7 years ago

      I'm not sure if I know what depression feels like, but I'm willing to bet this sums it up in a poetic fashion. Sad but also beautifully written. You really savor the words that come out of you, and we, as the readers, definitely benefit from your love of the craft. Awesome.

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      7 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks TL for another lovely comment. It really does help me to be told what I'm doing right, as well as what is not working, when my ego is up to it of course. :)

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      Twilight Lawns 

      7 years ago from Norbury-sur-Mer, Surrey, England. U.K.

      I really am impressed at the constant (yet controlled) shifting within the poem; from the pane that lets in and pain that displays; the sudden shift, at the end from the Second Person (most probably Singular) to First Person Singular; an expression of, "You are suffering, but I also suffer" in the limelight, under the scrutiny. Obvious to the "audience" but behind the glass; the pain; the pane. Absolute isolation.

      When I am in awe, I say, "I wish I had written that". When I am arrogant, I say, "That's like something I could have written".

      I am both of those people, having read that.

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      7 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks for reading Arb. All of our perceptions of the world are in our own minds (or hearts) for good or bad. Its scary when the fear takes control though.

      Tell me what makes it good so I can do more of that.

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      arb 

      7 years ago from oregon

      " what other dungeon is so dark as ones own heart, what jailer so inexorable as ones own self?" This is a wonderful piece of writing Randy. probably much better than you think!

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      7 years ago from Near the Ocean

      No, but knowing you're not the only one who does that helps. Love and Light Ben.

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      BenWritings 

      7 years ago from Save me from, Tennessee

      and I am left rocking solo

      to the beat of silence

      imprisoned behind apathetic glazing

      slumped, hollow eyes staring through

      the pain

      that's really awesomely worded...

      rocking solo to the beat of silence is NOT FUN!! :[

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      8 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Never give into the dark dancer CC. Love and light to you always.

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      ralwus 

      8 years ago

      darkly blaring staringly wonderful stuff. i can see the twisted poisoned ballerina like the siren's call, beckoning me. but i am a good boy now, and reject her, begrudgingly.

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      8 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Always a pleasure :)

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      Jeffrey Penn May 

      8 years ago from St. Louis

      Clicked back to you randomly and found this nice surprise, thanks.

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      8 years ago from Near the Ocean

      And at the root of anger, fear. Thanks for the comment.

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      Seldon55 

      8 years ago from Somewhere in Florida

      Anger turned outward is aggression, Anger turned inward is depression. Of course to have either, you have to have passion...And you do.....Eddie

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      8 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Hi MFB :) Yes love and lust are the ultimate distractions on even the worst day. But even the healthiest of us can't keep it up 24/7.

      Nice to meet you Annie! I just discovered your work minutes ago. I like your sarcastic wit.

      Hey Charlie! I'm glad you are feeling better. I had no doubts myself... tough old bird that you are. :)

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      ralwus 

      8 years ago

      'In between smiles', yep I was there for a day or two, but I won't do the dance of depression. I need to visit you more often, you are so good at your craft. kudos Randy, a nice peek at your heart.

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      Annie4 

      8 years ago

      Beautiful! My favorite line - "A soul once locked securely in happiness falls open, becomes a ballroom to your dark dance." Man, is that wonderful. Great work.

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      MFB III 

      8 years ago from United States

      It seems when we do are not thrusting with love and lust, we simply parry with depression. A sort of sitting on the fencing, and gazing at all th others engaged. I loved this and have been sorely absent from your randy behavior for a while, but I can still delight in it's tang.~~~MFB III

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      8 years ago from Near the Ocean

      I guess that's exactly what my poetry is Philip, a peek into my insides. Thanks for the comment.

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      philip carey 61 

      8 years ago

      The place where these thoughts are coming from within you is what I want to know more of. What would a person look like from the inside of their thoughts, so to speak? Beautiful writing.

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      8 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Hi Justine. I'm so glad you "loved" it. Its interesting to me the different lines that different people highlighted. Thanks for commenting. :)

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      Justine76 

      8 years ago

      heh....if someone didnt “get” this, they most likely arent even here, to read. I loved this...the patience of the dead....perfect. :)

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      8 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Morning AIDY. I'm honored you would take such time with your response. I doubt my interpretation of depression will ring true with all who read it. I'd love to think there are those reader's who have no idea at all. But for some, it will strike a chord. And they also work to keep the dancer at bay.

      Always love your comments Sandy, thank you.

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      Am I dead, yet? 

      8 years ago

      I read your work last night and I had to think deeply about my response. It would seem that your words captured that deep solace--that intimacy that depression and its sufferer experiences. It is indeed a dance--a dance without a lead. You poem mentioned those times where there are those sheltered happiness's that seem to fade in that despair. Like a trance.

      Beautiful Randy. I never would have imagined depression in a dance--an aura of intimacy that only the individual and their thoughts experiences.

      -hugs- for my dearest Randy.

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      8 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Greetings Trooper. Thanks for the lovely comment. Yes, we do it to ourselves, and I think its up to us to get ourselves out as well.

      Morning Micky Dee. I'm glad you liked this one. Thanks for commenting.

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      Micky Dee 

      8 years ago

      Very nice Randy- "a soul once locked securely in happiness

      falls open, becomes a ballroom to your dark dance". Very nice- thanks.

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      trooper22 

      8 years ago from Chicago

      "until a veil of black covers all

      and I am left rocking solo

      to the beat of silence"

      Heart rending and perfect within the imagery of pain. Something we do to ourselves and would not wish on our worst enemies. Another outstanding work!

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      8 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Hi Dohn! Thanks for "feeling" it. Sometimes I can be dark, not always miss susie sunshine. I can slop black slime with the best of em... lol.

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      dohn121 

      8 years ago from Hudson Valley, New York

      I really like the rhythm of this poem, Randy. The personification of depression is palpable here. Great imagery all around and dark. Oh is it dark!

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      Jess Killmenow 

      8 years ago from Nowheresville, Eastern United States

      It's great to have excellent help, no question :)

    • Randy Behavior profile imageAUTHOR

      Randy Behavior 

      8 years ago from Near the Ocean

      Thanks Jess, you are quick on the draw. I had help with the pic. I know this guy that knows his way around flickr.

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      Jess Killmenow 

      8 years ago from Nowheresville, Eastern United States

      Without an opponent, every game is boring. Nice work, Randy. Nice choice of picture, too. :)

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