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Don't Forget About Today

Updated on July 20, 2013

I regret a lot of yesterdays

And what a heavy weight to bear

I fret often about tomorrows

For today, I’m not fair.

I cannot change the things I’ve done

Or even things I’ve said

But I can’t seem to let them go

When they’re running through my head.

I try to never speak a mean word

Belittle or demean

In everything I say or do

I want my conscience clean.

Of course, I’m not perfect

And there are times that I will fail

Perfection is impossible

I’ve tried, to no avail

All too often it’s not what I say

It’s what I’m leaving out

When ugly words are spoken to me

I choose the quiet route.

Sticks and stones can damage

But words are worse by far

Sticks and stones might break my bones

But words, my heart, will scar

Spending time in yesterdays

Often, makes me regret

Things I could’ve done better

And things I haven’t done yet.

Oh, who I could’ve been

The places I could’ve gone

My tears come flooding each night at dusk

And my sighs know every dawn.

When I’m not living in yesterday

I’m playing out my morrow

The days gone by and the ones to come

I’ve forfeited to sorrow

For where I’ve fallen short

And made all my mistakes

I worry about what’s yet to come

And oh, how my heart aches

I must make up for tomorrow

What I didn’t do today

I’m wasting time in all the wrong places

And wishing my life away.

I can do nothing about tomorrow

Until today is through

I can’t predict the future

And yesterday, I can’t redo

I cannot relive my life

I’m living my one chance

Today, I will learn to laugh and love

And find the time to dance.

I’ll take with me only memories

That are worth keeping in my heart

I’ll stop worrying about tomorrow

For today, my life will start.

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      Martin Kloess 3 years ago from San Francisco

      Te individual who wrote this masterpiece is ready to roll.

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      hey girlie, still reading, but you got spinach ;) I'll be back to comment for real in a minute!

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Mhatter99,

      She definitely is! Thank you Martin, I'm honored by your visit.

      Cat

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      That's great, Cat! A positive message that many can relate to. There's not a worse feeling than regretting words spoken or not spoken after an argument, but everyone is human and part of loving others and ourselves is forgiveness both to them and ourselves. Unfortunately, that's a lesson often learned the hard way.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Shan, sweetie! You snook right in there :D ... I had an awesome childhood, but the big people forgot to teach me how to demand and earn respect. I used to be that person who hit below the belt when I was angry, but I've changed my ways... a long time ago, when I realized the power behind words. I'm just at a point in my life where I'm evaluating and reevaluating everything. I'm going to try to let the days behind me go and just learn to appreciate today a little more... and stop worry about tomorrow.

      I appreciate your visit shan; I had to deliver a charter bus tonight and we had damaging winds, rain and lightning on the way home... it felt like the Wizard of Oz and I thought I was going to die! I'm so happy to be home, I kissed the ground when I got out of my car! lol

      By the way... when I was writing this, my computer tried to say 'conscious' I fixed it to 'conscience' but apparently, it didn't stick... I hope that's the only spinach you saw? lol

      I hope your last few days have been good to you!

      Love your sissy from other parents :D

      Cat

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Actually, you wrote quite and I think you mean quiet. That's what I saw. ;)

      My days are all kind of running together. I wouldn't say they've been exactly good to me, but hey, they could be a lot worse, right? I just tell myself this is a temporary predicament. haha.

      So glad you didn't go to Oz! I'd miss my Cat too much. :)

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Ha ha... I looked at that word about 3 times, because it didn't seem right... duh! Quite and quiet are usually easy breezy, lemon squeezy for me... guess it's just not a hub of mine if I don't find somewhere to squeeze spinach into it... lol! Now I think I'll have to delete both of these comments so people don't realize how dumb I am... lol!

      I just 'overrread' that you can't catch a break... or something to that affect. I wish things would start brightening up for you... and that's not to say that you complain, because you never do... but you deserve the sunshine!

      Oh, I'm so serious... I just kept saying 'I'm scared... I'm scared... I'm scared' for about 10 miles... lol. The rain was coming down in sheets and I couldn't see out of my windshield, the sky was lighting up with lightening and trees were actually breaking and falling into the road as I drove! I love Oz... but I didn't want to go tonight... lol

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Reminds me of driving to IL one time. I was about an hour or so from home when it started raining hard like that. Couldn't see in front of me and the wind was blowing. I pulled off on a ramp, but then decided if I couldn't see, someone else might not see me and hit me.. So I made my way off the ramp to the road it went to. There was a restaurant there and we ended up eating dinner. Thought for sure a tornado might blow through as we ate!

      You give me too much credit! I try not to complain, but sometimes I think I do. Just explaining what is going on to someone else can feel like complaining sometimes, but sometimes it isn't about wanting to complain but about wanting to express frustration with the situation and then move on if possible. And when I am feeling like crying or whatever, there is usually no one else available to let me talk just for the sake of talking, and when there is someone, I don't usually talk anyway about whatever was bothering me. hahahaha Either way, I feel better.

      Now that your hub comments are going astray, thanks to me. . . .:p Have a good night, my dear. I hope things get less crazy for you. Sounds like you're the one that needs a break. :)

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      P.S. - you're not dumb! I've made some pretty hilarious spelling errors before. Laugh at yourself and grin big. :D

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      shan,

      Sorry... I'm moving slow tonight... I'm flopping in bed after this! That's some pretty scary stuff, no doubt. The older I get... the more frantic I become too. I kept thinking 'should I find a building somewhere and get off the road'. I kept getting those national weather service announcements and they continued to talk about the storm that was 'still coming'. I was getting closer to home and I just wanted to get there!

      No... I really don't think you complain, but I understand what you're saying that sometimes just talking about what's going on in your life sounds like you are. That's just an indication that you're really going though some not so pretty stuff, when just talking about it sounds negative... lol. You darn near have a disclaimer... even after you 'talk about' what's going on, you'll finish with ... not that I'm complaining! lol... or 'Things could be worse'... or 'things will get better'...lol. I definitely admire your positive attitude :D

      You can talk about anything you want, anytime... promise! I'm just whooped, that's all... I guess I'll never catch up on those darn emails and HP notifications... lol.

      Thanks for telling me I'm not dumb... that's what friends are for :D

      Night Shan!!!

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      Lurana Brown 3 years ago from Chicagoland, Illinois

      Wisdom learned the hard way from a humble heart...the ending note is just wonderful! I need this message myself. Thank you for sharing this!

      I hope you have a great weekend, Cat. :-) Lurana

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      Faith Reaper 3 years ago from southern USA

      Aw, Dearest Cat,

      This is a beautifully reflective piece here straight from your heart. Yes, there is not one perfect, not one! We all no doubt wish we could go back and undue our words.

      This is how I am sure we all learn and then once learned able to move ahead just as you have written here.

      I am glad I read this piece this morning.

      I hope you have a very lovely weekend. Our granddaughters are still up until Sunday, so we are very busy as one can imagine, but I will catch up soon on all of the wonderful writings, but I did want to read your genuine and refreshingly honest hub here!

      Voted up ++++ and sharing

      Hugs and much love, Faith Reaper

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      Tijani Achamlal 3 years ago from Morocco

      Cutest Cat,

      So touching capturing inner thoughts of an emotion experienced..it reminds me of myself lol It says everything I feel.You are not dumb and how can anyone dare to speak ugly words to you? If they do means only one thing:You are better than them. People can be cruel and jealous, and sometimes they will be and never sleep a wink till they find you broken and in a state they think you will never get back on your feet.Only YOU can allow them to continuously hurt you.Value yourself (I doubt that you didnt ,,I know you..You are strong..I am just saying in case :) )enough to choose to spend time with people who treat you the way you treat them. Know your worth.Know when you have had enough and move on from the people who keep chipping away at your happiness.If this is just one of those moments, just take a deep breath and say:It s a bad moment:) and move on. I like the twist at the end.It s positive thinking..That s what I am talking about lol

      Tons of hugs and much love to you!Have a beautiful weekend!

      James

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      ocfireflies 3 years ago from North Carolina

      Dear Cat,

      I think you are a kind of wizard of oz. You are smart, clever, funny and beautiful. Your words did not fall on deaf ears. Thank you for writing such an inspirational piece. A definite VOTE UP AND SHARE! Others need to benefit from your wise words as well.

      Best Always,

      Kim

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      Sparklea 3 years ago from Upstate New York

      Voted up, useful, awesome and beautiful! LOVED the song "What a wonderful world" - one of my very favorites! The accompanying pictures are phenomenal. What you wrote relates to so many, including me! It's so easy to worry about the future and regret yesterday. Guilt is a monster that loves to prey on those who make mistakes.

      You said it all. No one is perfect, and sometimes I think we strive so hard. Personally I have found the harder I try, the more I flub up!

      Your ending, "Today my life will start" is so true! The Bible says not to worry. It's so important to train our minds to focus on the moment. Very hard to do, in my case! It takes practice.

      Giving God the blank page of today and asking Him to guide me intuitively moment by moment has been a huge help.

      Please remember God's grace, love and mercy are everlasting. I have to remind myself of that constantly.

      THANK YOU for sharing this beautiful hub which I know will be of great encouragement to others. Blessings, Sparklea :)

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      cleaner3 3 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      Hello Kitty Cat... I love your poem , Your rhymes fall in line with my heart. your expressions lead my soul . Your eyes sparkle from the page and I can see you smiling.. Now next time you have a great poem I will be one of the comments that you see. .. Following happily,

      Michael

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      Bill Holland 3 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Cat, this sounds like me seven years ago.

      Sending you hugs from 3000 miles away. You need them, I need them, we all need them. :)

      bill

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      W1totalk 3 years ago

      Regret and wishing you had done different is something I wish I could do differently. I get this writing and appreciate your words about moving forward in it all. Thank you Cantuhearmescream.

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      ahorseback 3 years ago

      Cat darling , there is not a word I can say that these haven't already said , except , Be you Cat , I could be blind and still see that you have one of the biggest hearts around ! In fact ....if I were a hundred years younger ---ohhhh watch out girl ! Your friends here are soo lucky to have you ! No sadness No regrets !......Hugggies!

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 years ago from TEXAS

      As I read, I picked up on this line: " . . .I can do nothing about tomorrow - Until today is through . ." there among the regretting lines at the first. When I read that one, I was thinking that when today is through it never becomes tomorrow, but only the next today! So if one is to live at all, it must be in the today at hand. There is no other 'time' - before or after. Before are finished todays and after will be a progression of more todays just like the one at hand - to be invested well or frittered in regret for befores and dread for afters.

      Of course you'd resolved this by the time the poem ended. Very well told, Cat. Gets my votes!

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      rose-the planner 3 years ago from Toronto, Ontario-Canada

      Hello Cat! This was a beautiful poem! It was truly heartfelt. We all say and do things in the past that we regret. However, it is so important to live in the here and now and let go of negativity from the past or we cannot move forward. We all need to surround ourselves with positive energy. Thank you for sharing your lovely words. (Voted Up) -Rose

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      vandynegl 3 years ago from Ohio Valley

      Wonderful and so true! I often get stuck more in the future than in the past, but either way, it is not living for TODAY. Like you said, we are not being "fair" to today......that is what we KNOW we have for sure! Tomorrow may not come.

      I got a quote for Christmas that says, "I am not afraid of tomorrow, for I have seen yesterday, and love today." Not sure who said it!

      Thanks for writing (again!). I need to get on my hubs here!

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Lurana,

      Thanks Tender Heart (like the Care Bear, only cuter :D ) … There’s things I’ve said and done that I’d like to take back, but there’s just as many things that I wish I’d said or done that I never had to courage for either. I just don’t want to give up my life to days gone by anymore… I need to appreciate the day I’m given while it’s here. Thank you! Is the weekend over yet? Lol…. It’s been a long and crazy one! Hope the kids are keeping you happy but not wearing you out :D

      Thanks for stopping by darling,

      Cat

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      Kathryn 3 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      I love it! The poem is beautiful, and I really feel it. I have been through those kinds of feelings, and I came to the same conclusion you did- to enjoy life now, rather than worrying about the past or the future. I also like this song :)

      Thanks for sharing this with us! Have a great weekend, and stay cool!

      ~ Kathryn

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      drbj and sherry 3 years ago from south Florida

      Lovely poetry, Cat, that reinforces that wise saying: 'Yesterday is history. The future is unknown. Today is a gift - that's why we call it the present!'

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Oh, Sweetest Faith Reaper, you have no idea how happy I am to see you here! You are the inspiration behind this hub… yes, you! You told me the other night to ‘Take the time to smell the roses in this lifetime’ and I spent that night and the next day really thinking about that. I was actually going to pay tribute to you in this hub, but I thought my tone might have some darkness or negativity and I didn’t want to attach your name to something would’ve been an injustice to your bright and positive personality, but this is definitely because of you.

      I will say, I have grown a lot in my adult life and I made a conscious choice to no longer say things that will damage anyone’s heart or mind. I wasn’t always that way as I have been a witness to some ugly relationships in my life and it became a defense mechanism of mine to ‘get someone right back’. I will absorb the blows now, but I will not return one. I’m proud of myself for that and this is one of the biggest lessons I’m teaching my children ‘how to treat people’.

      I’m so happy your granddaughters are up for the weekend! You just enjoy your time with them; I can only imagine they think the world of their grandmother (it’s so hard to call you a grandmother…lol, but you’re a beautiful one, nonetheless :D) None of us hubbers are going anywhere and those people offline deserve your attention too :D … I had my ex-in-laws, traveling through and ran into car issues. I wound up with 4 extra house guests for the last two days. It was a blessing in disguise as we all enjoyed each other’s company and I’m happy to report, they are now home, safe and sound. I can’t believe it’s only Saturday, it already seems like I’ve had a weekend!

      Thank you so much for coming by… this one was particularly important to me and I have to say, since I’ve met you… the path I walk is more beautiful :D

      Hugs and much love to you and I hope you have a most wonderful Sunday!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Gentle Wolf,

      I think you and I were joined at the hip in another life… I understand the words you speak.

      Your comment was one of the most heartfelt, beautiful things I’ve ever heard and so much so because it all makes sense to me; it is my reality. Oh, James, I have been a witness to, victim of and I admit, even participant of this kind of thing. I grew up seeing such negative, manipulative, demeaning things that I was not given the right tools in how to demand respect. When disrespected, I thought I needed to react with equal disrespect. My 10 year relationship with my children’s father was 10 years full of abuse and disrespect. It comes to a point when you don’t even know how to be treated good without feeling awkward about it. I’ve been reprogramming myself these last five years since walking away from that relationship. I was unhappy and wanted out for a long time, but stayed together because of the kids and then I realized that the worst thing I could do was allow my kids to grow up seeing all the ‘wrong examples’ of how to treat people and how to be treated. I never, never say anything anymore that will sit on a person’s mind or come back to haunt them. Despite what negative things are said to me, I care enough about people to not want to contribute to any future negative thoughts for them later. I know the power of words and the damage they can do and I just refuse to knock a person down; I’d rather lift a person up.

      I so very appreciate your pep talk and loving support and I appreciate you! You deserve the best things in life and with a heart like yours, I’m sure you’ll have it all.

      Tons of hugs and much love to you!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Best Always,

      Dearest Kim,

      Have I told you lately that I love you? You are an inspiration to me, in all you say. I couldn’t be any more flattered by your praise, thank you, from the bottom of my heart. You are my soul sister. :D By the way, I could say the very same to you... I just did, didn't I? ;-)

      FYI… I’m 31 years old, with a Wizard of Oz collection that deserves its own museum that is my secret childhood favorite movie… see? We have a special connection :D

      Thank you so much… I know you are destined for beautiful days!

      Best to you and hugs too!

      Cat

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Cat, you just don't stay in the bag, do you? All your secrets pour forth here on HP. ;)

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Kim

      P.S. Please disregard that 'Best Always' up at the top of my comment... I don't know how it got there, lol... but as long as it is there, I mean it! :D

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Shan... I'm sorry, I didn't even know you were there. I'm so beat from what has seemed like a REALLY long weekend and I've got several email pages open trying to dwindle them down to no avail... lol.

      Yes, I'm an open book; I can't help it... and trust me, it does bite me in the bum sometimes... but I still can't control myself :D

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      No worries, Cat. I should go to bed. I'm becoming somewhat exhausted. Fell asleep today with the phone to my ear, apparently while talking to my husband. Ooops. Waking up that way was a strange sensation. hehe Asprin's kicking in now, though, so maybe after I finish a hub I can go to bed. Meant to do so much more tonight than I've actually accomplished.

      Your REALLY long weekend should end on a relaxing note, dontcha think? Take it easy tomorrow. ;)

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Sparklea,

      Thank you so much! The so sweet Faith Reaper warned me how positively fabulous your remarks are and yet I’m still blown away! Thank you for all the votes, wow! I also appreciate your saying that you and others can relate, as it’s easy to be apprehensive to put yourself out there sometimes, but with comments and support like this, it makes it all worthwhile and it’s something of a therapy for me. Oh, I love that Louis Armstrong song too; I couldn’t help but using it, it’s the kind of song that makes me want to cry and not because it’s sad, but because it’s so beautiful.

      You’re right, guilt is a monster and I think it goes hand in hand with regret. I’m trying to retrain myself to think that there is nothing worth regretting if something is learned along the way. Every day is a learning experience. It is hard to focus on the moment, but I am going to give an honest, conscious effort to really appreciate today, as tomorrow is never promised.

      I love your spirit, it’s contagious and sharing with me has helped tremendously. Thank you so much for the kind words… they all mean so much and I will carry them with me.

      Blessings to you,

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Oh Shan... you're so funny and you're such a doll! You've got a new hub coming?

      I am really going to try to take it easy tomorrow, I feel a 'crash' coming on if I don't! Ha ha...

      Let me know when you're available to talk again so I can call you... we've got a lot of catching up to do! Seriously!

      Love ya,

      Cat

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Bahahahaha! Cat call????

      Oh, wait, that sounds. . .well, catty.

      Hehe...yeah, a hub....kinda not in tune with the positive message of my last one, though. I may not post it tonight. May wait until whenever I can, if I still feel like posting it. Not sure I'll be around next week.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      cleaner3,

      Wow Michael, where've you been all my life :D Thank you! You've definitely brought a smile to my face tonight, which is no easy feat since I'm about to pass out and reading with one eye open... not a pretty sight... ha ha! Thank you so much for your super lovely words and the follow... I've got your back too!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Shan,

      Hey, that was below the leash... lol! I will call shan, don't you realize the kind of person you're dealing with? I've got problems and no professional help... lol (Do you think I'm scaring anyone away... lol)

      Hey, you don't always have to write in the same mood... I love your 'sad' hubs, I can most definitely relate to many of them and they're simply beautiful... just like you!

      By next week, I'm assuming you mean 'day after tomorrow'?

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Billy,

      Aw, thanks. I can say I feel it in your words and your personality that you've already been to this place and moved on. I do admire where you are in your state of mind; you're very strong like that. Thanks for the hugs and the support!

      Hugs right back at ya!

      Cat

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Aw...I wouldn't wanna hit below the leash. Only half serious with that remark anyway. .. it was a punny. hehe....get it? Okay, bad joke. Maybe I'm the one that needs professional help, eh?

      Seriously, Cat, I get it. I do know what you deal with and whenever you can or want to call is fine. :) When I get minutes on my phone, that is. Or, I can email you a land line number, however, if I'm away next week, that number wouldn't work.

      I know I don't have to write in the same mood. :) That would be boring. I think what it really boils down to is that I am just never satisfied with what I write. Always wanting to rewrite parts of it. hahahaha

      Uh, yeah. . .Monday, I think. I really don't know.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      No... actually, I thought it was funny, and hence my coming back with my cheesy response... lol. No, you don't need professional help; as Billy Joel so lovely says 'I love you just the way you are' :D

      Well, I certainly appreciate your patience and I hope you don't ever judge my lack of catching up with you as some lack of consideration to my friendship with you.

      You need to just write what's inspiring you, push publish and don't read it again! I was just having this conversation myself. When I get inspired to write something down... I just let it roll and push publish. Then I start getting all apprehensive and refuse to reread my hub because I know I'll just tear it apart... lol. After it sits a little idle for a while, then peek at it. Your writing is great, there's no need to be so worried about it.

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Well, aren't you just a sweetheart? And we must be perfectionists about writing? Clean the spinach, clean it all!!!!!!! If i could do a cross eyed smiley I would......:-p

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Ha ha... Well, I'm just about looking at my screen crossed eyed right now, so it'd probably make all kinds of sense to me :D

      My eyes are burning like little balls of fire! lol... I know I need to call it a night, but there's so much to do and so little time! Ahh!

      Well, the good thing about friends is there's another set of eyes looking for spinach :D

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      W1totalk,

      I can certainly understand what you’re saying, but I guess it’s never too late to do something differently, is it? I’m going to try with all my might to do things differently and I’ve been doing it the same way for 31 years. Regrets are heavy and fear can be paralyzing; today, should be enjoyed.

      Thank you so much for your visit and wonderful comment.

      Cat

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      Man of Strength 3 years ago from Orlando, Fl

      Hi Cat,

      That was so beautiful. You're so amazing, thank you for gracing us with your emotions and sincerity. As always your pictures are beautifully stunning. Voted up and beautiful.

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      Sparklea 3 years ago from Upstate New York

      Cat, thank you for your lovely note. Every morning I take my bath and I am then immediately on my walk...NATURE - God's creation is a phenomenal way to start the day. I think I told you even when I was working I got up extra early - 4:30 a.m. - NOTHING was going to stop me from my nature walks with God. My sister sits on her deck in the morning and reads. Coincidentally, doing that, somehow, seems to result in getting more done...THAT is God. You may want to obtain the book "1000 Gifts" by Ann VosKamp, and her accompanying devotional book. It is life changing. Just a suggestion. ENJOY THIS NEW DAY.

      God bless, Sparklea :)

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Sparklea,

      I love that you go for your morning walks and how much meaning you find in them. I love nature and when I'm truly alone there, I get overwhelmed with emotions, bittersweet emotions but they're a little inspirational.

      I will definitely check out "1000 Gifts", Lord knows it couldn't hurt and I really appreciation the suggestion.

      I hope you have a wonderful Sunday!

      Blessings to you ~ Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      My favorite Eddie Bear!

      A hundred years younger, pfffft! You give me the courage to be me! You are a sweetheart and I am so lucky to have you! Don't forget how special you are :D ... Huggies to you!

      Cat

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      Wayne Barrett 3 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      Cat, I was just commenting to someone else about forgiveness and the amazing cleansing it can bring. This is a beautiful piece with a powerful message my dear.

      Thumbs up and sharing this wonderful hub.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Oh my dearest, missed but not forgotten Nellienna!

      I so absolutely love your beautiful mind and life philosophies… the wonderful thing is, I can truly understand and appreciate your whimsical way of thinking. In fact, when you speak words such as this, it only reassures me that it is okay to think this way… sometimes I wonder if I live in a world of fantasy, but it’s really more a matter of seeing things in a way in which we find comfort. I find comfort in you!

      Today is tomorrow’s yesterday… I remember reading that on a sign as a child and just standing there, picking it apart. It seems to be a little like a conundrum or something out of Alice and Wonderland… but it’s all a matter of how we view time and the best time to live in, is the time that is now. I’m trying.

      Thank you so much for your always unique response and visit as well. It’s been too long since I’ve been your way and I’ll remedy that very soon.

      Thanks again dearest,

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Beautiful Rose,

      Thank you doll! You’re right, we can’t move forward if we’re stuck in the past! I very much admire your ambitious and positive personality. You’re a force to be reckon with and I’m watching the hubbers fall in love with you :D It’s amazing how contagious moods are. When I’m around negativity, it’s so easy to be sucked in, but it goes the other way too and I try hard not to be sucked into the negative and spread the positive as much as I can. I need to surround myself with people like you, that’s for sure… and I will be over to read another one of your flabulous hubs soon!

      Have a wonderful Sunday!

      Cat

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      Did somebody just say that Cat ain't perfect? Hmmm I will have to cogitate on that one. Seems to me that perfect is possible. If you are the Cat. Do not burst my bubble I like it.

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 years ago from TEXAS

      OH, dear Cat. Thanks for your kind words.

      The world of fantasy is that which regards past and future as real times, except in a larger Time Continuum which isn't really an integral part of a human life on earth. But as time relates to & in a personal life of anywhere from 0 to 100 or so years, moments already lived and not yet lived can exist only in our memory and anticipation, both of which are imaginary as far as being able to live anywhere except in the present, going-on now moments we're afforded here in this state of being, and for as long as they continue to be afforded us. Thinking otherwise causes us to waste actual living of life while it's ours on this plane and this planet. The consequence of that fantasy of thinking it goes both directions from its 'now' moments of reality, is loss of the real available moments in which we are, nevertheless, always in the precarious position of being able to choose how to invest those moments, and it can be either on what is actually available while we're living it or what is only in our imagination, as already lived time becomes and not yet lived can only be. Nothing in the past is 'alive' - it can't be changed as life can be as it's happening. Nothing in the future can be actually caused or worked out till we are there - as another today. We can't anticipate the other factors which will change the outcome of our carefully laid future plans. All we can do is spend today on making 'educated guesses' - which we have to do up to a point but if it monopolizes all our REAL TIME and real life now - it's building on an uncertain 'life' anyway. The probability of missing the very real choices & opportunities that are right here and now which can & will actually build toward a future we'll like when it arrives is the result of thinking we can "make plans for tomorrow" which will happen as planned - which won't, but till happen as the many influences outside oneself direct and alter our plans, especially plans that are in our imagination and have overlooked the real opportunities in the process of planning.

      We really only imagine we can choose how to 'view time' beyond its own occurrence on this plane in which we dwell here on Earth. ;-)

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      epigramman 3 years ago

      Well I didn't forget today because today was a special day that I was allowed to come and visit you my friend whose writing has matured right in front of my lucky eyes over the recent months - I would say you have captured poetic lightning in a bottle with your last two hubs and you are not only getting better ..... but you have just begun .....

      And yes the 'day' I met you was a memorable day too and with each day after I keep finding more about Cat as a person/the creative mind and she has taught me much about the man/writer inside of me.

      Sending you blessings and hugs from Tiffy and Gabriel and Colin too

      at lake erie time 6:05pm

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      ahorseback 3 years ago

      Cat just doesn't realize it yet but she is one of the most beautiful souls in hubs ! I forgive her youthful appearance and self conscience's , I know one thing ....she gives soo much to others that one day she will be well rewarded ! Oh no Cat ! I think you're my hero . EMT. firewoman ? wow !.....Ed

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      Eric Dierker 3 years ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      I am not good like you folks. I am just a little bastard child that was raised by good folk. I will never forget the day my pappy sat me down on this man's lap and he tried to straighten my curly hair. We laughed to hard.

      I remember today, but this man reminds me of yesterday:

      http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bzk0n7h6I-o

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Eric, why do you often talk down about yourself that way? You have a beautiful, loving soul.

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      C E Clark 3 years ago from North Texas

      Great advice. Too bad we can't all follow it every day. The world would be so much nicer.

      Voted up, useful, interesting, pinned to my "Purple II" board, and shared.

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      moonlake 3 years ago from America

      It's awful when we go over things in the past we can't change. I can remember things I did as just a baby maybe even before I was in school and regret them, isn't that silly? Remembering that far back if our minds could just erase everything we did or said that we regret and leave only our good memories. I don't worry to much about tomorrow. Loved your poetry. Voted up.

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      Taleb AlDris 3 years ago

      Thank you for reminding us the importance of today. ☼

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Vandynegl,

      I have these epiphanies and I’m ready to change the world… then I lose steam… lol. I’ve gotta try something different though, life’s passing me by! I love that Christmas quote too; that’s perfect. Well, I know you’ve had some heavy yesterdays and they’ve only made you stronger for today! Thank you for stopping; I always love to see you and yes, I’m ready for your next hub! :D

      Have an awesome day, girl!

      Cat

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      Karen Silverman 3 years ago

      Sigh..ya know babe - i read this hub 2 days ago, and because i've been a tad out of my mind, notice i didn't comment...lol..

      hope you don't mind my read-dropping, but i've had a BLAST just reading yours and shanmarie's interaction here! Teehee!

      As far as moving forward goes - I'm all for it - until you get dragged back to the muck of yesterday - quite unexpectedly!

      I'm exhausted but calm. I've dealt with it the best i can by amalgamating all her comments, putting them in an email - and sending them to all her RELATIVES!

      let them see who she really is, altho, most already know and just afraid of her...

      lol..

      love you MUCH, and sharing on...

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      Eiddwen 3 years ago from Wales

      Loved this gem and vote up for sure. Enjoy your day.

      Eddy.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Kathryn,

      Thank you doll face :D! I’m glad you can understand what I’m saying and I get the feeling that you have learned to very much appreciate today! You have such a wonderful personality and I can only assume you don’t spend much time in the past or worrying about the future. I admire strong ladies like you! Thank you… though I’m a fan of Jason Mraz’s I’ve never heard this song until I went looking for it.

      I’ll definitely be your way for a new yummy recipe soon!

      Hope your weekend was great!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Drbj,

      Aww, thank you and I absolutely love that saying… it is wise and so are you! Thank you so much for the visit; it’s always a pleasure to see you!

      Thanks again,

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Man of Strength,

      Gee, thanks! I’m sorry about the delayed response… I just can’t seem to get the time I want on this electronic device :D How’s those hubs of yours coming?

      Thank you, again… I always appreciate your support and visit! Hope you’re having a wonderful Monday!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      My Sweet Wayne,

      Thank you; I'm getting really good at the forgiving part, it seems the forgetting is a little harder. I'm working on it though :D

      Thanks for visit, it's very much appreciated.

      Hope you're having a wonderful day!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Sweet, funny Eric,

      This is in response to your first comment... lol, which all I can say is I've seen your handsome face here twice, but I have yet to read the second response. But I have a simple mind and I can only address one thing at a time, so please, bear with me :D

      What was I saying? lol

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Nellieanna,

      Do you realize how brilliant you are? lol... I've read your comment slowly, twice and I'm still trying to absorb the deep complexities behind it. All I can really say, at this point, is I can find comfort in it because it makes me think that I needn't put so much energy into things that are outside of my control or even understanding. I'm going to carry this with me today and see if I can wrap my mind around it until I have some kind of epiphany. Thanks again for the visit and at the very least... your words are so beautiful, there is pleasure to be found in just reading them.

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      My dear Colin, I’m sorry to leave you waiting for 30 hours… what a crazy few days I’ve been having. You always have such wonderful comments! I must say, while you say I’ve grown, you have held my hand along the way, what a wonderful friend I’ve found here at HP, in you. Thank you!

      Thank you so much Colin, I’m honored and you know I think so very highly of you and your writing and you have taught me much as well.

      Blessings to you as well and Miss Tiffy and Mr. Gabriel!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Ed,

      You’re so stinkin’ sweet. How did you get this way? I’m already rewarded, just in having the wonderful friends I have, like you! Thanks Ed, you’re my hero!

      Hugs,

      Cat

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Two things~ Nellieanna is a beautiful, comforting blessing, isn't she? And, Leslie, you made me smile. This is one of our more tame interactive sessions on HP. Haha. I guess that Colin guy is pretty swell too. And also guess I can't count. Haha

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Oh Eric, I agree with Shan; you’re so much more than you realize. I happen to think you’re wonderful and you are inspiring and you have a terrific heart, though I think sometimes you pretend to be mean :D… I had all I could do not to laugh, picturing your memory; then I played the Ray Charles clip and I just about cried! Wow… I really need to sleep more, I just seem extra over-emotional when I’m sleep deprived… lol.

      Thanks Eric, you’re a gem!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Shan,

      lol! You're doing pretty well for a girl on a phone :D I was just coming after you. I love how you chimed in and told Eric not to talk like that about himself. He has so much love for everyone else, but where is his love for himself?

      No, you can't count... lol! And, I, apparently can't get to all of my comments! I just want to pause life for 24 hours and then I could catch up on everything! lol

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Au fait,

      Thank you! I love to see the word great, around anything you say about my hubs! :D

      I know, I wish I could follow my own advice; my friends have always come to me in moments of need and walk away feeling some version of better, yet I can’t do that for myself… ha ha. I’m still on that journey I’ve been talking to you about. I’m in the pondering phase, but I’m not sure that phase ever goes away. However, I think I’m starting to make some sense of things… some, but that’s a start! I’ve been checking in, just about daily on that driving hub of yours, is it safe to come back yet, or does the little boy still have diaper rash… lol

      Thanks a bunch for the visit, always happy to see you!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      moonlake,

      Thank you! I think that's quite interesting you can remember so far back! It's funny, I do have a few memories from before I ever attended school, but all those childhood memories tend to be delightful. How wonderful that would be if we could only remember those kinds of memories. Of course, it's probably a necessary part of life to have some bad memories in there too, so we can learn from past mistakes.

      Thanks so much for the visit!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Taleb80,

      Thank you for the visit and the nice comment... and thanks for the sun! I needed that :D

      Thanks again!

      Cat

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      No, because you'd be paused too. ;-). As for well - you should see the goof on epi's page. Lol. At least so far autocorrect is not making embarrassing swaps.

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      No, because you'd be paused too. ;-). As for well - you should see the goof on epi's page. Lol. At least so far autocorrect is not making embarrassing swaps.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Well Shan, when do you get the computer back? I think I might've saw your faux pas on Epi's page, 'course I can't remember it now and I can't call it spinach because it's not the same kind of typo as usual... lol. Hey, don't feel bad, at least you have an excuse! lol

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Oh Leslie Dear,

      I know, I'm so sorry; I've been thinking about you very much these last few days. I'll just never understand ugly people... thankfully, you're beautiful :D

      Here, you apologized to me and I can't even get back to you on my own page for 2 days! Ick... if only I could pause the world :D

      I think that's so awesome that you sent an email to all of her relatives. I don't know if she's been blocked or if she's finally given up, but she definitely seems like one bitter girl. It must suck being the 'lesser' sibling :p

      Anyway, I hope things start looking up, where they belong! You're much too sunny of a person to be pulled into someone else's darkness!

      I really appreciate you stopping over with all you have going on yourself!

      Love you much!

      Cat

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Not sure when. Maybe a week or two,but for now, I guess I should get off my hubby's phone so that it can charge. Pleaze yry to gwt some resT, sister dear.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Eddy,

      Thank you so much! I love your writing and that makes your compliment all the more wonderful! I know you have a new one out and I'll be stressing until I get over there :D

      Thanks so much for stopping and I hope the sun is shining bright where you are!

      Cat

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Not sure when. Maybe a week or two,but for now, I guess I should get off my hubby's phone so that it can charge. Pleaze yry to gwt some resT, sister dear.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Shan,

      Well, I'll be anxiously anticipating your computer's return... and your phone! In the meantime... yes, I'm barely hanging on... lol and it's probably sad that I understood what you said! :D haha

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Wait until my spinach is actually spinach and you still understand me....oh,wait, you do...only one conclusion then...you're not sad, just a nut in a hut like me =-O. Oh, it feels good to be half sane! Seriously,though, sometimes when you hop on my thought train, you better hang on for the ride oe you might fall off like many folks do.

      But yeah. Try to get some rest and relaxation. It is summer, after all. And I dont want reports of a sick friend.

      Hugs

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      So, guess what Shan... I passed right out at in my computer chair last night. It was as if once you told me to get some sleep, I physically and immediately took your advice :D ...

      So, sorry to leave you hanging and yes, I agree; half sane is the place to be! lol... it makes the world just a little less stressful :D

      Hugs to you... hope you're having a wonderful day!

      Cat

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      cleaner3 3 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      beautiful poetry Cat.. written with the soft touch of a flower.. spreading it's petals toward the sun.. waiting for the night to be gone ...while awaiting tomorrows new warmth ...of her soul.

      Michael

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      I meant in your bed! Lol btw, sorry for the duplicate posts. Sometimes this phone acts like it doesn't take the first time I hit post.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Michael,

      Thank you, I take that as quite a compliment from you as I admire your poetry, very much!

      Your comment is probably better than my whole poem... lol. You could very well gather all of your comments from various pages and turn them into a romantic poetry book!

      Thank you Michael, it's beautiful!

      Hugs deary, hope you have a wonderful day!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Shan,

      I did it again last night! lol... I'm trying so hard to catch up, here on HP... I just go until I pass out in me chair! Eh, don't worry about the duplicate posts... at least I get to see your pretty face twice :D ... I thought you just found it worth repeating.... lol.

      Anyway, I've done it myself, I pushed 'POST' and nothing shows up and so, push it again and voila... there are 2!

      Hope you're having a terrific day dearest!

      Love ya,

      Cat

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      cleaner3 3 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      Kitty Cat.. no,no, no .. do not degrade your excellent poetry...your poetry is beautiful.. mine is only a comment, a small expression that hopes to emphasize your touching words .. You are a great poet .. I am so happy to find another who can put together words and thoughts that rhyme and give full expression from their heart .. Kitty Cat is a poet..!!!

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      Dim Flaxenwick 3 years ago from Great Britain

      What a wonderful way you have written what I also feel about myself.

      I am not winning , yet. I still worry about tomorrow and wish I could undo things from days gone by.

      If I read your poem regularly, I might get somewhere.

      Great work.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Michael Dear,

      Thank you, truly... you're comments are enough to make anyone's day! You are a poet and for that, I am honored to receive such high praises!

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Dim,

      Thank you so much! I always say I'm so much better at giving heartfelt advice than I am at taking my own. It seems like we know the answers, but getting there can be so hard. Trust me, I'm not winning either, but I try to smack some sense into myself sometimes so I can appreciate the moment instead of living in the pain of the past of the fear of the future. It makes me wonder if people understand how fragile hearts are and how easily one can be traumatized. At least through the ugly things that we go through in our lives, it creates an awareness for us and I'm sure, like me... you have learned to be cautious and careful with the hearts of others. We may be hurt, but we will not participate in the hurting.

      Thank you... and here's to us getting somewhere!

      Cat

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      CrisSp 3 years ago from Sky Is The Limit Adventure

      I love this one and I enjoyed the video clip. I am downloading that song on my itunes. Thanks to you....let's live in the moment.

      Beautiful. Voting up, pinning and sharing here and on FB. See here: https://www.facebook.com/groups/103049506537034/

      Love from the sky~

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Cris,

      Wow, thank you! I'm so honored by your visit, awesome compliment and sharing! Thank you.... you made my day! I love Jason Mraz, but I didn't even know about this song myself until I stumbled across it the other day... I think it's a great message.

      Thanks again!

      Hugs,

      Cat

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      dreamseeker2 3 years ago

      Cool poem! I love it!! I tend to have a lot of regrets, wishing I could have done things differently or better, but...one cannot live in the past or change what has already been done. I like your thoughts, to move forward and make the best of each day we're given. At least that's what I've taken from it. : ) Voted it up, and awesome!!

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 years ago from TEXAS

      Cat and Shan, - you're two very special ladies I highly value and love. Thank you for your kind words.

      It's true, Cat, that one can overdo and wear oneself out on things that will or would take care of themselves anyway, at least if one isn't too busy erecting obstacles for them! Of course, the trick is to know which ones do need attention at the time. And some do.

      My Dad had a valuable habit of 'sleeping on it' when confronted with major decisions or problems, and, sure enough, a night's sleep away from it allows the subconscious mind to go to work on it more effectively than the conscious one does or can, especially when the conscious one has gotten itself balled up into a knot trying too hard to fix it.

      We tend to underestimate our subconscious wisdom, which is tireless and always on the job, if we but stop to listen to it. It's uncluttered with fears, doubts, memories or anticipation. In a way, it's the 'instinct' we can see animals effortlessly using to handle their life's complexities. We forget that part of our own nature because our mind has such consciousness that we tend to trust it to handle everything consciously, and some things really don't respond to its kind of handling. Our entire being has its 'wisdom', and there are parts of our brains which are not dominated by their own importance and which do what they do extremely well, without which the whole thing would die.

      The subconscious simply responds to what IS and yields the most workable resolution. It's what allows the samarai to know-without-knowing that the sword is coming from an unexpected or out-of-sight direction and to 'be there' to block it without having to process the response through conscious thought. It's a generally neglected resource most of us have to train ourselves to use. We have it but have forgotten to use it or how to use it, for the most part.

      Hugs and love.

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Why do I feel like Freud is in the room?

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      dreamseeker2,

      Thank you sweet lady! That is exactly my point! I do have regrets of things I've said or done, just the same as I have regrets about things I haven't said or should've done. For every regret, I seem to have a fear waiting for the future too! I just want to appreciate the gift of each day, without wasting it looking back or ahead.

      Thank you so much for your visit and your lovely comment!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Shan! I've missed you!!! Yes, I've just noticed I've been blessed by a visit of the most beautiful and more intelligent version of any Freud I've ever known... I must read her words now! :D

      Hope all has been well?

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      I missed you, too!!!! Nellieanna made me think of the id, the ego, and the super ego. Lol

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Sweetest Nellieanna,

      Have you ever considered public speaking... or writing self-help books? lol... I say it with a smile, but you have such wonderful advice and it's as sweet as poetry and deeper than any valley. It's so comforting to hear your words and it's like magic... it doesn't come off as advice at all, but beautiful wisdom.

      You are so right and your father was no doubt a wise man. That may be one of my many flaws; I have an inability to 'wait' or sleep on anything and how silly of me. I am the type that responds immediately, I fail to 'think before I speak' and I often get myself into trouble or overwhelm myself because I don't stop to consider the options before I make a decision. I must really work on that.

      You're also so right about the power of the subconscious. You could write a hub about that :D That 'gut feeling' or 'intuition' exist for a reason, I suppose. It's almost as if our subconscious is capable of making unbiased, appropriate decisions without being bogged down with all of our, sometimes unnecessary analyzing and contemplating. It's funny, if I think about it; after much mental debating about an issue, the final result often ends up the same as what my 'initial, subconscious' thoughts were; only seems to make sense to cut out all the extra, wasted time and energy. Unless, that sometimes serves as a second opinion or 'double checking'?

      Still pondering this one... but I think you're on to something :D

      Thank you so much for the visit, again... and I will be your way before the night is over... not going is punishment to myself!

      Hugs and love to you dear!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Hey Shan... you just appeared there on me... lol, When I'm responding to Nellieanna, the rest of the world pauses; it must or I'd lose my train of thought! lol... She is like every psychologist I've ever studied, all rolled into one, with some Emily Dickenson in there :D ... Nellieanna is much more interesting then some psychologist though, isn't she? It's like her words are poetic, even when she's 'just her' ... lol

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 years ago from TEXAS

      I forgot to mention I love your music on here. Of course, Louis Armstrong's "What A Wonderful World" is a long-time fav and I've used it on a hub or two, once with other singers. But Jason Mraz is new to me and I just love his "Living In The Moment"~ NICE! And you're so kind & generous about my ramblings. Thank you.

      I confess that I've never been a student of Freud. My mentors are Maslow, Carl Rogers, Alan Watts and several others, who are of the less-Freudian persuasion. haha. But then, much of my psychology study has been on my own where I could follow my own bent, though I had a couple of courses in college; - not as interesting as my own pursual.

      If you've ever heard of or tried 'Affirmations', you probably know about employing your subconscious with its special characteristics to help achieve goals and realize dreams becoming true. Anyway, it's a powerful built-in tool and ability. It works in conjunction with one's subjective reality.

      I happen to be right and left brain balanced and can 'switch on' one side or the other to fit projects, or combine to achieve most satisfying results, because it seems intelligent to me to use ALL one's resources in achieving whatever one is pursuing and doing. No question that the intellect serves vital purposes and shouldn't be neglected or demonized, any more than the intuitive faculties should be!

      These built-in faculties are designed to work together in harmony, yet somehow our culture tends to favor and reward the one over the other. Some philosophies and cultures may better coordinate regard for them so that their people are taught, encouraged and become proficient at working at their own top-most abilities, using all their faculties. Somehow when education & the work force mainly encourage the intellect and neglect or devalue the intuitive, results are inevitably less balanced, causing frustration and unhelpful feelings of superiority or inferiority, though, even in such societies, when they ARE functioning together, suddenly it's viewed as extraordinary. It's extraordinary only in that it's somewhat 'against the tide' with either extreme! I suspect that the greatest geniuses are those who learned or naturally knew to keep all their faculties functioning together.

       

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 years ago from TEXAS

      duh . . .persual = perusal. duh.

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      Kathryn 3 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      Oh, man, I may be worrying about my future soon. The fairy tale is over, and the frog that turned into a prince decided he only likes me as a friend now. My tears have run dry, I'm cold, and I feel so empty. I almost forgot what it felt like to be heartbroken.

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      rose-the planner 3 years ago from Toronto, Ontario-Canada

      Kathryn, love, I just saw your post on my stream. I just wanted to see how you are doing and to say I am sorry about what happened. I empathize with you and I know that nothing I say to you right now will help your broken heart, but I just wanted to let you know that your in my thoughts. I am sending you great big hugs!!!! -Rose

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Kathryn,

      I had a pork loin on the grill a few hours ago and came into my den and refreshed my Feed. I saw what your comment, but didn't have time to comment. I damn near cried over my grill after that and I didn't enjoy my dinner! I just want you to know that my heart's breaking for you.

      Listen, I'll never understand what makes someone walk away from the perfect woman... and yes, you are the perfect woman; you are the whole package and there aren't many like you around in this day in age. I know there's nothing anyone can say at a time like this but you must understand, it is not you! Hang in there sweetie... it's tough to wrap your mind around, but I believe, everything happens for a reason. You needed to walk this path to get where you're going and when you get there, you'll appreciate how beautiful the paved road is. Your prince just hasn't found you yet...

      Hugs and love to you... you're strong, you'll get through this!

      Love ya,

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Nellieanna,

      I apologize for skipping you, but my dear friend Kathryn has had her heart broken and I just wanted to give her a hug. Oh, it’s amazing how you learn to accept and live with a damaged heart of your own, yet, it can hurt so badly when a loved one’s has been broken.

      Back to you :D … Thank you! Yes, that Louis Armstrong song usually brings tears to my eyes, on good days and bad ones. The power of his words are undeniable, but that voice of his makes me feel like he’s singing with real and raw emotion and that is what really makes a song touch me.

      Jason Mraz definitely has a few songs over the last few years that I’ve really enjoyed… I have his ‘I Won’t Give Up’ song on my hub with the same name. I didn’t even realize that this ‘Living in the Moment’ song existed as I’ve been listening to oldies, flashbacks and ‘easy listening’ type of music for quite a while and I don’t often hear the new songs as they come out. I couldn’t even believe it, I wrote this hub and when searching for a song afterward, I already had a song in mind and then I stumbled upon this one and I felt like he wrote the words I was thinking!

      I appreciate the compliment about my being kind and generous about your ramblings, which, quite frankly… I don’t know what I’d do without! You are so wise and your words are so lovely, I often replay them in my mind throughout the day. There is no doubt you have added to and helped my growth over these last few months. So much of who we are, is how we think. Besides, I think you’re awfully gracious yourself as I seem to struggle with time lately and I’m horrible about ‘getting back to people’, so thank you for sharing your wonderful ramblings and being patient about a response :D

      Never been a student of Freud’s? I’m almost shocked… you just seem to have some kind of understanding on so many theories. I took over a dozen Psychology classes in college, partly because of my major and partly because I love Psychology. Anyway, one of the courses I took was “Theories of Personality” and it was perhaps the most difficult of any other Psychology course I’ve taken. It was textbook explanations about why people are the way they are, but more, major, iconic Psychologists versions of why, all debating and debunking each other’s theories. It’s funny, each chapter dedicated to its own Psychologist, seems to have its own ‘good points’ and while in that chapter, I seemed to have agreed, for the most part, with the theories, until getting to the next chapter… lol. If that makes any sense. I came to the conclusion that they each had valuable points and no one person has all the answers, but each adds to a greater explanation. You remind me of that book/course. I mean that as a compliment, not saying that you contradict yourself, but rather, you have an impressive knowledge all the way around… and I don’t believe you got all your answers from a book, but life!

      Oh, when I was struggling with bulimia, my physician begged me to ‘see someone’. Here’s the problem; I believe I’m very intuitive and quite self-aware. I think I know what my ‘problems’ are and how they got there. I just have always struggled with how to get passed them. I hadn’t trusted the idea of ‘seeing’ someone because I didn’t see how they were going to fix me. Well, after a year of pleading; I went and saw someone. I wasn’t pleasantly surprised. I was asked to repeat all of the things that have happened in my life that have led to my ‘psychological issues’ and all it did was opened wounds that I know are there, but keep in the back of my mind for some sense of temporary relief. There was no real suggestions given. It was recommended however, that I practice self-affirmations. I was given quiet a lovely, lengthy list, but when I got home and looked at it, I couldn’t help but laugh. I thought… I’m such a loser and I can’t even say these things to myself! It’s hard for someone who struggles so bad with serious self-esteem issues and insecurities to try convincing themselves they’re wonderful. Clearly, I already knew that I should have a better self-image, but if I couldn’t do it before, I wondered how repeating sentences from a piece of paper was going to convince my mind about something I was already hell-bent on. I never really could do it and I think my daughter ended up using the backside of those papers to doodle on. Is there a trick to ‘Affirmations’? I hate to be so ignorant.

      You’re so right about how education and the work force encourage intellect and neglect or devalue the intuitive! I think the magic is in finding a balance between the two. It seems that those people who are truly good at ‘what they do’ are so, because not only do they know the intellectual side of their field, but they embrace their intuition in those matters as well.

      Thanks for the revisit!

      Cat

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Rose dear,

      I just wanted to say thank you for reaching out to Kathryn; that's very sweet of you and she's just a sweetheart herself and I'm sure she appreciates it. Thanks again!

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      rose-the planner 3 years ago from Toronto, Ontario-Canada

      Thank you Cat but when I saw her post I was worried about her. I hope she is doing well. Take care! -Rose

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Me too Rose, me too! Have a goodnight ~ Cat

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      Kathryn 3 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      Rose, thank you so much for comforting me, and giving me the big hugs! It may be hard to know what to say, but that is exactly what I needed. You have no idea how much better I feel now. Hugs back to you :)

      ~ Kathryn

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      Kathryn 3 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      Cat,

      Thanks so much for your comment. I was completely torn up yesterday, but didn't want to make a scene by announcing to everyone what happened. I just needed to say it to someone! And I'm glad I did, because what you said is very comforting.

      Fortunately, Andy is making this easier for me, and helping me out. He said he really didn't want to hurt me, he just doesn't love me as more than a friend. It is hard to hear it, but at least he isn't leading me on. He isn't malicious at all, and it makes it easier. It just took me by surprise. I have had a nagging feeling lately that something wasn't right, but it wasn't obvious. Unfortunately, those "nagging feelings" that I usually brush off as being silly and unfounded almost always end up being something after all. Or maybe it is a good thing. I was shocked, but I could have been even more surprised.

      This is hard, but I know I will walk away from this stronger, and other opportunities will open up. I have grown so much since I have been with him, and he has been a very positive influence in my life. I think I really needed it. He has also set the bar really high.

      Thank you so much, I appreciate the hugs and the encouragement so much! I really needed to talk to someone.

      Hey, on the bright side, I have already started putting together information for a hub on break-ups. It won't be bitter, it'll be full of encouragement and helpful tips. Haha. I get inspiration everywhere! I just won't make it too personal, because I don't want certain things to be "made concrete" on the internet, if you know what I mean.

      Now that I feel better, I need to comment on a newer hub of yours that I saw recently, but was too sad to read much.

      Have a wonderful weekend, and hugs back to you! You are so sweet.

      ~ Kathryn

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      rose-the planner 3 years ago from Toronto, Ontario-Canada

      Kathryn, I am glad to hear that you are doing okay given the circumstances. Just remember that things happen for a reason. It may seem like the universe is playing a rotten trick on you right now but trust me great things happen to exceptional people and you are definitely someone who falls under that category. If you ever need someone to talk to feel free to contact me anytime. You can use the e-mail by my profile. Cat, I am sorry for taking up space on your awesome hub here but I figured in this case you wouldn't mind. Hugs to both you and Kathryn! Take care! -Rose

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      Kathryn 3 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      Rose, thank you very much. I appreciate it a lot, and I am sure things will work out. Right now it hurts, but some time I will be okay. I just hope time passes quickly, because I am a wreck right now.

      ~ Kathryn

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Kathryn,

      I was so close to making a hub for you… lol, I’m glad I thought better of your privacy :D

      I’ve been thinking about you all day and I know there’s no immediate remedy for a broken heart, but I’m so glad to hear Andy is not being a jerk in an already delicate situation. He must not be too bad of a guy and he must think enough of you to be compassionate, rather than just running away like a lot of others do in a ‘break up’. That makes me feel so much better and you deserve the respect he seems to be giving you.

      I’m sure it’s not easy to hear, but you are obviously wise enough to know that prolonging a ‘fake’ relationship, will only do more damage down the road. At least he’s being fair and honest to the both of you.

      I’d wondered if you’d had a signs, as he’s probably been struggling with his feelings for a little while, anyway. It’s better to know. Besides, if things would’ve seemed like they were going perfect and he just up and left, you’d really be at a loss and wondering why.

      I’m sure you’re going to be bruised for a while, but at least you can look back and appreciate the relationship, rather than resenting it… which may are not as lucky. I’m glad he set the bar high too, you should have realistic, but high standards because anyone would be lucky to have you, but only the best deserve you.

      I’m so glad you’re making a hub out of this and I should’ve expected it would be on a somewhat positive note; that is your style :D … but that’s refreshing! So many of us walk away bitter and scorned and don’t have much ‘nice to say’.

      I hope you and Andy continue to get through this hard situation as smooth as anyone could hope for. You really are an inspiration to so many and I’m definitely keeping you in my thoughts!

      I hope you have a wonderful weekend!

      Hugs,

      Cat

      …and Rose, you’re welcome to come by my pages, anytime for anything and I particularly appreciate your love and support. Hugs to you!

      Cat

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      rose-the planner 3 years ago from Toronto, Ontario-Canada

      I can only imagine Kathryn. I know your heart is broken and will need time to mend. So please stay strong and know that you're in my thoughts. Take care! -Rose

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      rose-the planner 3 years ago from Toronto, Ontario-Canada

      Thanks Cat! You are always such a considerate sweetheart! Hugs right back at you. -Rose

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 years ago from TEXAS

      Kathryn, I felt your anquish in that first comment, and I'm glad that you're now much less upset. What others have said, I would echo. Better to know truth, what it is, rather than accept what it's not and build upon illusion. It's hard to face when we've already accepted that illusion, so of course, it's bound to be traumatic for awhile. But it's hard for the other person who must tell the truth in order to help in the long-run, knowing it will hurt at first. You were lucky that Andy was able to do that, really, much as you'd have preferred it to be unnecessary.

      Yet it's just these actual experiences which help us know and recognize the earmarks as we proceed on down the path. It's a good feeling to know that you've learned from this, and will be even more so, when you've successfully applied the lesson learned in other situations. Somehow when it IS right, it becomes all the more precious and valuable, and after all - that's what one really wants. You'll find that, I feel sure. Took me more than once, but the prize was worth it.

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 years ago from TEXAS

      Cat, I've so many thoughts in response to your response. I can't immediately reply to it all right now, and may do so more privately. I appreciate your confidence in me and love you for your courage and especially for being the good person you are, no matter the challenges. I definitely identify with that! More later. Hugs.

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      Kathryn 3 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      Nellieanna,

      Thanks for commenting on my situation. I really appreciate it! I am feeling much better today, and I feel good about the future. I am very thankful that Andy let me know what his feelings are. I would hate to live a "fake" life, and I really do care about him. I want him to be happy, and to find someone that he can love and cherish. Relationships sometimes fail, and it isn't always anyone's fault. I am also very lucky that he cares about me as a friend, and is helping me through this situation, despite being a little awkward for him. He is really one of the sweetest men, and I am very happy to have known him.

      It is definitely true that "when it is right, it becomes all the more precious and valuable". I agree wholeheartedly! Thank you so much for taking the time to encourage me. I appreciate it so much!

      Rose, thanks for keeping me in your thoughts. I appreciate it so much, and all of you have really helped me to feel better and keep a good perspective on things. I am lucky to be in such a caring community, and to have met you.

      Cat, I'm glad he isn't being a jerk, either. I have been in a worse break-up before, with very challenging circumstances (short version of the story: I got in a car accident only 2 weeks after moving in with this one guy several years ago, and when he broke up with me, I had just had a broken hip and collarbone, and couldn't do much. I was pretty much stuck with staying with him for a while, but it was incredibly uncomfortable, and he wasn't a nice guy to me. He had good reasons, but it didn't make things any easier), and this is what I call an "easy break-up". It is not actually easy emotionally, but circumstantially, it is pretty good.

      Yes, I will keep my expectations realistic, as well as higher than normal. I don't want to die without anyone because the "perfect" guy doesn't come! Lol. No one is perfect, and I would not expect everything about the one I end up with to be that way.

      I am trying to be as positive as I can, and have had many conversations with Andy during the past few days. He is such a sweetheart, and he still tries to make me laugh. It is hard to be too sad for too long around him. He will make an awesome friend, especially when I wrap my head around the concept.

      You have a great weekend, too, Cat, and thanks again. You are so sweet!

      ~ Kathryn

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Oh, Kathryn, I've been away quite a bit and just now read through the comments. Hugs to you! I've been in a similar situation and it isn't easy, but it really does get better. And you have a beautiful heart to have said those nice things about him rather than being angry with him. :)

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      Kathryn 3 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      Shanmarie,

      Thanks, that is a sweet thing to say :) It is hard to say mean things about a great guy like him. We can't always help how we feel, and I have been the one to break up with someone before, so I have an idea how bad he must feel.

      Thanks, I appreciate the hugs very much! Have a great remainder of the weekend!

      ~ Kathryn

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Nellieanna,

      Thank you and please, by all means, don't worry about time on my hubs. I know how precious time is and how easy it is to get behind; I'm ashamed at how far behind I am myself. More importantly, I really appreciate you taking the time to offer your love, support, encouragement and wisdom to Kathryn. You've done wonders for me and my heart and Kathryn is a beautiful girl, going through a tough time and I'm sure you've helped her.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Kathryn,

      I'm so amazed by your positivity! I'm also very thankful that you are getting through this as well as can be expected. Now, after hearing about that previous ex, I'm so very happy Andy is handling this differently. Gosh, what a horrible car accident, I'm glad you walked away from it and you're all healed up; that could've been much worse, I suspect!

      You're right, there are no perfect men... or women for that matter and sometimes I find comfort in the flaws. It's hard trying to keep up with someone we view as perfect. I just know that sometimes, after dealing with a broken heart, whether it's subconsciously or not, we tend to be more vulnerable to letting the wrong people in. At least I can say that I have and I've walked out of the flames and into the fire! You seem to be very level headed and strong. You have a wonderful personality and I think you'll be just fine... just don't forget how good you are!

      I'm glad today was a better day for you!

      Cat

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      By the way, I'm not a big fan of Freud's either. In fact, I think many of his theories seem to be about as far fetched as can be. But, you, Nellieanna, did remind me of the subconscious theory.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Shan,

      Ha ha... well, it's been a while since I've studied Freud and now you're going to force my brain to work! He's probably the psychologist with the most recognized name and probably the most criticized too! I think he might have something to that oral stage in his five psychosexual development stages... and I don't mean that in a dirty way, but I have some serious oral fixations... and I'm talking about things like constantly having to have a drink for instance, and no, not alcoholic... okay, I'm pushing post before I delete this whole comment... lol

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Well, seems we also have psych in common, among the MANY things that we do. I was a pysch major., though, I confess that much of the textbook things kind of eluded my brain, long term. I prefer the observations to text book theories and applications. I loved developmental psych, educational pysch and the cognitive psych experiments. However, I could never be a experimental psychologist because I am terrible at the math that would be required to report results. Hahaha I barely even passed social statistics, which was supposedly easier than an actual statistics class because it was in relation to social sciences. I think I just enjoy understanding the complexities of the way the human mind works on its own and in relation to how we interact with other human beings - perception, personality, experiences....the whole she'bang!

      Hahaha...yeah...and you mention some of the questionable theories...right there. Everything was about sex, more often than not. LOL

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      Nellieanna Hay 3 years ago from TEXAS

      Finding one's 'Mr. Right' isn't about finding a perfect human being, which as we all agree is impossible - if if it were possible, the person would surely be insufferable! :-)

      Rather, it's about finding compatibility and truly MUTUAL feelings for each other. If 'opposites attract', as the saying goes, for it to work out, there would definitely need to be those common grounds in which, together, they match and complement each other compatibly and, especially, that they care for each other equally.

      These are things one may sense quickly, like love at first sight, or they may grow more slowly; but, either way, they need to be real and mutual; and for it to be shown and known, time is needed for the chance for it to demonstrate itself and prove lasting.

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      Kathryn 3 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      Nellieanna and Cat,

      I wouldn't want to find a "perfect" man, either. I like some flaws, because I would be insecure around someone too much better than me!

      I agree about the compatibility and mutual feelings, Nellieanna. Those are some good statements to ponder.

      Have a good night, everyone!

      ~ Kathryn

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      ahorseback 3 years ago

      WELL ! I take offense to there being "no perfect man " Ladies ! I was once ....tthhiissss close Y...... to being perfect and do you know what happened . I got involved with a perfect woman .! She destroyed me !...lLOL or should I say COL.....

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      Kathryn 3 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      Uh-ohh, you gotta watch out for those perfect women. They can be dangerous!

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Oh, being perfect is tiresome anyway....er,near perfect.....and then when one stumbles from fatigue, it takes a spe,ial someone perfect only to that one to help that one stand again. So, you see, Ed, you're still pwrfect to her. ;-)

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Shan,

      I'm sorry... I'm glad you weren't bleeding to death as I'm sure you'd have died already! Anyway... yeah, the psych thing, I completely agree with you. I was minoring in Psychology and it only happened by accident after I realized how much I enjoyed the field; of course, I've been analyzing people and trying to figure them out as long as I can remember, so it'd only make sense. The numbers thing? Yup, I couldn't have a career in number... not my thing and don't even get me going on Statistics! I kept trying to avoid that class until it was the only Math course left for me to take and it was Hell, if ever there was a place! lol....

      But, I could go on and on about Psychology, my appreciation for it and even the courses I have under my belt... but since I was just recently insulted... about how stupid I am considering the degrees I've earned, I'm not going to go on about such things. Oh... and might I add, that remark came from a MAN, surprise surprise... ugh! Anyway.... welcome to my world and one of the many reasons why I have so many problems!

      Okay... now that I'm done ranting... I'll have to read the other comments and see if I can't turn my mood around :D Isn't life grand :D

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Ed,

      I'm sorry... I feel horrible for you, horrible that you're a man. I'm guessing you're about as close to perfect as they come, but there are so many others out there that just ruin it for you. As for me... I'm done! I don't even like guys anymore. They take all that's wrong with them and then throw it on you until you're nothing but a frail and broken version of a pathetic human being. Okay, well... at least that's been my experience thus far! If I were to ever become romantically involved again, I want a quadriplegic, who's been maimed by a beast, who has tragically lost his tongue and has the intelligence of a carrot! Then, and only then... will I have someone that I can share an equal and mutual existence with!

      For the record... if she ruined you.... then she wasn't perfect!

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Uh, Cat? You okay there? Let's not bring out the Louisiville sluggers and stilettos tonight. Okay? Take a deep breath (I almost wrote 'breathe') and a bunch of things I can't say here. No,not dirtyfor those other comment readers....lol. Uou deserve more than a stinkin carrot brain.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Oh Shan, I love you... lol. I have to admit, I speak before I think. I got on the computer for the first time all day, to find a degrading email and it just immediately put me in a mood. After reading a few comments from you and Nellieanna and taking a moment to breathe, I feel quite a bit calmer... lol, apparently, I should've walked away for a minute. :D

      Why though? Why do people feel the need to put others down? I just don't get it.

      Anyway... things looking up your way?

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      I very well figured that comment came from a man and I can imagine which one. Let him go in every way. You are worth so much more than that chain that drags you down. Shed it completely so that your heart can fully mend. No one is perfect,but perfect for you is mutuallove and respect and whatever other qualities you love most in people. And you dont need mental reminders right now of anyone making you feel less than loveablr anymore than you need physical ones.

      I ask the same question everyday, Cat. Insecurities, I suppose, make bullies. My mouth gets me in trouble, though, because I'm not a stupid bitch and I don't want to name call in return, but when I am treated that way ny someone close to me, walls go up. Not the hurt walls- the I will not buy your crap walls and I get angry. Hard tp not defend myself when it is nest to ne quiet perhaps. But, any reaction, including none, can make a game for a bully,especially if he knows that under the none there is really an irritated reaction.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Shan,

      You're so smart and you understand so well, you really should consider a career in the psychology field, seriously. I grew up in the home where harsh words were flung around regularly and it used to be a somewhat natural defense for me in those moments that I deemed necessary. But after years of hearing rotten things and realizing how deep and long they scar, I just can't do it anymore, I won't... it's a choice. Even when someone says the most degrading thing possible, I refuse to give them something equal, in return. At the end of the day, I don't want to be damaging their psychological wellbeing. You're so right though, any reaction, including no reaction, is still a reaction... lol. I know you know what I mean and a bully, is relentless. I suppose once you become an adult, bully probably isn't the term for it anymore. It's probably a matter of someone with their own insecurities, like you said... and their behavior is defense mechanisms or something. But, even knowing that, it can still be hard to keep their words from becoming your own. That 'I won't buy your crap walls' you talk about; I know what you mean, but I think when ya hear something enough times, you start to believe it, you know? At any rate, I know you're sensitive to others feelings and compassionate and sympathetic, but I also know you're strong and I hope you're able to deflect any negativity that might come your way, as you certainly don't deserve any negativity yourself.

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Actually, I was a psych major because human interactions, personalities, perception, thought processes (is that a word?), and the like have always fascinated me and I couldn't major in education. Wanted to teach when I was younger. Wanted to positively make a diffetence in tje lives of children. The tbought of counseling has crossed my mind, though. Didn't get to finish my degree, but still love psych and learning about related things.

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      Cat 3 years ago from New York

      Shan,

      Yes, I do believe that's a word... lol. Yes, I would think you have an appreciation for said topic as it shows in your knowledge. Generally, we seem to excel in areas that we enjoy and vice versa. Well, you may not be a paid teacher, but you are teaching children, at least three that I know of and they will never have a better teacher. I'm not completely surprised to hear that that was a one time interest to you either :D

      There's always time to finish a degree. I don't know all of your circumstances, but there are a lot of reputable online colleges nowadays and a fair amount of financial assistance. Of course, I can imagine you've found other things to fill your time and your pockets, as I know of some already. Trust me, I have thousands of dollars in debt, thanks to college and I'm not even utilizing the degree! I'll have to work for the rest of my life just to pay off college loans... lol.

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      Shannon 3 years ago from Texas

      Me too! And no degree to show for ot even. Maybe I will finish someday, though too much red tape to teach now. It would simply mean job security. Anyway, couldn't mjor in education here, but there was a masters program that involved picking another major to gradiatw with, a few under grad yeaching courses, and then a year and summer of grad school. graduate not gradiate or whatever.

      Regarding other things, the believing something told too often is true, especially to young children. But scars can heal and ways of thinking can be changed.

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      Poetic Fool 3 years ago

      Cat, this is truly and awesome poem! The message is priceless and the rhyme and rhythm ... well, it rolls off the tongue. Just beautiful! Reading poems like this is a pure joy. Great job! Looking forward to more.

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      rose-the planner 3 years ago from Toronto, Ontario-Canada

      Hello Cat, I am visiting your beautiful piece of poetry again. I must confess that my visit has a dual purpose. I haven't seen your beautiful smile or read your heartfelt comments in days so I just wanted to say hello and I hope all is well with you. Take care and hugs! -Rose

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      Kathryn 3 years ago from Manchester, Connecticut

      Cat,

      Just like Rose, I am also checking on you. I haven't seen you in over a week, so I hope you are doing okay! Have a great week :)

      ~ Kathryn

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      Dee aka Nonna 3 years ago

      Love this. Learning to live in the present---today---is something very difficult for some to do. When we are able to accomplish that one simple task....and it is simple when we stop and think....we will see a difference in how we approach everything.

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