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Ego drops dead at my feet -- crazy talk about a mad world

Updated on November 21, 2012
photo by Violet Flame
photo by Violet Flame

What a crazy time!

If I ever knew that unemployed people were so busy and so stressed I would have stayed employed, lol!

Are people ever free of stress?

Perhaps it's just a human condition that's like the air we breathe, part of the whole deal?

I think I've finally realized something, that as long as you are human, no matter how rich how poor, how young how old, how ugly how beautiful, with or without partner, with or without children, with or without a job.... rarely a single living breathing person is without something that eats at them, also known as stress.

But it is so peculiar.....

I was stressed out about my job so I left it...

then I got stressed because I don't have a job...

then I got another job and started stressing about the hours, the pay, the treatment, about getting on with new colleagues...

I was depressed because I was without a partner to love and to be loved,

then I found a partner,

then I get depressed because he couldn't love me right,

so I left him and then get depressed about it's just impossible to meet someone new...

it just goes on and on and on....

it never stops...

it's like that white lab mouse on the spinning wheel...

it runs and runs and runs and the wheel spins and spins and spins and goes....NOWHERE.

But I want it to stop.

no I don't mean stop living, just stop living like a white mouse in the spinning wheel....


the white mouse,

it ran and ran and ran and ran and ran and ran and ran.....

then, epiphany struke!

Oh My God!

the white mouse actually stopped running and stood still....

perfectly still...

it took a good look at the silly little cage it was in,

stepped off the stupid wheel,

opened the cage door,

and walked out!

no I am not walking out physically of my earthly cage,

not yet anyway, not until my timer starts beeping and my jailer opens the gate.

I am just quitting this pointless emotional game,

right here and now.

this invisible spinning wheel of endless stress and worry and dissatisfaction.

The human being only has one problem,

only one,

that he can never be satisfied.

"Things can always be better;

there can always be more money, more this or more that..."

THAT one little defect causes the entire human DRAMA that never ends,

the one single seed that grew into the gigantic Maya, Illusion!

What if,

one became completely satisfied NO MATTER his condition, his situation?

What if,

one entered into BLISS no matter his circumstances?

Try it.

Feel completely fulfilled NOW no matter what your life might say otherwise.

(It would alwayse say otherwise for it's programed as such)

When you can do this,

Ego dies right at your feet.

Then, it will be all very quiet indeed.

There will no longer be any noise in your head,

telling you something or someone (most probably yourself) is just not goodenough.

All is quiet,

For the Ego is dead.

And Maya is dead.

The world is no more.

Do that thing you wanna do,

Say that thing you wanna say,

Face that thing that's right in front of you,

and feel no turmoil.

It is ok.

It is always ok.

You will always be ok.

For God has you;

HE always has.

------------------------------by Violet Flame


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      Violet Flame 4 years ago from Auckland, NZ

      Ha ha Ed, it's all good! I have been away from Hubpages for a while due to my full time study. I am back here right now because I am procrastinating from writing an assignment, lol. What I took away from that lecture is that that fact "better memory recall" relates more closely to "depression" is very telling. Sometimes, when you can't forget, it makes it that much harder to let go and to move on. Talking about letting go, Eckhart Tolle uses the metaphor of the hot potato. "How do you drop a hot potatoe?" he asked his audience in all seriousness. "By dropping it," he chuckled in all innocence. Have a happy fun day Ed, very soon you won't need any doctors! xoxoox hugs xo

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      ahorseback 4 years ago

      Oh my God , how did I miss this ! Thank you , we just may have a "break through "in this study , boy am I late for that party huh? Thank you for sharing this ,really hugs and kisses !....Ed

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      Violet Flame 5 years ago from Auckland, NZ

      Hi ahorseback,

      Thank you for coming by! The insteresting thing is, I have just went to a lecture at the university about neurgenetic today and he has just spend an hour and half telling us THERE IS A MEMORY MUSCLE FOR DEPRESSION!!!! (well, not in the exact words but in that meaning). Apparently his research team have been researching the link of human memory to human behaviour and psychological conditions. And the majority of caucasian have vel/vel make up in their gene which contributes to the best memory recall which links to depression. Us asians however, have the met/met genetic make up which leads to worst memory recall, which is somehow linked to bad driving (ha ha), which is more prone to schizophrenia instead of depression. I've just tried to find some more information on the net about them, but couldn't find any.

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      ahorseback 5 years ago

      Violet , Sweet and to the point ! Anxiety , is an evil waste of a life , I suffered that with depression , By the way both are treated the same by doctors . You speak of" building a muscle" above when I saw my doctor I asked about' memory muscle ' of depression and anxiety , and he said ....."Hmm I have never thought of it that way !" Time for a new doctor Awesome write !

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      Violet Flame 5 years ago from Auckland, NZ

      I love coming back to visit this hub every now and remind myself of the wisdom I have but very often forget, lol. It is always a good thing to follow one's own advice, ha ha. WAKE UP!!!

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      Violet Flame 5 years ago from Auckland, NZ

      Thank You LazyLucid, glad you like it xo

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      Violet Flame 6 years ago from Auckland, NZ

      Hi Suzzycue xo

      Thank you for your lovely comment. I'm so glad you enjoyed it and got something out of it. I must say it still does that for me whenever I read it after a little while. The best way to describe it is as if I live through my life like someone who suffers memory lost. My writing is like the notes l leave around the place to remind myself of the truth whenever I have a lucid moment of Remembrance. Until I forget again or am submerged back into the illusive world of virtual reality that we call life. The hope is that more we remember the truth the more we strengthen it within ourselves. Much like building a muscle I guess. ^^

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      Susan Britton 6 years ago from Ontario, Canada

      Thank you for this poem. It made me think twice about how I feel. You made me feel and you made me think. It doesn't get better than that. Good poem.

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      Violet Flame 6 years ago from Auckland, NZ

      thank you singlmomat52 xo

      Thank you for your comment. You are such a sweet gentle soul. I hope you are well. Sorry it took me so long to reply as I have been quite busy being an art student for the last year. I love reading this article again, one must try following one's advice sometimes, ha ha

      all my love xo


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      singlmomat52 7 years ago

      Well Violet I read this poem right when I needed it most!!! Thank you so much for this very insightful Hub!! I am gonna do my best to do my best. God bless and thanks again!!!