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Forgiving Myself For Loving You

Updated on January 9, 2014
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Anan is an online blogger and private consultant since 2009 in the areas of relationships and interfaith spirituality.


My delicious and beautiful jailer,

in the twilight of my dreams

you keep my heart prisoner

and my will in your hands.


Feeling small, inadequate

and sadness beyond the flesh.

Where you don't participate

in my secret anguish.


I hated you, hating myself

for pointless pursuits of angels

Keeping those words to yourself,

keeping them in pretty dorsels.


But don't mind you me

because is my fault, my doing.

I already forgave myself you see,

for letting you be my undoing.



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      Anan Celeste 22 months ago from California

      Thank you guys...Love ya.

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      Chris Mills 22 months ago from St. Louis, MO until the end of June, 2017

      The opening line is awesome. The whole poem is outstanding. Thanks for sharing.

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      Audrey Howitt 22 months ago from California

      Ouch this one hurts!

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      Anan Celeste 4 years ago from California

      Thanks Laurinzo, I am so glad that you liked it.

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      Anan Celeste 4 years ago from California

      Thanks Cloud Explorer!

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      Live To Write 4 years ago from Phoenix, Az.

      " for letting you be my undoing..." I love that line, the poem itself and the images you chose

      Perfect poem... Wow!

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      Mike Pugh 4 years ago from New York City

      I like this one by you Ananceleste, its definitely a poem that embraces attachment and the notion of letting go, yup self pity is always like this, and you've expressed it in a deep poetic way to evoke true emotions. Awesome job!

      Thumbs up and out.

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      Anan Celeste 4 years ago from California

      Oh Debbie;

      You make me crack up sweetie. If only you knew. Remember , a woman's heart, is a deep ocean of secrets....

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 4 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      this man that hurt you I will beat him up.. you are too precious.. ,, Ana this is beautiful writing..

      God Bless you

      Debbie

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      Anan Celeste 5 years ago from California

      Thanks AD!

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      anndavis25 5 years ago from Clearwater, Fl.

      It hurts to love, and not be loved back. Certainly we grow from it. Individually and spiritually.

      Written well. AD

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      Anan Celeste 5 years ago from California

      Thanks teaches!

      By the way, I like your new picture!

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      Dianna Mendez 5 years ago

      An honest expression of one's thoughts towards a love betrayed. Thanks for sharing.

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      Victoria Lynn 5 years ago from Arkansas, USA

      Beautiful. I've felt that way. The photos go with the poem well, too. Great job!

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      Audrey Howitt 5 years ago from California

      Great write--and packed with emotion---

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      bmcoll3278 5 years ago from Longmont, Colorado

      That is a talent I don't have good job

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      Anan Celeste 5 years ago from California

      Thanks guys!

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      cleaner3 5 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      let go and you will feel better. if thats what it takes let your words come out.!

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      January Moon 5 years ago from NY, Now Living in Atlanta Ga

      Good Job :-) wonderful post, full of dark love, voted up.

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      time2rite 5 years ago from Navarre, Fl, USA

      Anaceleste, this a beautifully tortured poem that pulses with the ache of longing and aguish much like a one-sided love affair or relationship that has ended. I love it; awesome!

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