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Forgiving You for All the Pain

Updated on April 9, 2019

Random Thoughts Of Living Life Without You

I think.....very rarely about you.

I think....every day about him.


I feel....nothing in anyway for you.

I feel...confused but excited because its him.


I regret....nothing because in the end I found him because of you.

I regret....leaving him sixteen years ago because I ended up with you.


I hate....every minute I made ":love" to you.

I hate...that I never held him in my arms.


I worry....you will come back into my life.

I worry....when you do he will be happy to get rid of you.


I see...no future and remember no past with you.

I see...the future and the past with him.


I hear....you telling me you never did love me.

I hear...when what he doesn't yet say.


I fear....you will never fully repent of your sins.

I fear...he will leave me because of my shady past.


I doubt....I ever was in love with you for it wasn't true love.

I doubt....that I ever didn't love with all I had with him.


I never....want to hear your voice or see your face.

I never...will stop being drawn to the smile that lights up his face.



He was....my best friend for six long years

You were...never were a friend I do fear.

He is...someone who I can rely on in need

You are....the one that he would save me from.

He always...keeps me close to his heart

You always...are the one that breaks it.

He would...hold me and whisper nice things

You would...only touch me if you expected something.

He has...let me walk away to live some of life

You have...held me in a prison were I wanted to end that life.

He and I...have something that isn't just friendship but never gone far

with something left for us that I wished for the last 20 years for on the stars.

You and I...are over, done, we are through...no we can't be friends

You and I...should never have happened and I have wished five years for it to end.

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  • Rosana Modugno profile image

    Rosana Modugno 

    6 years ago from 10th Kingdom

    Oh I liked this one. I could so relate to the back and forth of pain and wishing and regret and wasted time. Awesome. Thumbs up.

  • abbykorinnelee profile imageAUTHOR

    Abigayle Korinne 

    6 years ago from Plymouth WI

    Thank you:)

  • UMHiram profile image

    U M Hiram 

    6 years ago from Midwest

    Interesting and heartfelt ... voted up! Thanks for sharing.

  • isenhower33 profile image

    Bobby Isenhower 

    6 years ago from Crothersville, IN

    Very different way of writing but i like it, and i also liked the daughtry and three days grace videos. Both bands have really great songs and them two are def two of my favorites.

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