Four Seasons Without You
I remember it, like it was YESTERDAY.
On January 10th of last year, around nine in the morning, forever you went AWAY.
I begged you not to leave as the wind fiercely BLEW.
You said as much as it hurts, that this is what you needed to DO.
Those words cut me like a KNIFE.
For the last five years you were the focus of my LIFE.
About 15 minutes after you left, I was standing by the window, just STARING.
For you to have a change of heart and come home, I was PREPARING.
That night I barely slept a WINK.
From that moment on, slowly into depression I began to SINK.
Everyday was a blizzard, no glimpse of the SUN.
Not fully realizing that my nightmare had just BEGUN.
Even with the heat on, there remained a CHILL.
Was l losing my mind, because it didn't seem REAL.
I hated you so much, the rage in my tears caused my eyes to BURN.
I wanted you to hurt like I hurt and that one day soon, you'd have your TURN.
Yet, I loved you, thinking that there was no storm we couldn't WEATHER.
No matter how frigid it was we'd make it through the winter TOGETHER.
Around the end of March, I watched as the snow began to MELT.
The beauty of April had arrived, yet it didn't change how I FELT.
April showers bring May flowers is what they SAY.
In despair, I never took in the beauty of the DAY.
As somber music played, I retreated to my ROOM.
Ever so often, I'd peek out the window and notice the red, yellow, purple and green of the flower's BLOOM.
The smallest of things would become sad reminders to ME.
I missed how we'd cuddle while watching TV.
Gentle showers would only add to my PAIN.
One of our dirty little secrets, was how we always made love during the RAIN.
The winter had gone and though I was getting a little better, I couldn't enjoy SPRING.
I was optimistic of what the summer would BRING.
Today is the 7th of JUNE.
Summer has arrived and not a moment too SOON!
This has always been my favorite time of YEAR.
For solace, I went to watch the pelicans and seagulls down at the PIER.
Once again, I see the image of your FACE.
Haunted, because the beach was our much beloved PLACE.
No more winter, freezing temperatures, or shoveling SNOW.
Spring, though beautifully nice, wasn't warm enough for us to GO.
We loved coming here on the Fourth of JULY.
It was funny, how we'd ooh and ah as the fireworks lit up the SKY.
You loved hot dogs and always dipped your Lay's potato chips in ICE CREAM.
At times, we'd spread a blanket on the beach, lie down and DREAM.
Conversations of our future took place as we strolled the shore hand in HAND.
Through out the day we'd play, eat, and build castles in the SAND.
Thinking of this hurts like hell, but it does make me SMILE.
It's now the end of August and I don't plan to return here for AWHILE.
I've made it through the winter, spring, and summer, it is now FALL.
I'm pulling myself together and giving it my ALL.
The fact remains that parts of my life will never be the SAME.
Almost a year later, I get choked up when I look at your picture in that golden FRAME.
My parents say, "get over her and find yourself a new GIRL'"
They say, "son, you're so young, go out and explore the WORLD."
I'm gaining strength more and more each DAY.
Progress had been made and I'm proud of myself if I must SAY.
The weather is so nice and COOL.
I've even thought of going back to SCHOOL.
Friends have been great with their SUPPORT.
I enjoy watching football, my favorite SPORT.
As I look around the brown, red, and green leaves fall from the TREE.
Just like that oak, I will stand tall through it all and become a newer and stronger ME.