ANGELS, GRIEF, BELIEF IN GOD, AND THE AFTERLIFE
A SHARING LETTER FOR
Angels, Belief in God, and the Afterlife
Hello My Reader Peeps!
I am about to Share a letter with you that~
I had wrote to a friend one time on the net~
I wrote the following letter and story to this friend (Blue Wings)~
I wrote it because of Blue Wings sorrowful loss of her Grandmother~
I also included a story of a happening with my Grandmother and her death ~ which I wrote and sent along to comfort Blue Wings in her grief.
Blue Wings is a cyber friend from Japan (a sweet spirit)
I am extremely blessed by Blue Wings to be a part of my circle of friends...
I do hope my dear reader peeps you also may receive some enjoyment, life knowledge, or even comfort in this intended consoling letter.
LETTER TO BLUE WINGS
Dear Blue Wings~
My Heart goes out to comfort your sorrow my sweet pure hearted friend.
BLUE WINGS~I AM SOMEONE WHO ALSO LOVED MY LITTLE GRANDMA SO VERY MUCH LIKE YOU HUN.
MY GRAND MOM STORY
THE FUNNY THING IS Blue Wings~
As time goes on~AS I LIVE MY LIFE~
MANY OF THE THINGS My Grandma DID FOR ME, (LIKE PANCAKES AND TEA AT four AM IN THE MORNING), (BUBBLE BATHS), AND (FRESH CRISP SHEETS FOR MY STAY OVER NIGHT) ARE ALL SO CLEAR AND SPECIAL TO ME "Freshly in my mind being fifteen or more years passed her death."
All those special memories, the smells of fresh bread cooking, Dove soap, Grandma's hand cream, the tin TV tray in front of me while I eat in front of Grandma's television set; fifteen or more years later after Grandma's death are still pleasantly clear in my mind and fill my senses.
All THOSE special Grandma memories are the THINGS I have always LOVED TO DO FOR MY CHILDREN while they grew, AND HOPEFULLY I will someday do the same FOR MY GRANDCHILDREN.
MY GRANDMA'S PHILOSOPHY ON LIFE-
Blue Wings~ I remember there was one time I had been visiting my grandmother in Florida as a young adult., WHEN A CERTAIN RELIGION CAME TO THE DOOR FOR DONATIONS AND my Grandmother GAVE them a donation of money. (WHEN I knew Grandma HAD HARDLY ANY MONEY FOR even HER SELF to live on)-- This is when I questioned grandma and her generosity?
I asked grandma "WHY SHE WOULD GIVE WHEN SHE HAD SO LITTLE MONEY TO LIVE ON and particularly TO A RELIGION SHE DID NOT BELIEVE IN?" You see at that time I was so worried about my grand moms welfare and was narrower minded in my religious beliefs.-
Grandma's reply to my concerned question of her giving kindness would not only change the way I looked at life situations in the future, but also give me a glimpse of a special spirit in my grandma she never showed to others.
Grand moms reply to me was "I DID WHAT JESUS WOULD HAD DOne."
I thought about it, and than understood grandma. I realized grandma was right, Jesus would have gave to them I am sure in that situation.
I realized it is not necessarily what you believe in, not what you say, but how you live with a pure heart and use Jesus as your role model that truly matters
GRAND MOM WISDOM
MUCH OF WHAT MY GRANDMA TOLD ME HAS HELPED ME AND OTHERS HOLD OUR HEADS UP AND WEATHER STORMS THRU LIFE IN MANY DIFFERENT WAYS.
WHEN MY GRANDMA TOLD ME "DEPRESSION IS A GOOD THING IF YOU CAN LIVE THROUGH IT" "BECAUSE YOU WILL BE A MORE KNOWLEDGEABLE, AND A STRONGER PERSON FOR IT", words of wisdom like THESE (GRANDMA PHILOSOPHIES) THAT I REMEMBER HELP ME THROUGH LIFE, AND I TAKE GREAT TREASURED PLEASURE TO BE ABLE TO PASS THEM ON TO OTHERS; HOPEFULLY HELPING THEM IN THEIR LIVES.
THERE ARE SO MANY LITTLE THINGS MY GRANDMA TAUGHT ME FOR MY LIFE THAT I COULD NOT COUNT THEM ALL. EVERY TIME I USE ONE AND REMEMBER WHERE I LEARNED IT, It is as grandma is with me now in the very space and time. These memories CAN COME FROM DOING THE SMALLEST OF THINGS THAT I USE IN MY LIFE; For example~
"TURNING DOWN YOUR BED COVERS TO AIR THEM OUT BEFORE YOU MAKE IT", OR "HOW TO COOK HAMBURGER A CERTAIN WAY", OR "LET YOURSELF HAVE SECRET TREATS FOR PLEASURE and GIGGLE ABOUT THE HARMLESS SECRET", AND "NOT BE AFRAID TO SPEAK AN HONEST THOUGHT".
GRAND MOM and AUNTY MARY SITTING AT The RED LIGHT
ONE DAY MY GRANDMOTHER (A SMALL SCOTTISH LADY), (NINETY FIVE YEARS OLD) WAS SITTING IN A PASSENGER SEAT OF MY AUNT MARY'S CAR AS THEY SAT AT A STOP LIGHT; WHEN SOME TEENAGERS driving from behind DID NOT STOP AND RAMMED MY AUNTS CAR SO HARD IN THE REAR END, THAT MY GRANDMA'S SEAT BROKE IN HALF AND MY WEE LITTLE GRANDMA LANDED IN THE BACK SEAT OF THE CAR ON HER BACK!
THE MEDICS WORKED ON GRANDMA
AS THE MEDICS HAD WORKED ON GRANDMA THEY WERE AT THE END OF THEIR EFFORTS, AND STARTED THE PRONOUNCING OF HER DEATH -THE MEDICS WERE TAKEN ABACK WHEN GRANDMA CAME TO LIFE!
NOT ONLY DID GRANDMA COME TO LIFE WITH THE NORMAL BODILY VITAL SIGNS (ALL-FUNCTIONING) BUT TO THE MEDICS SHOCK GRANDMA CAME TO WITH "HER VERY FEISTY", "EXTREMELY FRANK PERSONALITY" "YELLING AT THEM!
(You see even grandma's feisty yelling always gave me a tickle, as she was so little and cute, her opinionated honest candidness being voiced was to me a wonderful quality, like a breath of fresh air!)
Grandma was very ANGRY WITH the medics!-"LOL" (((WHEN GRANDMA WAS ANGRY AND VOICING HER OPINION THERE WAS NO QUESTION ABOUT HER FORTH RIGHTNESS AND MOOD!)))
GRANDMA SCOLDED AND COMPLAINED IN HER OPEN FORCEFUL BLUNT SCOTTISH ACCENT> ""WHY DID YOU BRING ME BACK!"" ""I WAS WITH THE ANGELS!""
WELL IF ANYONE KNEW MY GRANDMA, THEY WOULD SAY SHE WAS NOT ONE TO MINCE WORDS, LET ALONE COMMENT ON SUCH THINGS AS ANGELS!
THEREFORE, IF GRANDMA SAID SHE HAD BEEN WITH THE ANGELS?~~~""I AM DARN SURE SHE WAS WITH THE ANGELS!""
A CONFORMATION OF ANGELS
I THINK IF SOMEONE IS NOT "A BELIEVER IN THE AFTERLIFE" OR MAYBE "SOMEONE IS QUESTIONING ABOUT THE AFTERLIFE" IN ADDITION TO GRIEVING? "I WOULD THINK AFTER HEARING ABOUT MY GRANDMA'S ANGELS" ANYONE WOULD FIND IT HARD NOT TO HAVE AT LEAST GREAT HOPE IN OUR SPIRITS LIVING ON.
Blue Wings~ AFTER I HEARD GRANDMA'S EXPERIENCE "IT CERTAINLY REITERATED MY BELIEF!" "ESPECIALLY WHEN I PONDERED SOME OF THESE FOLLOWING THOUGHTS ABOUT MY GRANDMOTHERS CHARACTER>
MY MEMORY OF GRANDMA’S CHARACTER & WHY GRANDMA WOULDN’T SAY SO IF IT WASN’T SO!
- v I never knew Grandma to lie.
- v I never knew Grandma to hold her tongue and not be open, honest, blunt, and BOISTEROUS (sometimes excitably) ("of course no fear from such a tiny woman") LOL (Unless she is chasing you and the neighborhood kids with a broom=)LOL
- v Blue Wings~ Imagine~ if you were a little poor Scottish girl from a large family & thru loss & hardships ended up in an orphanage in Scotland, UNTIL WORKING as a maid you worked your way over to America on a ship.
Than FATHOM, you ended up being pretty much a social out cast back then by being married as a Scottish woman to an Italian man. (Even people in churches shunned you!)
Blue Wings Imagine Having 8 to 10 children (give or take losses in infant deaths)
I know anyone with this hard life molding them certainly would have cause to achieve a tuff skin, and have a "be in charge" and not hesitate to voice an open honest thought, when need be "as my grand mom never hesitated to do so". (((LOL)))
WHAT I DO REMEMBER
- v At the same time I remember Grandma not seeming ever to be 1) wishy washy, 2) sentimental, 3) gushy, or ever speaking (that I knew of) -of 5) religion, 6) spirituality, 7) angels, or 8) the afterlife ((Except that one time I saw grandma share her last pennies with the later mentioned religious group at her door)). (((When I think about that one time I mentioned earlier of grandma's givingness, was truly the only time grandma spoke of JESUS (to my recollection), I know if I had not asked the question "why she gave to the religious solicitors?"
I never would had ever known that grandma (like Jesus) would not had turned them away empty handed, but graciously bestow non-prejudicial pure love for them.))) (A thought just popped into my head just now~ "You never know when you might be entertaining angels")
This precious happening turned out to be a small window of opportunity for me to realize, that grandma was using the same pure love that Jesus himself would had given.
I believe this pure love was not only in-grained in my grandma's heart, but also was always hidden from others in words, except for grandma's actions (deeds).
- v I pondered why would someone at grandma's age (of NINETY-FIVE) All of a sudden WOULD BE so admit & angry of having been brought back to life and taken from SOMEWHERE she apparently wanted to be ("with the angels")?
To me ESPECIALLY curious KNOWING my grandma would be a person normally (in my book) never even to say IN even SMALL mentions this type of thing ("being with the angels").
"I can hardly imagine this subject of angels being uttered from grandma's lips" unless it was absolutely true!
WHAT HAPPENED TO GRANDMA?
WELL THEY TOOK My Grandma TO THE HOSPITAL.
GRANDMA WITH HER SCOTTISH BULL HEADINESS INSISTED SHE BE RELEASED TO GO HOME!
Grandma WAS NOT WILLING TO STAY IN THE HOSPITAL! (((Oh, did I mention grandma's independency & stubbornness that helped her live to 95 years old?)))LOL
Grandma was heard to say in her Scottish determined drawl> (((("JUST GIVE ME A LITTLE ASSSSSSPIIIIREEEEEEN AND LET ME GO HOME!" )))) (Now this I certainly have no problem imagining hearing Grandma say!) ((-lol-))
I was told there was no changing grandma's mind, and knowing grandma, I am sure that is an understatement! (-LOL-)
Grandma Staying With Aunty Mary
SO GO GRANDMA DID end up GOing TO MY AUNTS HOUSE RATHER THAN STAYing AT THE HOSPITAL.
Grand mom stayed at my Aunt Mary's for one week before she fell asleep and went with the angels in one of her naps.
AUNT MARY REPORTED
AUNTY MARY REPORTED THE PREVIOUS EXPERIENCES MENTIONED, AS SHE WITNESSED GRANDMA AT THE ACCIDENT SCENE.
AUNTY MARY ALSO KEPT US ALL APPRIZED OF GRANDMAS STATUS FROM THERE ON UNTIL her DEATH.
AUNTY MARY REPORTED THAT~ (even though Grandma at age ninety-five would take naps generally) GRANDMA APPEARED TO BE TAKING UNUSUAL NAPS THAT LASTED LONGER AND WERE MUCH MORE FREQUENT.
AUNTY MARY REPORTED THAT ONE-DAY GRAND MOM JUST SIMPLY PASSED AWAY IN HER SLEEP, (Very likely having small heart attacks or strokes).
I COULD HAD BEEN ANGRY
I am aware I could had been very angry that those teenagers ran that red light and took away my Grandmother prematurely; but how could I hold on to that anger and not let it go, when that anger is much easier to let go of knowing~ "FOR SURE MY GRANDMA IS WITH THE ANGELS!"
PEOPLE WE LOVE, MISS, & STILL GRIEVE OVER
I KNOW MY GRANDMA TRULY IS WITH ME AND WATCHING ME EVERYDAY.
I ALSO KNOW THE SAME WILL BE FOR YOU WITH YOUR GRAND MOM. I AM SURE YOUR GRANDMA "BLUE WINGS" IS ALSO WITH THE ANGELS.
BIG HUGS I GIVE TO YOU MY SISTER, I LOVE YOU, AND KNOW YOUR GRANDMA LIVES FOR EVER IN YOU, AND WHAT YOUR GRANDMA GAVE TO THE WORLD WILL ALWAYS LIVE ON FOREVER EVEN in THE TIME when WE ALL JOIN THE ANGELS... LOVE ALWAYS, LISA LUV
By Lisa Luv "Lisa J. Warner