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Feel home again

Updated on November 22, 2010

It surrounds me. That feeling. I feel it mostly when im alone, and all is quiet. When the darkness has come, and dreams and fantasy escape the cage that locks them up at daybreak.

My soul reaching out to feel anything, almost feels as if it could escape my body. Its reaching for dreams.

Quietly, i sit on the window seat.

I gaze at the moon hovering on high from my dark room, through clear glass.

The wondow pain cracked a little, I feel a warm breeze grace my thighs, and I tilt my head back, and let out a pleasure filled sigh.

Tonight is the night when the dream will come.

When my fantasy will be fullfilled.

I wait patiently knowing that the little death i just felt, is nothing compared to what lies waiting for me in the hours ahead.

Ill be back just before sunrise, but until then, the night is mine.

I lean back against the wall, and close my eyes feeling the night air blanket me.

Finally able to drift, i am almost able to see the gateway.

He is there waiting. Holding out his hand. And i know that for just a little while, ill feel home again.

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      Johnny Love 

      7 years ago

      Good to hear. you do write beautifully.

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      hand on heart.

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      Johnny Love 

      7 years ago

      I find your heart beautiful. There is no escape from that. the way you flow is perfectly unique in eyes as blind as mine. good thing i feel it with my heart.

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      thanx johnny love! i hope you keep reading, im loving your comments of what you think of my work!

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      Johnny Love 

      7 years ago

      The darker shades of passion cry out to my soul. I was lost within a grasp I never asker for. This is so intoxicating. I love it. up and beautiful yet again Pink Lady. WOW!

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      eppi- pretty down today, but i had to smile at that one! lol. thanks for making a horrible day just a little brighter.

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      epigramman 

      7 years ago

      ......a house is only a home when the Pink Umbrella graces us with her poetic thoughts - and keeps our fires burning!!!!!

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      Sa`ge 

      7 years ago from Barefoot Island

      home is where the heart is, so feel your heart my dear, feel your heart and you will find it is where you are at when you are there. Bless you my dear. :D hugs :D

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      lol, thanx zzron. glad being freaky and bizarre means im doing my job, lmao. i try!

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      zzron 

      7 years ago from Houston, TX.

      This was really deep, freaky and bizarre, great job Pink. Hope you had a nice Thanksgiving.

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      what do you mean finally getting started?

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      puresilence 

      7 years ago from New Delhi

      "My soul reaching out to feel anything, almost feels as if it could escape my body. Its reaching for dreams."

      Beautiful and I bow to your imagination.. great choice of picture as well.. it seems you are finally get started..

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      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      Micky Dee- how've you been?! :) Im trying to feel at home, but it seems as though once yuor out of the house you grew up in, home becomes more of a state of mind, or a feeling. This seems to only happen for me when im alone at night and everything is calm. Im trying though, to feel more at home here. My son is with me, so i guess wherever he is, thats home

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      Micky Dee 

      7 years ago

      Be home again my Dear pink umbrella!

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      Cag- wish you could feel the big hug im sending you

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      Cagsil 

      7 years ago from USA or America

      Hey Pink, you keep striving to find what you're looking for and I have faith in you to find it. Usually, it is fear of self to look inside oneself for answers. But, you keep doing it and you'll find the answers you seek to any problem(obstacle) that comes your way. You're intelligent, in a lot of ways, reasoned and have experience. Not to mention, you have people who like you to do better. You're strong enough to pull yourself up above the troubles that find you. And, I hope you realize it. :) Again, it's always a pleasure. :)

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      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      Cagsil- you are always very sweet and complimentery :)

      As of late, i have been having a little trouble with inspiration. As you can see, my 2 newest pieces arent as...shall we say complex? I like this one, though. I guess if im not feeling like im really getting to my core, and i can come up with this from the way i feel, well i guess then im not doing to bad. lol, not completely blocked. :)

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      Cagsil 

      7 years ago from USA or America

      Hey Pink, very sweetly written hub. You seem to always touch on something or another with passion, in such few words. It's always a pleasure to see you writing more. The more I get to learn. Thank you for sharing. :)

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