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Goodbye at Cost

Updated on November 10, 2013
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Goodbye at Cost

By Tony DeLorger © 2013


The risk of loss a panic felt,

when words align with ends,

and I with sight no further,

my soul in pain rescinds.


For hearts held with sticky tape,

tend to bleed much more,

when love stands up to say goodbye,

my cynicism restored.


The sheer panic of being alone once more,

deprives my self esteem,

myself becomes the whipping boy,

some semblance of balance to glean.


Until I find that happy pill,

I am a torn and broken man,

dependant on a gentle touch,

a love that sees who I am.


But now I squirm in my darkness shell,

excruciating life ensues,

where realities hard and razor sharp,

cut deeply a soul to lose.


And as I teeter on that crusty edge,

my mind spinning out of control,

I cling to all that brought a smile,

all the past love that made me whole.


And so I resign to survive my pain,

and rescue hope from hell,

knowing that love is an imperfect state,

too few can make it real.


Even knowing that, I choose to forget,

let time heal those deep and ugly scars,

and perhaps one day I'll be forgetful enough,

to accept love, and know who you are.


Love is an ingredient of life if you let it, but it owes you nothing. Just be happy it is in your life.

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    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Oh so true Wayne. Thank you my friend.

    • wayne barrett profile image

      Wayne Barrett 

      4 years ago from Clearwater Florida

      "better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all"

      good work, sir Tony!

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      John Hansen 

      4 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Raining at the moment, and hopefully will continue for the rest of the week. Needing it badly.

    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      4 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Love and loss are the two sides of one coin, you can't have one without the other. Thanks again Jodah. How's sunny Queensland?

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      John Hansen 

      4 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Very emotive poem Tony. I especially love some of your phrases eg. "For hearts held with sticky tape, tend to bleed much more". We all need love in our lives, but there's always the fear of losing it. Thus a lot of pain. Voted up.

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