Empty room, empty thoughts, and empty sadness. My world changes everyday. A little light in the dark has opened my path. This is my life. Psychology has been a big part of my life. Ever since my grandfather was diagnosed with Alzheimer’s disease, my goal in life was to understand the mind from every perspective possible. But for once this was my little secret. It all started the day you passed away, my life was falling apart. But some how, for some reason I knew the worst of the worst has already begun. Even though you were gone. You were everywhere to me, always. Everything changed when you were gone. I kept asking myself if I could have done something to help you through that disease. I began to blame myself for not understanding what really is behind Alzheimer disease. My relatives never really understood or accepted you had this disease. They blamed us for how you were and how you acted. But it was the disease slowly ending every moment every memory you had. They were angry and annoyed because you weren’t the same or did not remember them. But it wasn’t your fault. I knew we were in your heart. I will never forgive myself for letting them treat you the way they did. You were the only one who understood my mind and how I was. You told me that I was strong, and to never give up. Each day I understand every little thought and words you said to me. I will never forget how you kept going. Because until this day, I still feel you by my side.