In memory of her who needed no support!!!
The journey of giving up smoking is one that I have walked and won.
So I am hoping that this hub will help many others out there also.
I have read endless accounts of giving up smoking and maybe have been very conceited in my time.
I gave up initially about 30 years ago and remember telling anyone who was daft enough to listen to me that I had given up with no aids whatsoever!! I had simply got up one morning and decided that I had had enough of smoking!!
Listeners looked at me in awe as they listened to my story of heroism!!
I did not need any support at all !!!!
I hadn't used the usual silly things that others had :-
Chewing gum; oh how silly and weak!!
Snacking more; oh what next!!
I'm not sure if nicotine patches etc. were on the market here then but if they were my response would have been the same;
Things like that was for softies, not a woman oozing with true grit and determination such as I was.
However I began smoking again in 1994 !!!!
Back in December 2009 myself and Dai spoke about giving up; my beautiful daughter had passed over in the April of that year and I was virtually chain smoking !!!
Oh how I convinced myself that I was perfectly justified in smoking endlessly; I was not on any medication from the doctor and not a drop of alcohol passed my lips.
However deep down I was worried about the large amount of nicotine that I was inhaling !!!
We both decided to go to the doctor the following week for nicotine patches. I reluctantly decided to give them a try but I was adamant that I was not going to any support group , oh no I didn't need all that nonsense, that was for weaklings!!(Notice the conceited air returning once more!!) . We made our appointments mine on the Monday and Dai's on the Tuesday. I arrive punctually at the surgery and walk very confidently into my doctor's room.
"I'm going to give up smoking!" I announced and was lifted as he complimented me on my decision and was instantly deflated as he handed me a card that read the awful words “STOP SMOKING WALES."
Oh no he wanted me to go to one of these support groups, well we'd see about that!
Whatever part of my life I have been at I have always written a poem or a story to draw a line under that chapter and before entering a new one
Here is a story I wrote soon after.