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I miss you

Updated on August 19, 2017

Today is my birthday, I woke up but something was amiss,You weren't here beside me to wake me with a kiss. I miss all those things about you that you used to do. It's not the same since you've been gone, My heart still misses you.

Breakfast in bed and roses, a day off from the things I always have to do, the small things you always did for me, my heart still misses you. I realize now how much I love you, now that you are gone. I miss evrything about you, but now I'm all alone.

Little things I took for granted, the times I left you all alone. I'd give anything to have you back, if you would just come home. I know you don't understand, its hard for me too. But I think in my mind today, "Happy birthday to me... I miss you."

The things I didn't appreciate, the words of love you said, this and more I remember as I'm lying here in bed. There will be no birthday cake, no gifts wrapped up in pink. I remember birthdays past with you, my heart begins to sink.

Happy Birthday to me... I miss you, the times we used to share, the things we used to do. Are you thinking of me today, will you remember me and call? Happy birthday to me...I miss you. Now the tears have begun to fall.

I never meant to hurt you, I don't know what was going through my mind. I know I'll never forget you. My heart thinks of you all the time. Now you're gone and I realize just how much I care, I'd give anything to have you back, just to have you here.

The phone rings and my heart races, will the call be you? Will you tell me that you love me? That you miss me too? Will the mailman bring a card? Will a gift come in the mail? I wait just a few more hours, only time will tell.

Happy birthday to me ...I miss you. I can feel in my heart that you still love me too. I know you won't forget this day, You were always the first, To say happy birthday baby and always hold me close. You were the person that always cared the most.

Happy birthday to me... I still miss you. I'm sorry for the pain I caused, the hurt I put you through. Today of all days I wish that you were here....I can feel your presence next to me, so far, yet so near.

So Happy birthday to me...I still miss you. The best gift I could give to myself is to tell you I love you.

Memories never fade

These past 12 1/2 years have gone so fast, yet so slow. You are home now where you belong once again. I love you and am so glad you are back.

Things are different now. Now when you say "I love you, it is with a sense of urgency" like you want to be sure that I know it. I do. I always have. You came back different. I guess after all that you have been through it takes time to adjust. It has also made me into a different person. I have learned to stand onto stand on my own feet and become independent. Its hard for me to get used to you getting things for me, cooking and serving me. I am often in awe. Yet I thank God for every day for you being here. You are my blessing, my moment of grace.

This year we will celebrate our birthday's together and with Gods blessings many many more. Happy birthday baby. I love you.





Happy birthday to me...I miss you.   Me, you, mom, and dad
Happy birthday to me...I miss you. Me, you, mom, and dad

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    • christalluna1124 profile imageAUTHOR

      christalluna1124 

      8 years ago from Dallas Texas

      Ethel and Itakins,

      I am sorry it is taking me so long to catch up my comments. I have spent the past 4 months in the worst depressive episode I have ever had. i am doing better now. Birthdays are depressing..YUK, I don't even celebrate anymore or even answer the phone.

      warmest regards,

      chris

    • itakins profile image

      itakins 

      8 years ago from Irl

      Christalluna-

      Belated happy birthday to you-I hope it went ok for you.

    • ethel smith profile image

      Ethel Smith 

      8 years ago from Kingston-Upon-Hull

      Wish I was 49 again lol. Its funny how your perceptions chanhe with age. Happy birthday love

    • christalluna1124 profile imageAUTHOR

      christalluna1124 

      8 years ago from Dallas Texas

      Thanks Great American,

      I usually try to just make it through the day. I hit the big 49, lol, half of a 100 years almost. Your not that old, my grandma lived to be 103 years old. Besides that, if you were gone, who would write the great articles that you do.

      Regards, Christal

    • greatAmerican profile image

      greatAmerican 

      8 years ago

      Happy birthday and don't forget

      TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF THE REST OF YOUR LIFE,,

      find good in all your days, when they wind down as

      mine are, each one becomes more valuable..

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