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Having Anxiety

Updated on July 13, 2012

My stomach is plummeting down

My hands won't stop shaking

And my body just keeps quaking

Because my nerves won't stop.

My will to fight is shot.

My legs keep pacing

My heart keeps racing

And soon I am facing

Myself.

In the mirror I meet my own gaze

How I want

How I crave

To see someone else.

But no.

Just those same brown eyes.

The attack takes over

I cannot breathe

My heart clenches

My muscles seize.

My knees buckle

I hit the floor,

But at least I don't see

Those eyes anymore

Panic consumes me

Everything's falling

I scream and I yell,

No one hears me calling.

Suddenly its over

My lungs inhale

My body, still frail

I lift myself up.

It always comes back

No matter how hard I try

And even now that it's passed

I can't face those eyes.

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      IntegrityYes 4 years ago

      That hub is well-written.

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      QudsiaP1 4 years ago

      Ha, I think almost everyone has gone through this feeling. Well done.

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      Ellen Karman 4 years ago from medina, Ohio

      Oh NO, I know that feeling! So sorry you do as well harliquinn!

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      DonkeyKongKiller 4 years ago from Texas

      You're very creative. Anxiety used to not be a problem for me. However in Sophomore year of High School, I moved to a new city. I did not learn how to fit in and I would often get mocked. Several times I would be made fun of by a large group of people and I felt I couldn't defend myself. Like I said, this scenario happened several times. Now whenever I find myself in a group of around 5-7 people, I have a mini panic attack. I'm starting to heal though. I've turned a lot of my experiences into positive thinking and I'm finally getting past that area of my life.

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      harliquinn 4 years ago

      Thank you for the comments. I'm glad there are people who can relate and I hope knowing someone else feels the same helps like it does for me.

      I think positive thinking is the best thing you can do. I still have panic attacks but I've learned how to tell when its about to happen so I can try and calm myself down. I think myself having anxiety is a way I can connect with others though. Sometimes its helpful just knowing someone understands what its like and can even offer advice on what you can do to improve your condition.

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      DonkeyKongKiller 4 years ago from Texas

      It does help. Also what helps is the existance of this poem alone. I shared what I shared with you because I saw that you were willing to expose something personal about yourself to the world. That takes extreme bravery and I respect that.

      I know what depression and anxiety feels like. I know how it can lead you to a place where you don't care about anything. I just want you to know, that with your talent and creativity, there's something you should care about. You shouldn't let things like that go to waste. All positive thinking is, is focusing on certain aspects in your life and ignoring the negative. The good news for you, is based on what I've seen by you, you have plenty of good to focus on.

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      harliquinn 4 years ago

      Well thank you very much. I appreciate the compliment and the exchange of inner self, is the best way I could think to put it :)

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      Joshua Patrick 4 years ago from Texas

      Great hub! I try to strive for contentment on a daily basis, even though it doesn't always work out so well. Don't stop writing!

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