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Broken Me

Updated on November 29, 2015

My world is upside down and I am to blame,

I hang my head to hide my tears and shame,

I am so afraid that I am going to grow old alone,

That I push things way too fast and they always turn out wrong,

I push away people who mean the world to me,

And embarrass myself for the entire world to see,

I want so badly to have someone to hold near,

That I act out on feelings of despair and fear,

I always end up chasing away the one I want,

And at night its my dreams that they haunt,

I wish I could fix it and undo the things I did and said,

But it just isn't possible these things are stuck in my head,

And in the mind of the one I will miss until my dying day,

These things will remain no matter what they say,

I wish I knew how to fix what's wrong with my brain,

Because my heart is weary and full of pain,

I lie awake at night tossing and turning unable to sleep,

And once in awhile from my eyes tears begin to seep,

I feel despair and fear down so deep in my soul,

That I can't concentrate and I lose all control,

I ask for God to please help me and keep me strong,

I am holding on right now but not sure for how long,

Be patient it will happen my friends always say,

All I know is life can't possibly continue this way.

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      Anna Haven 3 years ago from Scotland

      Seen whilst hub hopping, I felt the sadness in the words. Voted up.

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