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How to Get Over the Past?

Updated on February 4, 2021
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The youngest of 10 children, Rosemary started writing as a way to express herself and cope with a diagnosis of bipolar.

Some meaningful pictures to me

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I love the sunsetromanticI drew thisanother sunsetthe kind of way I used to looka purple rose..........we all carry our crosses.......feeling goodgoing down a trailMother Comforter of the Afflicted"Behold I stand at the door (of your heart) and knock"The good shepardmy "baby" Lennythis is mememecover of my autobiograpy
I love the sunset
I love the sunset | Source
romantic
romantic | Source
I drew this
I drew this | Source
another sunset
another sunset | Source
the kind of way I used to look
the kind of way I used to look
a purple rose..........
a purple rose..........
we all carry our crosses.......
we all carry our crosses.......
feeling good
feeling good
going down a trail
going down a trail | Source
Mother Comforter of the Afflicted
Mother Comforter of the Afflicted
"Behold I stand at the door (of your heart) and knock"
"Behold I stand at the door (of your heart) and knock"
The good shepard
The good shepard
Source
my "baby" Lenny
my "baby" Lenny | Source
this is me
this is me
me
me
me
me
cover of my autobiograpy
cover of my autobiograpy | Source

Lost in love.......

:-) Making Love out of nothing at all

Just when I thought I was over you

Ode to Overcoming

I'm so upset

Why am I so?

Has my life had meaning?

Why let "it" go?

God must have meant

something good

to have me suffer

like I said I would...

It wasn't I

who deserved the pain

perhaps it was

the man in the rain

Soon after.....

thus it was my goal...

I was diagnosed

and my life was stole

I felt God close

He was right beside me all the way

All I had to do to feel Him was kneel and pray

~~~~~~~~~~~~

I only tell

this tale of woe

because for some

it must be shown!

that you can feel pain

even with your mind,

and be thought of with disdain,

even though it's not kind.

Why it happened

I don't really know

But now out of this fog

I have come to show

That miracles can happen

That I can be cured

And my "new life"

Is no longer obscured....

I cry for myself

the person I lost

When I prayed to God

on that day of frost

my soul was pierced

with pain so deep

It kept me alive

though it kept me from sleep

~~~~~~~~~~~

I bled from the heart

I bled from the soul

My mind felt torn apart

like a poor wretched soul

I cry for the girl

who was pushed the pills

when all she wanted

was a hug for her ills

A kind person

to heal all her woes

to give her a place to stay

to get over life's bitter throes

he hurt her so bad, though he didn't know why

The emotional pain inflicted

She was fragile, no longer spry

She needed to leave

but a place couldn't find

I weep for the girl

who almost lost her mind

~~~~~~~~~~~~

Medication numbs the person

it chemically numbs the mind

Oh for 18 years

I felt so left behind

Now I'm finally on

a pill that's so real

I'm starting to gain

back what I could not feel

Am I bipolar after all?

Or unjustly medicated

or maybe this pill Lamictal

was all that I needed?

I still do not know

the truth of the matter

what I do know thou

is that I'm feeling better :)

I must be grateful

for this joy I feel

I must forgive

my parents, and deal

~~~~~~~~~~~

Embracing God

is what I need

So pray for me

I'll be happy indeed

+ + + + + + + +

The bonus of it all

is I found love

and here we are...

Somewhere In Time

We fit together

we're geometrically entwined

helping each other

though we're of a different kind

You know what else?!

I'm really proud of me.

I overcame

I'm who I wanted to be

I'm mending problems

I won't repeat "their" mistakes....

I met him and what's cool

is he's given me what it takes!

I've become the person

I want to be

mature and responsible

for my actions you see.....

I'll never give up

you see I never have

Now The future looms near

God only knows

I'm overcome my fears!

I'm so so proud of the person I've become

And now I can say...with this poem, I'm done


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