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I Am Trying To Be

Updated on March 23, 2016
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Steve is a Army Veteran who served from 1986-1992. He is Married with three children. He currently works in the battery industry.

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Taking stock of myself recently it occurred to me.I am not good enough for you.

Though I try to be.

I do not tell you “ I love you” as often as I should.

I do not hold your hand when I could.

I look back and see opportunities missed.

Hugs not hugged, kisses not kissed.

No, I am not good enough for you, but I am trying to be.

As I look inside myself for these words the tears fall.

As my mistakes that caused you pain crash through my mind and soul one and all.

I am saddened by the mistakes made early in my life.

Now long gone, but still causing strife.

Sometimes I am ashamed that I that I took you for my wife.

Not because of any fault found in you. But the pain you went through for loving me.

I could never be good enough for you. But I will always try to be.

It is your love that tortures and uplifts me at the same time.

I can not live without it, but taking sometimes feels like a crime.

I am the thief that comes in the night. Taking from you that to which I have no right.

You are the gracious benefactor that beckons me to your light.

My darling can you not see?

I am not good enough for you. But I am trying to be.

I never meant to hurt you. I know I have many times.

I know that I can not heal those wounds with these rhymes.

What I can and will do is be by your side for as long as you will have me.

I am not good enough for you, perhaps I never will be.

For as long as you allow it. I will, I must, continue to try to be.


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