Daily I expire, through my heart, my soul, my everything. Today is not unlike another, a reminder that I am still here and he is not. My beloved. My cherished pet. My friend. Death hath claimed you and I forever dream to be at your side. I try, but time and time again I fail. They will not let me, they say I have purpose here and that I cannot leave, no matter how it's the only thing I care about. A stand still creeps into my life and this is war. War between myself and the Angels from above. The ones who keep bringing me back into a world that I hate, a place where you no longer breath. I just want to hear your heartbeat, feel your tender touch. My soul craves your and as it does it does little by little secretly. My scars tell how many attempts I've dared tried to be with you again. Time for another tally.