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I Forgive You - Heart Break

Updated on December 31, 2014
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Maurice Bishop, a powerful, spoken word Poet currently serving in the United States Army. Published Author & Motivational Speaker.

Every time I wake up next to her I feel broken and old, better yet cold,

As if my body was froze and being caught in an avalanche buried under the snow.

When she kisses me the blue skies explode causing my body to fold,

Lynching my heart for the whole world to show.

So you mind as well cremate me because the acid from her tongue drowns my soul.

I can't be close to her, because she like thorns piercing my eyes, knives piercing my side.

Her lies are like deadly venom that can make angels fall from the skies.

I can't be in the same room with her, I have to be outside to stay alive,

Because me breathing her air is like breathing in carbon monoxide.

I thought she loved me but I guess it was lust.

Because she slept with another man so I became a memory lost in the dust.

She took my heart and squeeze it til it bust,

So whatever remains left in her hands, she put it in the toilet to flush.

She poison our relationship, chopped the T off of Trust so the beauty I once saw turned into rust,

And all I want to do is squeeze her tight til every single bone in her body crush.

And every time I think of her my stomach turns inside out in disgust.

I forgive her

I knew her since we were teens.

I treated her like a queen.

Bought her clothes and the latest jeans.

Gave her things she never had and show her things she never seen.

We been through storms after storms but overcame as a team.

I loved her for her, I was the man of her dreams.

But she substituted me with another man.

Her love paralyze me I can barely stand.

And the hate I feel towards her, you wouldn't understand.

I want to strangle her soul til her soul dies in my hands.

I hate her, but yet I'm missing her.

My love can kill her because I'm so dangerously in love with her.

My blood burns with rage because I took care of her son that wasn't even mine.

Holding her son in my arms at 2 in the morning because he cried all the time.

I spoiled him, treat him as if he was mine,

So how can I leave her if the thought of losing her son runs in my mind?

But if I had custody of him I wouldn't be able to leave the past behind.

Because me looking at his face kills me, I rather take care of him blind.

I will not let her hold me back or be trapped in my sorrow.

Because God is good anyway and there's hope for tomorrow.

Maybe God has another woman in store for me.

And if so I'll be waiting patiently and still,

Because I'm focus on something that's real.

In spite of everything I forgive her with all my might.

I pray for her and her son before I go to sleep at night.

In spite of everything , I forgive her.


Blood on Paper
Blood on Paper

Blood on Paper is an emotional and heartfelt poetic pieces that ministers the gospel of Jesus Christ to the hearts, minds, and souls of the urban youth. Maurice 'Wisdom' Bishop powerful and poetic words takes you on a journey of his past experiences, the lives of others, and illustrating stories to show you God's love for us; as well as those who reject him. His powerful and anointed words will cause you to examine your own life and make a decision that will change your life forever. Maurice 'Wisdom' Bishop was born and raised in South Philly. He is currently serving in the United States Army and is deployed to Iraq. He will be back in the states this year. Before he joined the army, Maurice performed his poetry in churches as well as other places such as; Drexel University, World Live Café, YMCA Recreation Center, 2006 Youth Poetry Slam at the Free Library of Philadelphia (Semifinalist), etc. Although deployed to Iraq, Wisdom performed at the Memorial Hall Talent Show; as well as Talil Chapel Christmas Concert. Wisdom words are powerful, anointed, inspiring and life changing.

 

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    • wisdom25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 

      6 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thanks for the comment. Much love and respect

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      Jessee R 

      6 years ago from Gurgaon, India

      Beautifully written painful verse! All throughout the verse, I felt frantic with emotion and pain... and every powerful feeling yob portray so wonderfully in your words!

      Brilliant poetry!

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      MsKrysma 

      6 years ago

      I can relate to the emotions in this poem. It can be so hard to forgive someone who did you wrong.

    • wisdom25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 

      6 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thank you CMCastro for the comment. I was telling Deborah that it was hard for me to forgive. I'm still shock that she did what she did but I'm over it. I have a wife now that loves me and is faithful to me. Much Love and Respect to you.

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      Christina M. Castro 

      6 years ago from Baltimore,MD USA

      I understand what pain in a relationship is. Just being in a relationship where love is lost is not much of a relationship at all. Trying to fix something with someone who doesn't want to change can be frustrating. But I understand the power of forgiveness, and how it is an opportunity for second chances. Personally, I am going through that right now. You have to let go and let God take care of everything.

    • wisdom25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 

      6 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thank you cleaner for the comment. I'm always please that you come to read and comment my poems. Much love and respect

    • wisdom25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 

      6 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thank you Deborah for the comment. It wasn't easy to forgive her but I did.

    • wisdom25 profile imageAUTHOR

      Maurice Wisdom Bishop 

      6 years ago from San Tan Valley

      Thank you KD for this comment. I am glad you enjoy this poem. Much love and respect.

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      KDuBarry03 

      6 years ago

      Heart-wrecking and yet heartwarming at the same time. You have really done yourself a great justice choosing the right words to convey such a tedious feeling for this poem :) Very well done; voted up!

      -KD

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 

      6 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      Oh so beautiful and sad.. I am so glad you can forgive her.

      Awesome poem.

      I am sharing on Facebook

      Debbie

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      cleaner3 

      6 years ago from Pueblo, Colorado

      great heartfelt words . strong emotion with a love that will never die. yes, when you get close to a child it makes it that much harder to leave the past behind beautiful write

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