I Loved Her Enough!
So days passed by, and we had grown pretty close to each other, we shared every little things. Every little things mattered to us. I felt rejuvenated every time I talked to her. So 24/7 I had that feeling. We started talking even in college but having a conversation direct looked little awkward. We signalled each other and then beamed with immense pleasure.
I moved hither and thither but in group, we knew every little secrets of each other but somehow I managed keeping this secret from my peer group who would at times feel themselves as Sherlock Holmes! They would interrogate me on why I smiled for no reason and every time I survived these 9/10 Sherlock Holmes at a time.
As always she would be with her group in ground and Oh! I would be there already ready for a friendly football kick off. At times I would be showing skills and every time I felt she was just looking at me. And then when I turned around to see her, she would be busy with her group.
That Ting! Ting! Which I waited fervently was my biggest enemy! But we all are servants of time, so I couldn’t go against time. Maybe she knew it or was it just what I thought, she would lean back slightly and give me a smile. The next second, I would be frolicking around.
That was kind of daily routine for us. But the time had come for me to leave college soon. I wasn’t happy at all. But she kept me cheering up! She promised to be there always and I promised to be there for her like a shadow!
It was my Chemistry Practical. I had a day shift examination. But I forgot to let her know of that. I met my friends from morning shift, they let me know of how she was looking hither and thither for me! I didn’t regret that then, I was on cloud nine. I was there with my friends where she sat usually, she did come with her friend, But I didn’t call her, I wanted her to notice me. She did turn back and was saying something but I had no idea what she was talking about! Maybe we were habituated of signalling each other. So I forgot what real conversation actually looked like. She then bid me good luck while her friend constantly trying to move her ahead forcefully, I just smiled.
Days passed by and it was time for my boards. Maybe God knew I used my gadget more than necessary, I was helping her with her practical, I got my mobile broken. It just fell off my shorts. I was crestfallen! I couldn’t ask for a new one, I had my boards on way. But even God couldn’t stop me, I found ways of texting her. It was IPL time so I would be watching games but then when my parents locked their doors , would connect internet on TV and then open Face Book. Uff! It took 10 minutes to type a single message. I would at times sneak to ensure I don’t get caught.
My parents were leaving for Manakamana next day but I avoided the visit. I had an excuse already ready. I have to prepare hard for my boards, so I can’t join you guys. I will go some other day. It was really hard convincing them but no things come to you easily. You have to work for it. I had a desktop which I used at times but that day I was all alone. So I made full use of that. But She had Internet problems and that didn’t turn out that well. I took my mom’s mobile often and texted her and then would immediately logout.
Days passed by the same way. I found an old gadget not in use. I had to help her with her exams. So not to get caught, I would go washroom and then ask her questions on various topics. She would answer them, I would correct her mistakes.
I had to leave for my works to village. I was going there for 2nd time in my entire life. I was excited about it but I had to find ways to text her with dad sitting around, I felt uneasy. And She had her boards, It was hard for me to help her, there was rarely network available but somehow I helped her with her essays, confusions she had till 1 in the evening and woke up early at 5 to see if she had some other confusions and would bid her good luck. She did have a confusion and I tried my best to help her but I couldn’t send her answer. Network once more betrayed. I prayed that day and the question didn’t come in exam. On hearing that I felt relieved.
Days passed by, all things were going good. One early morning I checked her text as usual but that day I got a text from her all of a sudden, “You have to get over me and for that we need to stop talking!” I was kind of shocked what happened actually? We didn’t part our ways then. We talked the same way
But it was never same like before! I tried best to make things look like before but I failed. We don't talk anymore like we used to do.
We finally blocked each other for good. But I miss her every single day.
Samip, Where are you?
Yes, Momma coming!
What were you busy with ?
I was reading “I loved her enough to let her go!” By Dr. Samip
Where did you find this?
I found it in your safe.
She looked at it and beamed with immense pleasure.
Sam: Momma, Why are you smiling for no reason?
She: Smile is the best thing that you can do with your lips , my dear son !
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