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I Was That Girl

Updated on January 25, 2017

I once was that girl

Who nobody understood and took for granted

I once was that girl

That played the part to fit in

I once was that girl

The naïve girl who foolishly trusted him

I once was that girl

Who started drinking with a so-called friend

I once was that girl

who thought you would never hurt me

I once was that girl

Who cried "NO" and put up a fight

I once was that girl

Who let tragedy ruin and run my life

I once was that girl

That blamed myself and felt ashamed

I once was that girl

That held her tongue and denied I was in fact "Raped"

I once was that girl

Who was afraid to go to sleep because of the nightmares

I once was that girl

Whose soul felt broken inside

I once was that girl

Who hated you

I once was that girl

But now I am a woman

I once was that girl

But now I am strong

I once was that girl

But now I am not



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    • Michael-Milec profile image


      8 years ago

      Significantly correct : everyone coming to The Lord Jesus , asking in faith, will receive total healing. HalleluYAH

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      Rochelle Ann De Zoysa 

      8 years ago from Moratuwa, Sri Lanka

      This really made me think. You have written so well that it made me very sad. I really do hope and pray that whoever has gone through this kind of bad experience be healed emotionally and spiritually as well as mentally. God bless you!

    • prettynutjob30 profile imageAUTHOR


      8 years ago from From the land of Chocolate Chips,and all other things sweet.

      Thank you Michael for commenting and I hope you have a wonderful evening.

    • Michael-Milec profile image


      8 years ago

      Thanks prettynutjob30. It's so good to hear from you; we do like (I do) what you're writing .

      Even you've said in your intro. .." I really don't care " -- this is what you're telling me , " I DON'T CARE, BECAUSE I DO CARE " (mmilec/010) mine expressin to all of "you" out there , since it's essential for me ' n o t to c a r e ' for my " reputation sake " what you've to say objecting or not, because I'm saying is benefiting you.

      That's your mission, sister, that's " our " 'job' -- mission .

      Thanks for reading this.

      [ please, if you be kindly including the name of individual commenters for "record " control, LATELY some missing, omission of HP work is reported, many complain about . Tanks again .]

      My name is Michael, new in this, willing to learn more ...

      God bless you

    • prettynutjob30 profile imageAUTHOR


      8 years ago from From the land of Chocolate Chips,and all other things sweet.

      Thank you guys for the comments, I used to let the guilt I felt inside eat me up. Forgiving and choosing to move on with my life is what has helped me the most.

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      Tijani Achamlal 

      8 years ago from Morocco

      Am I right ,it didn't happen to you? This is just fiction ,right??

      Anyway,no matter how it happened, r..p.. is frightening and traumatizing. People who have been r..p..d need care, comfort, and a way to heal.

      For some people,they like to report the crime immediately and fighting to see the brought to justice. For others ,they like to seek medical or emotional care without reporting it as a crime. Every person is different.

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      Devika Primić 

      8 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

      No one would ever know unless they have experienced the ordeal. However, the poem says it all.

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      Madeleine Salin 

      8 years ago from Finland

      I liked this very much even if the message is horrible.

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      Dianna Mendez 

      8 years ago

      There are a few women I know who have been raped and kept silent about it. They lived in pain for years. Your words paint a picture of the feelings and gives hope.

    • Michael-Milec profile image


      8 years ago

      A very much needed, powerful message.

      Not many man do have courage to read this type of painful testimony, describing their subhuman uncontrollable instinct to " kill."

      Your story needs to be shared, told and heard especially for man to realize, that their role by the Creator is to be leaders and role models,

      ( " the priests of the household " ) not a brutal murderers...

      My heart rejoices on your last line," I once was... Now I'm not."


      Up, and wonderful .

      Shalom. MichaEL

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      8 years ago

      This is an incredibly powerful hub. If only young women would realize their self worth and be very pro-active in protecting themselves, hideous things like rape might not happen as often as they do. Up and awesome.

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      8 years ago from Daytona Beach, Florida

      Voted up. Powerful and honest. Way to go. No woman should take something like that and not speak out.

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      Jonathan McCloskey 

      8 years ago from Cinnaminson, New Jersey

      We show wisdom when we avoid a bad situation, strength when we overcome one. Great poem with strong emotion.

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      Martin Kloess 

      8 years ago from San Francisco

      Thank you for this wonderful reflection.

    • prettynutjob30 profile imageAUTHOR


      8 years ago from From the land of Chocolate Chips,and all other things sweet.

      Thank you guys for your comments.

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      8 years ago from Kentucky

      Strong in every way! Like Bill, I don't know if it's based on experience or not, but it speaks loudly for all to witness. Really well done ... and needed.

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      Peg Cole 

      8 years ago from North Dallas, Texas

      Hello Prettynutjob. Succinct and truly meaningful. I'm so sorry this happened. I can empathise and hope that this tragic act of violence did not "ruin and run" your life. I remember feeling responsible because I accepted the invitation and walked into a trap. I held my accusations in check when I should have screamed like bloody murder. Who knows how many others he caught?

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      Thomas Silvia 

      8 years ago from Massachusetts

      A well written and awesome poem ! Well done !

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      Maria Magdalena Ruiz O'Farrill 

      8 years ago from Borikén the great land of the valiant and noble Lord

      prettynutjob30 this is a wow!!!! poem. You have my heart sending tears all over my face. There is hope and you have send a positive message with sad words. Great picture that makes a lovely partnership with the poem. Voted up, across and sharing.

    • prettynutjob30 profile imageAUTHOR


      8 years ago from From the land of Chocolate Chips,and all other things sweet.

      Thank you janshare and ladyfiddler for your comments, I almost didn't write this but something inside told me I should. So many women live in fear after being raped and just let the pain keep building up inside for fear of being shamed.

    • prettynutjob30 profile imageAUTHOR


      8 years ago from From the land of Chocolate Chips,and all other things sweet.

      Thank you billybuc for your comment. The one thing that I have learned from growing and forgiving is that admitting something has happened is the first step in helping one move on with their life.

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      Joanna Chandler 

      8 years ago from On Planet Earth

      hmmm being rape is a very tragic incident and what you said is through. I am sorry to hear about this evil deed that someone did to you if it's a true poem, there are too many women out here for a man to go raping or pouncing on some woman to rape her.

      Well all the things you did to fit in i am glad you are no longer that way, GOD can heal you of all your past and present impurities eh just lean on Him and not on your own understanding.

      Take care

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      Janis Leslie Evans 

      8 years ago from Washington, DC

      Someone else will read these words of courage and speak up, maybe sooner than later. God bless you for sharing this poem. Awesome.

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      Bill Holland 

      8 years ago from Olympia, WA

      I have no idea if this is true or just a poem, but it makes no difference. Since I am a man, there is no way for me to say "I understand." I can't. All I can do is have compassion for anyone who has had to endure this horror. Thank you for sharing this important....very important...message.


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