I believe its time for me to fly
Yes, I've borrowed the title from an REO Speedwagon song because it keeps going through my head over and over again. I need a vacation so badly. Just to get away, no stress, to enjoy some new scenery, to be anonymous, to write, and just not worry about being the consistent responsible ME for a while - I know that where ever you go you take you with you....but there is also a feeling of being able to transcend your stressful, responsible, uptight self.
I want to start this hub with a song...this one was a favorite of mine back in the 90's. My little sister and I went on a roadtrip across the country and we'd sing this at the top of our lungs whenever it came on the radio...
Heads Carolina, Tails California
I believe its time
To set a new course for the wild frontier
Listen to the winds of change and set my sail
Usher out the old worn ways
The rose colored glasses I’ve hidden behind
And look life in the face and see it for what it is.
It’s time, past time
I’m much too old to be starting anew
But this is the hand I’ve played and
Now is the time to leave the table and get back to the daylight
Life is waiting, time to reengage.
There’s a road out there waiting for my wheels
Leading to the next place where I’ll make my home
I hear it in the North Wind – this time, it’s the last time
“You need to put down roots and hold on tight
Settle down and build a life
watch what blossoms all around
Let it all find you this time,
life doesn’t have to be so hard.”
And I shudder with an unfamiliar feeling
This gypsy wants to dance and follow the moon
But there’s nothing there for me now.
It would be my undoing.
Perhaps one day the Earth shall loosen its grip and the Moon will cry out
But those are just dreams and remnants of a time that I lived in a while ago
I’m not sad, I’m not longing for something else
I’m looking forward to a new adventure which will challenge me in a whole new way
Staying in one place may be the hardest thing I’ve ever done
No, it will be the hardest thing I’ve ever done.
And the responsibilities that accompany it will at times feel claustrophobic.
For a child of the mountains and oceans,
Who danced through valleys and soared in the clouds,
There is grace and beauty in a new mantra – Be Still.
I thought I would explain why I've published another highly personal piece when normally I don't...it's because I feel so much better after writing it. Freedom, if you will, and if it helps another person to read it, then it was worth it to share.
I wrote this piece after I made my summer vacation plans. I felt much better knowing I'd have a place to go to relax and just get everything together before moving forward into my next adventure. I'm calling the next phase "Be Still" - in everything I've studied about spirituality- enlightenment, true guidance, God/Goddess, your higher self, natural energy, etc. is best reached through prayer, meditation, asking for guidance and genuinely trusting in some energy outside of yourself to show you direction. Not man but something spiritual. I'll be living my life in the best way I know how with a concentration on "Be Still and Listen".