I should've listened
I should’ve listened
When she told us to move
All I did was disapprove
Just us three
Imagine now how it’d be
I should have listened
At the thought, her eyes just glistened
She would have got away from her aching
I should have been the first to start packing
But I didn’t know. I was young and dumb
All I wanted is to have fun
How could I have known?
I was too high up on my throne
She was a wonderful woman
He was no loving man
She was gorgeous, too.
And his jealousy just grew
But me, being young and dumb
Had no idea what would come
I only cared about my life
Not about any husband and wife
I couldn’t imagine it otherwise
But boy, was I surprised
Really, adults should know better
And now all I have is her lovely letter
Now I just play it back in my head.
Over, and over again.
For 11 years.
I’ve shed so many tears,
I know it’s not my fault.
My whole life came to a halt
But, what could I know?
I was just a child, feeling so low
But there’s always the “what if’s”
And why’d he go over the cliff?
And the “what could have been’s”
And how could he have sinned?
Thoughts that’ll never go away.
But today, is a better day
From so young, I came to understand
That life isn’t all that grand
And even after all these years of guilt
I’ve still managed to try to build
A lovely life full of happiness
From the prior dark sadness
And him, with all the assault
I realize it wasn’t my fault
I just wish I could just go back
Listened to her and just packed
Maybe she would have been here
And I wouldn’t have to shed a tear
And no one would have fought
And then maybe he wouldn’t have to rot
But what’s done is done
She’s now on her lovely throne
And I’m just here on my own
There’s no turning back
That period of black
It Will never go away
Oh, why couldn’t they have stayed?
The answers, I’ll never know
But I still love them so
Comments
I played the woulda shoulda coulda game for decades....and it simply does not good at all. Great poem with a message most of us can relate to.
great poem, and a clear message,
voted up
- Author
yea I think at one point or another everyone plays the woulda shoulda game, as long as we realize its not healthy then its okay I guess!
Thanks billybuc and girishpouri for reading and for your comments!! :)
very nice write.
- Author
thanks!
This is a really good poem. I'm glad I read it.
- Author
Thanks Ryem, glad you passed by :)
A emotive poem written through the eyes of a more-matured individual who has taken note of a life's lesson.
We all have those times in our lives when we should have listened but chose not to. The hardest part is being able to forgive our-self for our life's regrets made as a result of our own decision making.
Dealing with parents that are always fighting is very hard, and something like this is a nightmare. The guilt eats at you, but you have to let it go, because its not your fault. Very nice expression!
Beautifully written, full of regrets and pain but there's no going back, life gives us lessons to learn although painful they mould us and make us the human beings we eventually becomes.
Although you were so very young then, you seem to have grown into an exceptional human being.
This is a really good poem... I find myself lost for words! Voted up and stuff, Jen
Beautiful poem with so much wisdom for such a young person. You are a real poet. Regrets and pain is an important part of our emotions, that propel us to better places. Thank you for an inspirational work of art.
- Author
Thank you everyone for your kind and wonderful comments :D
Voted up and awesome. Unfortunately between all the should've and could've beens there is no going back. So well put.
- Author
Yep, no going back! thank you for the read Gypsy !
Emotional, sorrowful poem. The story that happen to echo in many of us... Beautifully done.
Real life is far more heart wrenching than fiction. The tension and build up of your poem was dramatic. I kept wanting to jump in and save you.
- Author
@ BeyondMax, thank you, I think many people can relate to this
@tirelesstraveler, I'm already saved don't worry! Lol, thanks for reading!
Very touching poem...
- Author
Thank you very much TheQuietwarrior
Awesome Poem!!! Very Powerful and Emotionally Written!!
- Author
thank you very much for the comment Patty!:)
Hi, i like how yo write, and you are very good at writing poems, believe it or not.... i write to, but none are on my hubpages. could you read my writings?
Thank you, Repub.
- Author
Thank you for your generous comment The Republican, you should put your poems on hubpages! I will definitely check your writings out and if you post your poems I'l be happy to read them! I don't consider myself a poet or anything but I do like to write them for some reason, hehe. Thanks for passing by my hubs :)!
You've grown to the point where you can share your feelings and express your personal truth. You love with our without answers to your questions. Keep on moving ahead with faith and prayer. Beautiful expressions!
- Author
Thank you MsDora, I will keep moving ahead like you say. Thank you for your encouraging comment :)
I definitely voted up. You are talented and gifted.
27