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I think I should kill myself

Updated on July 22, 2011

- Do you think I am weird? Do you think I should change? Is it wrong to be weird and can you define weird?

He keeps quiet.

- I think different. I act different. But that doesn't make me weird. It makes me alive. You see? If you are someone else, if you can be someone else, or act like they are programming you, the environment has made a scheme and you can jump in it and act happy, but happy in a way everyone expect you to be and when someone is out of the scheme when someone is not a fucking program you are programmed to tell him: Why are you so fucking weird? Fuck you, robots!

He keeps quiet.

- I am weird because I love art and art can't be and won't be a scheme. I am weird beacuse life is beautiful. I am weird because I am alive and I know what life is. And you robots can't touch me and you never will.
I am weird because I think.
You see? If I kill myself I would be accepted in your society.

He then started to cry and went to the bathroom.
After that, I never had conversations with drunk strangers.


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      happy mummsy 

      7 years ago

      "weird" is a foolish person's definition of being "unique" -- i wld rather be weird in the eyes of the fool than loose my unique-ness in compliance with what others think is mundane ^.^ nice read, thanks for the share ~ m

    • Alexander Props profile imageAUTHOR

      Alexander Props 

      7 years ago

      That´s right. That´s the point.

    • Phil Plasma profile image

      Phil Plasma 

      7 years ago from Montreal, Quebec

      No, I can't define weird. I'm not sure that anyone can.

    • MattyLeeP profile image


      7 years ago from Tucson, AZ

      I liked it, different, but that encourages me to talk to strange drunks.

    • Extinct Soul profile image

      Extinct Soul 

      7 years ago from 14°35'N 121°0'E

      good read, a cavity for the brain..

      She keeps quiet.

    • Alexander Props profile imageAUTHOR

      Alexander Props 

      7 years ago

      haha, that is the best comment so far

      In this one, I really tried to wash of all his influence of me but it looks like I failed :D

    • BukowskiBabe profile image


      7 years ago from Somewhere in the middle of it all.

      Sounds like Buck...I like it.


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