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If I didn't have tomorrow

Updated on May 25, 2013

I hope I am always here-but in case I am not- I want them to remember I was.

I want to be there for sick days
I want to be there for sick days | Source
I want to see the silliness
I want to see the silliness | Source
To watch as they learn about the earth
To watch as they learn about the earth | Source
and as they learn to get along and love each other.
and as they learn to get along and love each other. | Source
I have always known...that they will always win-and I am okay with that...
I have always known...that they will always win-and I am okay with that... | Source
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If you do not know what really matters, maybe it's time to figure it out?

If I could no longer wake up
To the sun shining on my face
It doesn’t take me a life time
To know what I would miss.

It wouldn’t be; Late nights at the office
Or dinner with my friends
Or climbing the corporate latter-
And hoping Ill fit in.

If I didn’t wake tomorrow
What I fear the most
Is leaving my children in a world
That can be frightening and cold.

I'm scared that they won’t remember
Or ever really know
Who their mother was
And they were her whole entire world.

A tear falls from my eyes
When I sit back and think
How amazing they will someday be
Even without me

She will be beautiful and strong
And follow what’s in her heart.
He will be gentle and kind
And bring new meaning to what it is to be smart

I pray that they will know
What is right and what is wrong
And when integrity is on the line
They won’t put theirs in jeopardy

I hope people who knew me will tell them stories
But leave the bad parts out
Focus on the way I love them
And because of them-I was never made to do without

I hope that they will know
That they made me whole
And when I thought that I would fall apart
Their smiles gave a new story to be told

Never in my life
Could I have wished for anything more
Than to be apart of who they are
They are everything in life I adore.

There will never be enough pictures taken
Or enough words that can be sung
For me to be satisfied that they will always know
Who I was.

So while I am still breathing
I make a packed with myself
That as long as I am on this earth
They are what matters and everything my life is about

Others will have to wait
I do apologize
But sometimes you have to take a moment
To stare at stars and sing lullabies.


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    • temp_inizer profile image

      temp_inizer 

      8 years ago from Noida (India)

      very beautifull poem you have written with nice photographs, I voted up...

    • H.C Porter profile imageAUTHOR

      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      Veronica Allen

      thanks for the comment- I think that as a mother/ we worry more about what we do not know than what we do know for sure...the uncertainty in tomorrow for our children makes us more high strung and nervous than anything...

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      Veronica Allen 

      8 years ago from Georgia

      You've put into words so eloquently; how most mothers feel about their children and what life would be like if they left them behind. This is a great reminder for all of us to live our lives with our children to the fullest and make everyday count. - I love the pictures.

    • H.C Porter profile imageAUTHOR

      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      LaurieDawn,

      Thank you Ma'am, for reading and commenting on another hub- I am glad that you have liked a few of the poems I have written. I am not sure if I should say sorry for the tears... but am glad, if nothing else they were happy tears.

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      LaurieDawn 

      8 years ago

      How beautiful, such adoring little faces, and the words you put to the love you have is fantastic! I have read a lot of poetry, this one brought tears to my eyes, not in a bad way, but in beauty, the beauty of a mother.

      Thank you for sharing that with us. I love the last picture of innocence, them looking up at their mother, trusting and loving.

      Blessings,

      Laurie

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      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      gachapoz-

      thanks so much for the comment- I appreciate the feedback and you taking the time o read my work.

    • H.C Porter profile imageAUTHOR

      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      doug turner- Thanks for the comment, I am glad that you enjoyed the poem :)

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      gachapoz 

      8 years ago

      Beautifully written! Words felt like they came straight from the heart.

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      Doug Turner Jr. 

      8 years ago

      Nicely written and very personal. Reminds me of the importance of family. Thanks for sharing.

    • H.C Porter profile imageAUTHOR

      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      saddlerider-

      that was probably the best compliment I have received on this poem-because you commented from your heart and the pain that has been created due to situation and circumstance. thank you for your comment- I will do just as you have suggested...always love and focus on them.

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      saddlerider1 

      8 years ago

      I have been estranged from 3 of my 4 children for many years, although I know they never will forget me, they have no desire to be part of my life and that is sad for me and I know for them.

      I pray that you stay tight and close to your children, never ever let them leave your life. Keep the glue of LOVE stuck on you and your husband. Always make your children the main focus in your life and life will reward you all with a closeness only angels have with God. Peace and hugs words can not express how beautifully you worded this. Bravo

    • H.C Porter profile imageAUTHOR

      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      thanks ken- i am so glad you were able to read and comment. and happy that you liked it :) your comments are always so uplifting and encouraging-thank you!

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      Ken R. Abell 

      8 years ago from ON THE ROAD

      Beautiful, simply beautiful. Thank you for sharing straight from your heart. Thumbs up & awesome.

    • H.C Porter profile imageAUTHOR

      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      samsons1

      thank you-thank you :)

      i hope that they wont-and that they will always know what they did to make my life better. thanks for your kind comment and reassurance :)

    • H.C Porter profile imageAUTHOR

      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      Eiddwen- thank you so much. i know you know exactly what i mean with this one-in regards to how much we love our children. thank you for leaving a comment :)

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      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      mtsi1098

      thanks for the compliment- I am surely glad you think so :) the comments on my hubs gives me reassurance when I begin to doubt myself-so it is much appreciated :)

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      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      carrie450- Hello Ma'am-I hope you are feeling well. Thanks for stopping in and reading another hub of mine-I appreciate the feedback and your kindness

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      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      Cagsil- Thanks hun...you are too sweet, and I always look forward to your uplifting comments. Thank you so much :)

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      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      Hi Toolman...and No, that isnt uncle Jim... :) thanks for reading :)

    • H.C Porter profile imageAUTHOR

      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      Nan- and I hope I am around for awhile, and that they will always feel the love I have for them. Thanks for reading and for commenting

    • H.C Porter profile imageAUTHOR

      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      Mike- thank you for your kind words...I hope you are right. :)

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      Sam 

      8 years ago from Tennessee

      voted up & beautiful! Well written, lovely poem. With the love you have for them , they shall 'ner forget...

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      Eiddwen 

      8 years ago from Wales

      Beautiful words, thank you so much for sharing.

      Take care.

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      mtsi1098 

      8 years ago

      well done H.C and just another great read...You have a great way of expressing yourself (must be that Texas blood - lol)...Great hub voted many ways...

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      carrie450 

      8 years ago from Winnipeg, Canada

      This is a beautiful heartfelt poem you have wtitten

      H.C Porter. I enjoyed reading it.

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      Cagsil 

      8 years ago from USA or America

      Hey Holly, that was perfectly said. Nothing more to say. I'm not a parent so I really don't have any of the feelings you relay in your writing, but your feelings are conveyed in a very heart-felt and deep manner that it couldn't be missed. Thank you for sharing a piece of yourself. As always, it's a pleasure to know you. :)

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      toolman0606 

      8 years ago

      Is that Uncle Jim in the last picture? lol As usual little one great writing skills.

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      Nan 

      8 years ago

      HC I think that you will be around for awhile! Life is short for all of us, and we live each day as if was our last. Please focus on your kids and continue to fill their days with happiness.

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      Mike Lickteig 

      8 years ago from Lawrence KS USA

      Very wonderful words, as always. Your children will never forget you and the love you feel for them. They may become caught up in life's moments, but like you, they will always remember what is important. Your love for your family is so beautiful. Take care.

      Mike

    • H.C Porter profile imageAUTHOR

      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      ahorseback,

      lol- they 's the truth...and they know their power as well, and often use it to control me and get their way :) Thanks for the comment-it was perfect :)

    • H.C Porter profile imageAUTHOR

      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      lorlie6,

      thanks Ma'am... so very much :)

    • H.C Porter profile imageAUTHOR

      Holly 

      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      michael ely,

      thanks for the comment-I am glad you stopped by to read it as well :)

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      ahorseback 

      8 years ago

      Don't worry H.C. they will never forget you .No matter what. They own you now.

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      Laurel Rogers 

      8 years ago from Bishop, Ca

      Lovely, H.C.

      Thank you.

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      michael ely 

      8 years ago from Scotland

      Hi H.C porter, A really great poem. I'm glad i stopped by to read it. Thanks. Michael.

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