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Conflicted Affair

Updated on June 4, 2013

I'm in way too deep. We can't continue on like THIS.

I find myself as helpless as a baby. There's nothing about you that I can RESIST.

Emotion has overwhelmed my logic. Yes it's really that BAD.

You have become my drug of choice, you supply the greatest high I have ever HAD.

We are in an affair. How did we go THERE?

Families are at stake. How could we DARE?

You are unhappily married, so too am I.

Barely holding on for the children, make believe smiles cover up a LIE.

Is there a remedy, pill, or some kind of POTION?

That will shock me to my senses and slow down this roller coaster ride of EMOTION.

We are in an affair. How did we go THERE?

Lives are hanging in the balance. How could we DARE?

You tell me I love you, oh my baby, I love you too.

My God, you're pregnant?! Now what do we DO?!

Only you and I will ever know, this secret must remain HIDDEN.

Father, please forgive us, for our next course of action is truly FORBIDDEN.

When I'm with you, I'm validated and EMPOWERED.

As I stand looking in the mirror, my eyes reflect a COWARD.

I can't change the past. I can only deal with the NOW.

If I could, I would. If I only knew HOW.

We are in an affair. How did we go THERE?

All trust is broken. How could we DARE?

At night I toss and turn, barely getting any SLEEP.

As I lay next to my wife overcome with guilt, I bury face in my pillow and silently WEEP.

What in the hell have I done to my LIFE?!

Though she's not perfect, she's a great mother and WIFE.

Time heals all wounds and broken hearts can MEND.

As much as I need and want to, not now, this tryst can't END.

Please don't judge me, surely I am not ALONE.

For it is written, he who is without sin cast the first STONE.


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      Sally Gulbrandsen 

      5 years ago from Norfolk

      There are no winners - ultimately everyone ends up losing, including the cheater, their children and both their immediate families and friends. Hindsight is a beautiful thing.

    • Man of Strength profile imageAUTHOR

      Man of Strength 

      5 years ago from Orlando, Fl

      Thank you so much for reading it. No spouse deserves to be cheated on. I think it's usually more lust than love. This man was on the brink of losing it all and he knew it.

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      Sally Gulbrandsen 

      5 years ago from Norfolk

      Having been the one 'Though she's not perfect, she's a great mother and WIFE' I find this gut wrenching stuff - not sure about the 'enjoyed it quotation' above but I hope that all men who have affairs realize that they too are 'NOT PERFECT'. Great poem though Man of Strength.

    • Man of Strength profile imageAUTHOR

      Man of Strength 

      5 years ago from Orlando, Fl

      I tried to make him as conflicted as I could. I'm glad that you enjoyed it. Thanks for reading it.

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      5 years ago from Lost...In Video Games

      This was amazing. You can feel the angst and the passion in this. You truly brought out the conflict in this poem. Well done! Voted it up awesome!


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