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I'm Still Here

Updated on June 7, 2019
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Retired counselor, 341 short stories published by FSU. I have 4 sons, love sharing photography, writing, love travel, sunshine, sea & Grace.


For my sons:

Once, the summer breeze warmed us, and words we used were molded from the feelings you trusted, and we would snuggle up, close

Now, huge rocks rise between us, and we get cut and bleed, there's no way through

Memories of small boy/s, big eyes, open hearts. Words like arms, wrapped in tenderness and care. Easy flowing with no icebergs. But winter was on its way...

Now, this land is barren; ice-covered, cracked and broken; huge chasms have formed

You’re over there, I am here. I am here. Still here. Calling out from a place once so warm; screaming through chasms and rocks, echoes...lost

I miss our summer garden. Wild young buds and open flowers! Weeds manageable (and I love to garden). Time. Takes its toll on caretakers and weeds so high, no sky, could only feel my way, fumbling, bumping into things (tender buds, you who I nurtured; I bruised) and now

Wilderness. Desert. Rocks. Where's the stream? Where are you? Where's the bridge back?

Can you feel me (where the rocks and the chasms and the deserts and the wildernesses don't exist)? ...Can't you feel me?

I am here, I am here, I am still here. (Echo, echo, echo....)


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      Joan King 

      2 years ago

      Very well said. We have to accept that our kids grow up and have their own lives. Yes I miss mine but they are always only a phone call or text away. I allow them their space but I don't wait for them to contact me, I contact them.

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      Helen Lewis 

      2 years ago from Florida

      Thanks for your kind comments, AliciaC

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      Linda Crampton 

      2 years ago from British Columbia, Canada

      This is a powerful poem. I'm sorry about the situation that you're facing.

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      Elisa Deviani Koswara 

      2 years ago

      thank you for beautiful poems Helen... i felt far away from him too

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      Helen Lewis 

      2 years ago from Florida

      Thanks for your comments and kind words Gwenneth Leane, its even worse wheen they blame you for their failures!

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      Gwenneth Leane 

      2 years ago

      You have expressed honestly and deeply how mothers feel when their children have grown and fled the nest.

      Once a mother always a mother. Its the letting go that is hard and is a grief. Lovely feeling, thought and presented.

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      Helen Lewis 

      2 years ago from Florida

      Thanks Susan; in a lot of pain right now due to some undeserved serious rejection. The loneliest path in the world is the one parent family ...heart broken these last few years. Thanks for your kind comment!

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      Susan Zutautas 

      2 years ago from Ontario, Canada

      It's a shame we can't go back to when they were once little boys. Beautiful poem!


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