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Im still here

Updated on November 19, 2010

 im still here

waiting once again

for the tenderness of your pain.

you found me, scooped me up

i felt rescued

and now im down again

too much time

too many words

not enough moments

i want more

greedily i hunger for more of your existance

selfishly i watched as you wondered

beautifully i dream recalling midnights and moonlights

your gone again

maybe i did deserve a bite

maybe thats all i deserved.

i dont feel you watching me anymore

i dont feel you seeking or wondering.

feels kinda cold

im still breathing

im still searching

to feel what i felt again.

 

 

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    • BeyondMax profile image

      BeyondMax 

      6 years ago from Sydney, Australia

      I have over a hundred pages opened in this browser and pictures don't load well (crappy internet), so I scroll them back later. When I finished reading this gorgeous poem I had this vision of sitting on the cliff and watching sunset and feeling the gust of wind slapping my face... Then! Then I scrolled the page up and nearly fell of the chair, the picture was almost the same except it portrays silver grey day...but still! You are simply awesome at drawing the poem!

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      bladesofgrass 

      7 years ago from The Fields of Iowa

      Thanks for bearing your soul...great read. :)

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      wow, thank you awful poet.

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      David Walston 

      7 years ago from The Large Magellanic Cloud (LMC) (m-M)_0 = 18.41, or 48 kpc (~157,000

      Pure truth pain and beauty I adore your work.

    • epigramman profile image

      epigramman 

      7 years ago

      ....you're still here - thank goodness for that - and you're still writing up a 'perfect storm' - funny just before I received your comment today I was thinking about you - must be hub telepathy!!!!!

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      Sa`ge 

      7 years ago from Barefoot Island

      you have got the tail of the animal and are ready to throw it into orbit. :) Your experiences have given way to wisdom and finding out who you are to you. Dancing on them buttons with a vote up to you. :D hugs LD

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      Peg- im starting to feel like ive had enough experiences with others. I feel like im clinging more to the dream of someone else than an actual someone. Im actually starting to fullfill my own dreams, and wow, thats so much more satisfying.

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      Peg Cole 

      7 years ago from Dallas, Texas

      Deep and thoughtful, pink. Ralwus is right. Someone is out there who will seek and wonder.

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      Abdinasir Aden 

      7 years ago from Minneapolis, MN

      It is great hub, I need to read more. Thanks for sharing.

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      puresilence- however noble, intention to give sincere feedback can be detremental. Sometimes severe honesty, like say for example the thing about "self pity" is just going to be receved as a slam, even if its not. Dont worry about it, just be careful.

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      puresilence 

      7 years ago from New Delhi

      My intention was just to give you my own personal sincere feedback.. anyhow you are so true that I end up hurting people.. may be because of wrong choice of words. Anyhow thanks for accepting my apology.

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      its ok, puresilence...i was leaning towards the notion that maybe you were unaware you were being so personally criticle. In that case, apology accepted. Just be kinder to my feelings, im very sensative!!!

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      puresilence 

      7 years ago from New Delhi

      Sorry for hurting you! I will be more careful next time while choosing words. Though I am really really glad that you are back. Apologies again.

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      puresilence- there you go again with mixing compliments with insults. what is wrong with you? im cute yet full of self pity??? thats kind of condecending, dont you think? please be more careful when commenting on my work. there are a select few that i allow to be so forward with me, and your not one of them. mainly because your hurting my feelings. and i protect my feelings. Im not full of self pity. Sorry i cant write you a poem about gummy bears and rainbows...im a little more complex than that.

    • the pink umbrella profile imageAUTHOR

      the pink umbrella 

      7 years ago from the darkened forest deep within me.

      ralwus- love hearing from you as usual. lol, eat the next one up...you know me too well

    • puresilence profile image

      puresilence 

      7 years ago from New Delhi

      To feel what I felt again.. so much yearning for past. Beautiful words though little sad and full of self pity. Never mind I guess pink umbrella is just started again.. and I hope after sabbath you will bloom again.. color I know.. as usual cute pink.. felt great to read from you again..keep penning.

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      ralwus 

      7 years ago

      ' . . . waiting once again

      for the tenderness of your pain.' Seek another you'll find it. Then eat him up.

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