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The Heartbreaking Kind

Updated on January 25, 2017
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Still trying to figure out


How I ever got caught up in such a mess,


It was a one sided heartbreaking kind of relationship


That was never meant to last, thank God,


I gave everything to you


You drained me more than I ever thought possible


You used me in so many ways


You hardly ever held me unless it was to make yourself happy


No loving long spine tingling kisses


Unless you count the times you felt guilty for hurting me again


I walked on egg shells around you


Everything I did, well according to you was never done right


Nothing I did for you ever seemed to be enough


You broke my spirit down so bad


It took me years to build it back up


I am so much better now, so glad for that


I would actually like to thank you


I am so much stronger than when we was together


Let someone raise their voice to me now


I will not put up with that kind of abuse again


I don't spend obsessive amounts of time on trying to be perfect


Or way too much time being someone's unpaid maid


I had my fair share of that catering to you


See I am way too busy now making myself happy


To let someone use me like an old rag



I finally figured out to truly find love


I had to start loving myself first


So if your wondering if I miss you


This should answer any doubt you may have


But just in case you can't understand plain text


The answer of course is "NO"


See I will never miss you


Because when I was with you


I missed me


I am so happy to have my old self back


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    • Deborah Brooks profile image

      Deborah Brooks Langford 

      6 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      wow love your poem.. I have been in relationships like that too.. and the best thing to do is get away as far as you can.

      sharing

      Debbie

    • prettynutjob30 profile imageAUTHOR

      Mary 

      6 years ago from From the land of Chocolate Chips,and all other things sweet.

      Thank you guys.

    • Mhatter99 profile image

      Martin Kloess 

      6 years ago from San Francisco

      How does one describe a red rose to the blind?

    • teaches12345 profile image

      Dianna Mendez 

      6 years ago

      Good that you found the relationship was not working for you before you lost yourself. Good thoughts and well expressed.

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      Joyce Haragsim 

      6 years ago from Southern Nevada

      l'm so glad your over such a bad relationship.

      Voted up and awesome, Joyce.

    • Angela Blair profile image

      Angela Blair 

      6 years ago from Central Texas

      Love the ending on this one -- it's amazing how no matter how badly the heartbreak self-preservation usually gets us through. Best/Sis

    • BeyondMax profile image

      BeyondMax 

      6 years ago from Sydney, Australia

      Heart-breakingly sad, I am glad that there is a happy ending to it, light at the end of the tunnel, so to speak. Emotionally expressive!

    • prettynutjob30 profile imageAUTHOR

      Mary 

      6 years ago from From the land of Chocolate Chips,and all other things sweet.

      Thank you it is actually based on a very bad relationship I used to be in.

    • Mhatter99 profile image

      Martin Kloess 

      6 years ago from San Francisco

      I hope this was just a good poem.

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