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Inspirational Conundrum

Updated on December 1, 2010

Heres to not being inspired...

not that I want to be inspired or admired...

time moves swifter when no one is looking...

no one including myself...

putting my self on the shelf for a while...

not forcing the thoughts to flow...

mile after mile I can walk in this fashion...

giving up passion in place of a smile...

a glee to be free of myself and all others...

what it would be like to be free of the bother...

I am however possessed of a whip...

my self and me in a session of pain..

it passes for pleasure because I have known few...

I crave it and it won't let me be...

so I sit down pen bleeding more...

sometimes I wonder if it might run out...

then find I ways to bleed different then before...

a heart that grows more blood for the need...

how convenient to have such a gift...

to be able to never slack in red...

If it weren't a matter of will...

I'd just take a pill...

reclining taciturn on my bed...

I will me to torture me still...

I need my session like I need little else...

conundrum or not it places me where I was before...

taking myself off the shelf...

putting a few more drops on the page.

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    • Jaggedfrost profile imageAUTHOR

      Jaggedfrost 

      7 years ago

      lol thanks nighthag, being a dark poet seems cool up until it becomes apparent to you that you cant seem to get out of it. I keep trying to write things that are or could be considered humorous and they always come out as mocking of someone, maybe even myself. Maybe that is a flaw in me. If it works for you then I suppose it aught to work for me but still....

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      K.A.E Grove 

      7 years ago from Australia

      this was very well written, some inspiration comes from a dark place but it is that which connects with so many. as not all are so gifted to express their pain.

      beautiful Rating it up of course

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