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Irretrievable

Updated on November 16, 2013
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Irretrievable

By Tony DeLorger © 2011


Irretrievable the memories I have stowed away,

in darkest corners of my soul they reside.

Too painful to see the light of day,

too shattering to once again feel.


Irretrievable the love I once gave,

in blood I lost a part of me.

Too devastating to realise in consciousness,

and too destructive to experience again.


Irretrievable the sadness that each day brings,

when loss is ever-present in my heart.

Too open the wounds unhealed,

and too disappointed the betrayal of commitment.


Irretrievable the self-preservation of which I’ve clung,

in hope of finding peace and a tranquil end.

Too excruciating this mortal life,

and too harsh the people within it.


Irretrievable my hearts disdain,

lost in the dark shadow of my soul.

Too negative to surface into life,

too wrong my response.


Retrievable my life, as dark as it’s been,

from the complexities of living in awareness.

Too glorious to wipe clean from existence,

and too profound to not push on through the turmoil.


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    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      6 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Glad you appreciated it novicemuse. Thanks for reading and your comment.

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      novicemuse 

      6 years ago

      I like the desolate atmosphere you create and then your upheaval of that desperation in the final stanza. It's very dramatic and thought-provoking.

    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      7 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Glad it got to you anusha15. Thanks for reading.

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      Anusha Jain 

      7 years ago from Delhi, India

      Too intense, too dark - The way it was intended to be. Feelings like this are scary enough to raise goosebumps, they are more effective than horror... such dark hopelessness...

      Apt pictures too, well this successfully caused goosebumps :)

    • Tony DeLorger profile imageAUTHOR

      Tony DeLorger 

      7 years ago from Adelaide, South Australia

      Glad you enjoyed it Romancer. Thanks for taking the time to read and comment. Take care

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      ROMANCER OF LIFE 

      7 years ago from Honolulu, Hawaii

      Very intense and yet so true for most! I really enjoyed reading. Loved it!

      Romancer

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